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Heaven's Calling: A Memoir of One Soul's Steep Ascent

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Leanne Payne was called out of brokenness into union with Christ, and her nearly fifty-year journey with God has been an adventure of healing, grace, and truth--and of the accompanying spiritual battles. She has spent her life proclaiming the freeing message that Christ lives in us, and offers the ministry of Jesus especially to those suffering from the effects of past sins and woundedness, self-rejection, and long-standing addictions.
By exposing her own life, complete with its triumphs and failures, Mrs. Payne brings extraordinary clarity and understanding on a surprisingly large range of subjects, including gender identity, sexual neurosis, gnosticism, false prophecy, transference, healing prayer, incarnational reality, and sacramental worship. Her story illustrates how one soul, listening to and obeying the Lord, can revel in the abundant life that is available to us all.

352 pages, Hardcover

First published September 1, 2008

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Leanne Payne

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Mrs. Payne has been active in the ministry of healing prayer for over thirty years. She is the founder and president of Pastoral Care Ministries.

Her books include: Real Presence, The Broken Image, Healing the Homosexual, Crisis in Masculinity, Healing Presence, Restoring the Christian Soul, and Listening Prayer.

She has taught for Wheaton College, in the graduate program in Christian Spirituality at Creighton University, as well as for University of the Nations. She holds both a BA and MA from Wheaton College as well as an MA from the University of Arkansas. Mrs. Payne was also a research fellow at Yale Divinity School.

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While I haven’t read this book, I’ve read all of Payne’s other books. Anyway, I wanted to give some background about Payne to warn others before they consider reading this book.

Many years ago, Leanne Payne was a member of the Church of the Resurrection in Chicago. Apparently, she eventually became involved in various quarrels and the sin of divisiveness, which Paul the apostle warned sternly about. One of her associates, Valerie McIntyre, also become involved in this sin. To learn more about Payne’s malicious behavior, here's a three-part article called “A Sad Story: When Psychology Destroys Christian Friendship” by a guy named Dan Brennan, who attended her church:

https://web.archive.org/web/201208100...

Brennan's article describes how Payne ruthlessly cut both her church and Mario Bergner, a former associate of hers, out of her life completely. She basically just "ghosted" both of them. Before their split, however, she and Bergner were like mother and son. In fact, she even wrote the foreword to his book Setting Love in Order. But in this autobiography of hers, there is absolutely no mention of him at all. None. After they had worked together so closely for years and years, suddenly Bergner never even existed. 😧

Ironically enough, McIntyre (mentioned above) writes the following in her book Sheep in Wolves’ Clothing: "The Scripture has a name for this kind of dark [behavior]: factiousness, or . . . divisiveness. Of all the sins that issue out of transference, this is the most destructive." And then concerning how to deal with a contentious person in the Church, she writes: "More important, however, is rescuing the entire flock from danger through lovingly excommunicating the factious one. Sadly, when pastors wait too long to take this action the unrepentant person may not only leave of her own volition, but take others with her." Well, that's exactly what happened with Payne. She “ghosted” her church, taking several others, including McIntyre, with her.

So, it appears that Leanne Payne should have been excommunicated from her own church. As Paul says in Titus 3:10–11 (ESV): “As for a person who stirs up division, after warning him once and then twice, have nothing more to do with him, knowing that such a person is warped and sinful; he is self-condemned” [italics mine]. It's highly ironic as well that in her book The Healing Presence, Payne cautions strongly against the dangers of disunity. And for some more irony, "ghosting" is incredibly immature (and sadistic), indicating a serious lack of mature self-acceptance, a virtue that Payne is continually emphasizing in her books. Indeed, it seems that her hypocrisy was off the charts. 😬 Furthermore, in Matthew 7:15 (ESV), Jesus warned: "Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep's clothing but inwardly are ravenous wolves." 🐺

Did Payne start out as a false prophet? Probably not. But like so many religious leaders, it seems that she eventually became conceited and consumed with selfish ambition. Or, to use her own terminology, she became "trapped in a fleshly drive toward power." Then she started building her own kingdom instead of Christ's. However, as Jesus pointed out, you cannot serve both God and Mammon. Not only that, but according to Payne herself in Restoring the Christian Soul: "Bona fide spiritual power, when in the service of unmet ego needs, quickly becomes corrupted by reason of 'admixtures'—i.e., incursions of fleshly and even demonic darkness. The Holy Spirit, offended, does not remain under such circumstances, so that which began in goodness ends in something carnal or even occult." Any kind of power, though, when not directed by mature wisdom, can be dangerous. What that means is that "leaders" like Payne are extremely dangerous to the Body of Christ 😧, and Satan loves the havoc they create.

