I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
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Kerryl is, as far as she knows, the only person on Earth to survive a devastating pandemic that swept the globe, killing people quickly, ruthlessly, and often painfully. To make sure that her story doesn’t die with her, she decides to keep a diary - or rather, two. A purple diary tells the reader what happened when the virus was first discovered, up until she becomes the last of her family left alive. A green diary begins after the Infection, as it was named, has taken hold of the rest of the world.
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To begin with, the summary of the book is misleading; at least for the first half of the book, there is no Adam. Kerryl is just talking to her diary with the intention of leaving behind proof that she existed.
Instead, we learn about the origin of the virus; where it came from, what may have caused it, how it works. And then, we learn how it spreads. From Kerryl’s point of view, we see it rapidly work its way to where she lives, killing so many people that soon, they’re no more than statistics; nameless, faceless numbers.
We get to feel her isolation as the world slowly starts shutting down around her, cutting her off from her school, her friends, and even her hometown.
I thoroughly enjoyed this part of the story, although there are a couple of decisions that Kerryl makes at one point that made me want to shake her. We get to see what her life was like before the virus, and we learn about her early childhood and her family.
The world around her felt real, and the way things were handled with the virus were very believable. Tension is high as society collapses, and neighbors become enemies, as the virus is very contagious, and its long incubation period means that someone can be infected and spreading the virus to anyone the victim comes into contact with. No one trusts each other, and the security measures the government attempts to put into place are barely effective.
Eventually, the virus takes her friends, her neighbors, and finally, her family.
This is where the green diary comes into play. Kerryl has to make a decision about what to do now that she’s alone. Should she stay on the farm and wait for the Infection to kill her, too? Should she end it all herself, quick and painless?
The overwhelming theme of the book is loneliness. The idea of a post-apocalyptic world is intriguing to a lot of people, and I admit that I like reading about them, myself. But this book just made me feel sad and lonely. Everything is so desolate and hopeless.
As with many other post-apocalyptic settings, the book also addresses the darker side of humanity. When the world goes to hell, the creeps come out of the woodwork, and Kerryl has the misfortune to run into some of them.
Finally, Adam makes his appearance. He is the person Kerryl decides that she’s writing to. She envisions him as the perfect boyfriend, someone who will love her unconditionally. She begins talking to him like he’s a real person that she’s going to meet up with someday soon.
There’s a bit of mystery involved; as Kerryl’s isolation continues, she thinks she begins seeing things out of the corner of her eye, and hearing things. A bit of paranoia begins to set in; is what she’s seeing and hearing real, or is she imagining it? If it’s real, is she in danger?
Unexpectedly, we also get an explanation for the title of the book, and I have to say, it’s very clever. More than once, I did actually wonder why something like paradise was associated with a post-apocalyptic world, and now I understand.
Closer to the end of the book, I started losing my sympathy for Kerryl. She completely loses track of what’s real and what’s not, even though she has evidence that proves which is which. It seems to me like she’s willfully ignoring the truth, and refuses to see anything but what she wants to see.
At one point, there’s an incident that happens to her, and I can’t even feel pity, because it was something she caused. Maybe that sounds too harsh, but at this point in the story, I’m kind of done with her. One minute she’s crying and upset, and the next she’s a giddy teenager putting on makeup and getting ready for a date.
The ending… I didn’t like how it ended at all. I absolutely loved the first half of the book, detailing the appearance of the infection and the first few weeks of its spread. But once the green diary took over, I grew less and less interested, both in the story and in Kerryl. The ending just felt like a slap in the face. Disappointing…
First half of the book: 4.8/5
Second half of the book: 2.5/5
Overall, I would give it about a 3/5