After doing a little research, I realized this was this author's debut novel. I do not know if it was traditionally-published or self-published. I'm not sure if that would impact my rating at all, but I did feel like that fact made me appreciate the book a little more. Where I had zero interest in continuing the series, knowing this was a debut made me curious to see how her writing improves.
What I liked:
1. The concept. I am a sucker for a couple of things. One of those is stories about people returning to their hometowns. The other is reuniting first loves. Both of those tropes are present in this book. Add to that the fact that the town Meg comes from is kind of kooky, and sign me up, because another trope I love is the quirky-small-town trope.
2. Josh. He goes to a town where everyone hates him to try to reconnect with the woman he (inexplicably) loves and be a father to a daughter he hasn't met. He takes in a boy who is going through a rough time living on a ranch in a sort of group home for orphaned boys. He lets everyone treat him like garbage and isn't scared off by threats. I really like him.
What I didn't like:
1. The writing. It's not good. First of all, it's incredibly cheesy. As I kept reading this story, I kept thinking it was something I could see being a Lifetime movie (not Hallmark, because of all the pre-marital sex and baby out of wedlock.) because of the cheesy and simple dialogue. There is no depth to the dialogue, the characters, or the descriptions. It is all very surface level, and there were some very cringy moments. I didn't think the sex scenes were terrible, but they weren't anything out of this world either. The villainous characters (there aren't any real villains, just awful people) are extremely one-note and their motivations for their behavior towards Meg just doesn't feel like it matches their vitriol.
2. Slut shaming. There is a lot of that in this book. Several of the female characters are described s sluts and hos and many of the women (even Meg's friend) are described as being flirty as if it's a bad thing. Meg also focuses quite a bit on looks. The two women she has the most issues with are her stepmother and ex-best friend. Both of them have had plastic surgery, which is another thing Meg looks down on. There's just a lot of girl-on-girl hate in this book used to prop up the main character.
3. Meg. I don't get her appeal. I honestly don't see what Josh ever saw in her in the first place. We're told he was in love with her, but I don't get why. She's not a bad person. But her personality is just so lackluster. I just don't get it.
4. The town/townspeople. I was so excited when it looked like this was going to be a quirky town kind of story. Unfortunately, it was mostly just a bunch of jerks throwing their last name around and bullying a guy they don't know anything about because one of their family members (who they also treat poorly for a good chunk of the book) says he's a bad guy. It got real old, real quick. I really disliked her father. He was so one-note and mean just because.
5. Technical issues. It didn't feel like enough research was done into the FBI and their protocols for different situations. None of that seemed accurate at all.
6. The climax/ending. Everything was so rushed at the end, from the revelation of Josh's secret to them ultimately getting back together. I also felt like the whole FBI investigation wasn't handled well. The person who was guilty wasn't given enough of a backstory or motive for me to care that she was guilty or why.
Ultimately, I didn't think the writing did this story any favors, even while I was intrigued by the concept, so I may check out the second book in the series. The subsequent books have higher average ratings, but they also have less ratings altogether, so i'm interested to see what I think.