Borges wrote what better gift can we hope for than to be insignificant? What greater glory for a God, than to be absolved of the world?
Sickly man-child Marcel Proust who never left his room... Or at least that is the story that formed in my mind over many years... Would probably have disagreed. Everything seems to have significance for Proust from the colour of the sky to the shape of the waves and these help illustrate what he wants to say about certain preoccupations he has about things like melancholy:
“The zone of melancholy which I then entered was as distinct from the zone in which I had been bounding with joy a moment before as, in certain skies, a band of pink is separated, as though by a line invisibly ruled, from a band of green or black. You may see a bird flying across the pink; it draws near the border-line, touches it, enters and is lost upon the black” (199)
‘Remembrance of Things Past’ is a book I waited for thirty years to read. Silly me. I thought it would have been too difficult to read in my twenties. I foolishly let some part of myself that feared a challenge deprive me of a pleasue I could have enjoyed all those years ago. I should have read it when I was in my 20s because that is probably when I needed it most. It deals with lots of stuff like; memory, habit, obsession, beauty, snobbery, friendship, literature, the theatre, landscape and the importance of a name. Coming to the end of volume one the narrator reflects that:
“... when a name whose letters are every moment engraved more deeply on our hearts by our incessant thought of them has become ... the first coherent sound that comes to our lips, whether on waking from sleep or on recovering from a fainting fit, even before the idea of what time it is or where we are, almost before the word "I", as though the person whom it names were more "us" than we are ourselves, and as though after a brief spell of unconsciousness the phase that is the first to dissolve were that in which we were not thinking of her” (859)
If this isn't obsessive love I don't know what is! Then there is the observations of all kinds of cruelty including that practiced by the narrator's cook Francoise which is compared to a burrowing wasp. Her methods are subtle but unrelenting, applied on a daily basis. Francoise had:
“…adopted a series of strategems so cunning and so pitiless that, many years later, we discovered that if we had been fed on asparagus day after day throughout that summer, it was because their smell gave the poor kitchen maid who had to prepare them such violent attacks of asthma that she was finally obliged to leave my aunt's service” (134)
At around a thousand pages ‘Rememberance of Things Past’ is rather long. You need lots of time and somewhere quiet to read. Proust has not just a lot of remembering to do, he also turns things over in his mind to pinpoint exactly the kinds of behaviour and attitudes that he is describing both in terms of social class as well as from different personal and historical perspectives. This book is encyclopedic. Here are some of the observations that have struck me:
“There is the anguish of M Swann's love for Odette... knowing that the creature one adores is in some place of enjoyment where oneself is not and cannot follow” (32)
Then there is the narrator crying in bed for his mother... “I felt that I had with an imperious and secret finger traced a first wrinkle upon her soul and brought out a first white hair on her head” 41)
There is the obervation about... “A "real" person, profoundly as we may sympathise with him, is in a great measure perceptible only through our senses, that is to say, remains opaque, presents a dead weight which our sensibilities have not the strength to lift” (91)
Then there is the young narrator obsessively copying out his beloved's name Gilberte and her address... “I felt discouraged, because they spoke to me, not of Gilberte, who would never so much as see them, but of my own desire, which they seemed to show me in its true colours, as something purely personal, unreal, tedious and ineffectual” (434)
The narrator is split in two by a love he feels that can never be realised... ���there is the Gilberte he loves and the Gilberte he plays with in the park. There is the me who loves Gilberte and the me who plays with her in the park” (438)
He oberves a few pages earlier that... “As a result he never enoys the time he spends with her... this is when he still believed that Love really did exist outside ourselves” 434)
The outside world proves just as elusive... “The places we have known do not belong only to the world of space on which we map them for our own convenience. None of them was ever more than a thin slice, held between the contiguous impressions that compsed our life at that time; the memory of a particular image is but regret for a particular moment; and houses, roads, avenues are as fugitive, alas, as the years” (462)
As for the mind of the narrator, it appears that that may just be part of a much larger entity... “For my intelligence must be one - perhaps there indeed exists but a single intelligence of which everyone is a co-tennant, an intelligence towards which each of us from out of his own separate body turns his eyes, as in a theatre where, if everyone has his own separate seat, there is on the other hand but a single stage” (612)
Time seems to be the key to the various dilemmas presented by existence... “if our unhappiness is due to the loss of someone dear to us, our suffering consists merely in an unusually vivid comparison of the present with the past” (654)
And time seems to be what gives substance to Truth... “The truth which one puts into one's words does not carve out a direct path for itself, is not irresistibly self-evident. A considerable time must elapse before a truth of the same order can take shape in them” (659)
The constructs the narrator builds in his mind become the world he lives in... “We construct our lives for one person, and when at length it is ready to receive her that person does not come; presently she is dead to us, and we live on, prisoners within the walls which were intended only for her” (682)