Something to think about: If Paul tells us to have “nothing more to do with” such a contentious, divisive person, then why would anyone ever want to read their autobiography? 🤔

And something else to ponder: According to the New Testament, is it even biblical for a woman to have her own formal, public ministry? Well, there's no record of a woman ever having a public ministry anywhere in the Bible, nor is a woman ever described as an apostle or elder (the authority positions). This is not just a reflection of the culture back then either, but rather an indication of how God ordained ministry. However, even if we put that matter aside for now, Payne was divorced three times 😲—from two different men (she married the same man twice)—which shows that she had serious problems getting along with others. In fact, in her obituary from 2015 (which you can easily find online), there was no mention at all of her daughter Deborah (who's still living), so she obviously didn't write her mother's obituary. And, as pompous and bloated as it is, the obituary reads as though Payne wrote it herself. About 95% of it consists of her tooting her own horn, and only about 5% of it actually mentions her loved ones. It's also interesting that she didn't even bother to mention the names of her grandchildren or great-grandchildren. Anyway, it appears that Payne cut her only child Deborah out of her life too, in much the same way that she did with Mario Bergner and her church. Sadly, she seems to have had a sick pattern of "divorcing" those close to her. 👿

Now, let's ask: Should someone this unstable, with such a history of past upheavals in close relationships, be allowed anywhere near the role of "minister"? 🤔 According to Scripture, leaders are supposed to be beyond reproach, with blameless histories, so being divorced three times would definitely be a deal-breaker. Not only that, but Payne also set herself up as president of her own ministry (which is also unbiblical), probably so that she could rule it like a religious tyrant without any accountability. In addition, it seems that she surrounded herself with yes-men (or, particularly in her case, yes-women). As a matter of fact, I believe the reason she ghosted her church is that she was always used to getting her own way, and then when someone in leadership actually tried to hold her accountable for her actions, she was having none of that. So, she said, "Hasta la vista, baby!" 🤡

To add icing to the cake, writing an autobiography is about the most conceited thing a Christian could possibly do. By their very nature, autobiographies are self-promoting and narcissistic. (Dan Brennan, mentioned earlier, has also stated that Payne had a big ego.) Basically, people who write autobiographies are egotistical, self-absorbed attention seekers, who just want to make money off their life story. Of course, we understand it when Hollywood celebrities do this—indeed, it's practically normal for them. But it's not normal for a Christian—especially a so-called mature Christian leader—to do this . . . and is actually a huge red flag. ⛳️ Essentially, this is the message that gets conveyed: "Enough about Jesus—let's talk about ME!!" 🪞 And what's wild is that in her book Listening Prayer, Payne writes the following: "If we are to know or learn anything profitably, we must desire to be unknown and esteemed as nothing." Now tell me—exactly how can you write an autobiography and at the same time "desire to be unknown and esteemed as nothing"?? News flash: You can't!!! 😆 Obviously, those pesky rules that she teaches in her books are only meant for other people, not herself. 👸

Moreover, Paul the apostle specifically addressed this kind of carnal behavior: "In the last days . . . people will be lovers of self [narcissistic, self-focused]" (2 Tim. 3:1–2, AMP). And concerning our great need for humility, John the Baptist said: "He must increase, but I must decrease" (John 3:30, NKJV). Even Payne's favorite author, C. S. Lewis, warned about the sinful human tendency toward "incessant autobiography." Now, let's ask this basic question: Would Christ approve of a Christian writing an autobiography? 🤔 I don't think so—the Bible says to praise others, not yourself. The old man in all of us wants to glorify self, but the new man in Christ seeks first to glorify God—and then to esteem others as better than himself. Jesus also said that those who promote their good deeds before men, whom He called hypocrites, will lose their heavenly rewards for those deeds. However, I think He might approve of a Christian writing a biography about another Christian that they admire.

One more thing. I know someone personally who, many years ago, attended one of Payne's Pastoral Care Ministries schools. We'll call her Sarah. She had an eating disorder and was looking for help, and one of Payne's associates encouraged her to attend. Sarah had to take a whole week off from work and fly nearly a thousand miles to Chicago for the conference. And did she get any help? The short answer is "no." After sitting through a week's worth of lectures and teaching, she got only about ten minutes of low-intensity prayer at the very end, which she said didn't do anything for her. Looking back, Sarah said that Payne's ministry had absolutely nothing to offer her (and had seriously misled her by convincing her that they did), and she felt that they couldn't have cared less about the people who actually attended. Furthermore, was there any sort of follow-up, asking important questions like: "Did you get the help you needed at our conference?"? Nope—zero follow-up. In fact, Sarah thinks Payne's goal was merely to make money by having warm bodies fill up the seats at her conferences. In other words, it seems that Payne's "ministry" was little more than a dishonest business (think Mammon), of which she was the CEO. But in John 10:13, Jesus warned about the hireling, saying that he cares nothing about the sheep. 🤑 And as 1 Corinthians 13:2 points out, if you don't have love for others, then you yourself are nothing. 0️⃣