Adolesence is the only time we learn anything... “In a world thronged with monsters and with gods, we know little peace of mind. There is hardly a single action we perform in that phase which we would not give anything, in later life, to be able to annul. Whereas that we ought to regret is that we no longer possess the spontaneity which made us perform them. In later life we look at things in a more practical way, in full conformity with the rest of society, but adolesence is the only period in which we learn anything.” (785)
In answer to Tolstoy and his observation about happy families Proust observes that... “In the human race, the frequency of the virtues that are identical in us all is not more wonderful than the multiplicity of the defects that are peculiar to each one of us” (796)
As for photographs... “A photograph acquires something of the dignity which it ordinarily lacks when it ceases to be a reproduction of reality and shows us things which no longer exist” (821)
There is the idea that true Beauty depends on the unattainablitity of the object of desire... “Let but a single flash of reality - the glimpse of a woman from afar or from behind - enable us to project the image of Beauty before our eyes, and we imagine that we have recognised it, our hearts beat, and we will always remain half-persuaded that it was She, provided that the woman has vanished: it is only if we manage to overtake her that we realise our mistake” (845)
Proust's world is a world cteated from art, literature, music and theatre. Here the narrator describes his world as if it were some kind of painting down to the butterfly sleeping on the window sill:
“When I came home from a walk and was getting ready to go down to the kitchen before dinner, a band of red sky above the sea, compact and clear-cut as a layer of aspic over meat, then, a little later, over a sea already cold and steel-blue like a grey mullet, a sky of the same pink as the salmon that we should presently be ordering at Rivebell, reawakened my pleasure in dressing to go out to dinner” (861)
“And sometimes to a sky and sea uniformly grey to a touch of pink would be added with an exquisite delicacy, while a little butterfly that had gone to sleep at the foot of the window seemed to be appending with its wings at the corner” (863)
Finally, on listening to music and comparing the charms of music to those of a woman, the narrator observes that:
“For these tunes, each as individual as a woman , did not reserve, as she would have done, for some privileged person the voluptuous secret which they contained: they offered it to me, ogled me, came up to me with lewd or provocative movements, accosted me, caressed meas if i had suddenly become more seductive, more pwerful, richer” (870)
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If only I had read this stuff years ago!!! Oh, and here are some things that Samuel Beckett had to say about Proust's world in 1931:
“Time is a double-headed monster of damnation and salvation” (1)
“There is no escape from the hours and days” (2)
“The individual is the seat of a constant process of decantation, decantation from the vessel containing the fluid of future time, sluggish, pale and monochrome, to the vessel the fluid of past time, agitated and multicoloured by the phenomena of its hours” (5)
“At the best, all that is realised in Time (all Time produce), whether in Art or Life, can only be possessed successively, by a series of partial annexations - and never integrally and at once” (7)
“Memory and Habit are attributes of the Time cancer” (7)
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“Habit is a compromise effected between the individual and its environment, or between the individual and his own organic eccentricities, the guarantee of a dull inviolability, the lightening-conductor of his existence. Habit is the ballast that chains the dog to his vomit. Breathing is habit. Life is habit” (8)
“Habit is like Francoise, the immortal cook of the Proust household, who knows what has to be done, and will slave all day and all night rather than tolerate any redundant activity in the kitchen” (9)
“On arrival in Balbec there is no room for the narrator... for his body in this vast and hideous apartment because his attention has peopled it with gigantic firniture, a storm of sound and an agony of colour. Habit has not had time to silence the explosions of the clock, reduce the hostility of the violet curtains, remove the furniture and lower the inaccessible vault of this belvedere” (13)
“The importance of involuntary memory... restores, not merely the past object, but the Lazarus that it charmed or tortured... But involuntary memory is an unruly magician and will not be importuned. .. I do not know how often this miracle recurs in Proust. I think twelve or thirteen times... The whole of Proust's world comes out of a teacup, and not merely Combray and his childhood” (21)
“One only loves that which is not possessed, one only loves that in which one pursues the inaccessible” 35)
“Our most exclusive love for a person is always our love for something else” (40)
“Man is the creature that cannot cone forth from himself, who knows others only in himself, and who, if he asserts the contrary, lies” (49)
“Reality, whether approached imaginatively or empiricaly, remains a surface, hermetic. Imagination, applied - a priori - to what is absent, is exercised in vacuo and cannot tolerate the limits of the real” (56)
“Proust's impressionism - By his impressionism I mean his non-logical statement of phenomena in the order and exactitude of their perception, before they have been distorted into intelligibility in order to be forced into a chain of cause snd effect” (66)
“It is significant that the majority of his images are vegetable. He assimilates the human to the vegetal. He is conscious of humanity as flora, never fauna” (68)