Anyway, I hope this information is helpful to anyone who’s thinking about reading this book. While Payne is now deceased, that doesn't really change matters here. For the record, I think Payne's other books are quite good, so it's not really her teachings that I have a problem with. Rather, it was her failure to practice what she preached. In a nutshell, an unrepentant, hypocritical prima donna like Payne, who seems to have eventually become a false prophet, is not someone that Christians should look up to. In fact, she's an excellent example of how not to behave. 🧐
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September 24, 2008
Well, I finished this autobiography last night. It was a wonderful glimps into the events in LeeAnne Payne's life (early life especially) that shaped her and uniquely prepared her for the wonderful healing ministry she founded and remains such a gifted part of. I was surprised to find that her childhood "church" experience closely resembled my own very conservative upbringing ... her reflections on all of that were a delight for me to read. She gives such insightful reflections also on the Holy Spirit renewal movement (charismatic movement) that was sweeping so many churches in the 60's and 70's and bringing all manner of changes to even mainline denominations. I also could relate to that as I was a "searching" teen in those years and was caught up in the renewal movement with some resultant pitfalls that could have been rather detrimental ... God was so faithful to protect me in those years!! I loved her reflections on the Midwest ... as I grew up in IL, the state where she and her daughter eventually moved. As is always her style, she cannot just "tell" her story, but goes off on little rabbit trails to expound on the lesson(s) learned at various stages of her life ... often incorporating information found in her other books ... so that the book at times seems a bit choppy.I loved her telling about her daughter and the relationship they had ... and would have loved to hear more about her daughter and how she related to her over the years in ministry. She sort of drops that subject after telling how her daughter got married and moved to England where she and her husband were a part of a Christian ministry there ... after that we hear NOTHING more about her daughter. I want to know more !
Overall, however, the book was a delight ... and a wonderful reminder to me again of all that the Lord set in motion in my own life as a result of reading LeeAnne Payne's books and having the privelege of attending a Wheaton, IL PCM conference in 1998. LeeAnne is a truly remarkable, gifted woman who God continues to use in remarkable ways.
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January 14, 2021
I am reading this book in preparation for writing my PhD dissertation.

I have learned, as a Pentecostal Christian, that doing theology from lack of experience can be a dangerous thing. Although I appreciate hearing the incarnational story and theology of a mighty woman of God and a pioneer of healing ministry, I cannot recommend this book, especially to people who love and take seriously the testimonies of LGBTQ Christians who have been wounded deeply by Payne’s ministry (or other types that share her assumptions).

One key miscommunication: despite what many of my evangelical siblings believe, calling oneself “gay” does *not* imply sexual activity, but describes the direction of attraction—to the same gendersex. (Justin Lee in Torn and other places, makes this point forcefully.)

My question after reading a book like this is: if I agree with and often experience the kind of Christian spirituality that Payne recommends, and yet I still disagree with her about queerness, am I really, in truth, “Neo-Gnostic”? It seems to me that when Christians end up “demonizing” those who differ with us (even on important matters like sexuality), the Evil One (whom Payne mentions particularly in conjunction with homosexuality) is pleased, indeed.
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September 22, 2009
Byron is right: never read autobiographies. Authors ramble on about parts of their lives that are actually not as interesting to the readers, and do not elucidate areas that are of more crucial interest to the reader. This book has some gems in it, mostly of Leanne’s assertions about the Real. If you read this book to know her thoughts on the spiritual and the Real, it is entirely fulfilling. If you read this book to find out more about her life and ministry, you will be disappointed about half-way through. While she gives more details than the reader really wants about her life to about age 25, there are great gaps after that, and also years of generalities. She does do a masterful job at detailing the early pressures and influence in her life, while also taking full responsibility for her actions. A book worth reading, though with the caveat that the reader will definitely get insights into her passion and intuition, but much less on actual events of her ministry years. This is a great introduction to her books on healing because it reveals where many of her insights came from, as well as presenting important foundational thoughts that are repeated in the books in different forms.
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July 7, 2012
This is an autobiography, a book on theology, a book on healing prayer, and a song of praise to our awesome God! Not easy reading as she introduces some concepts of which I had no previous background, but she surely wet my appetite! It is amazing how the Lord can use a truly submitted person. Her impulsive personality initially led her into making some decisions that brought her to the end of herself. And then she surrendered totally and began to be used mightily. I have ordered several more books by her.
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January 21, 2009
Leanne Payne is one of the true Christian Pioneers of our time. Her life's dedication to Christ and her partnership in His mission of healing is truely inspirational. There are many treasures to mine in this book. I will be reading it over and over.
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February 8, 2009
This book did not disappoint. I like almost all of Leanne Payne's topical writing, but hearing her life story was even better. What other authors do you know who tell of herds of cows following their singing?
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April 15, 2009
just got this one in the mail and can't wait to start it! i am a huge fan of leanne payne; she is one powerful woman of God.
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January 1, 2014
Leanne Payne will not be familiar to a lot of people. An interesting read. Agree with some of it; disagree with other parts; other parts I dont understand. Will have to read it again in due course
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February 11, 2015
Leanne's life includes her life changing encounters with other believers living and in books. It's been a joy to discover her and others who can enrich us all now.
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March 21, 2016
Too many details

An interesting memoir but a bit more than I was expecting. There was enough to get me interested in reading some of her other books.
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January 3, 2017
Very good. I liked reading all her books in the order written with this one being the final installment. I could see how she continued to grow in her understanding and practice of God.
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