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294 pages, Paperback
First published August 21, 2014



"If I would not have this exquisite pain of loving you too much."
Noshadows,nodarkness,nolies.











“We make money from armaments and war, but spend money putting right the wrongs wars cause?”
Nikolas grinned. “Yes.”
“I think maybe you aren’t a god. Sometimes, I think you’re a devil, a fallen angel too lazy to be truly demonic, so you just hover around us mortals, making mischief.”
‘Ben didn’t care. Nikolas was his Morning Star and nothing Nikolas now said or did could lessen the brilliance of his fallen grace.’
“Good is not doing anything you wouldn’t do if I were standing right there with you.”
“I’ve done some very bad things with you standing very close.”![]()








Ben grinned. “Say it.”
Nikolas shook his head then gasped and doubled up. Ben undid the button for better access, totally in control due to the amount of pain he was now able to inflict. “Say it.”
Nikolas lay back carefully, hissing as Ben’s fingers twisted and squeezed again. Through gritted teeth, he acknowledged, “Ben Rider loves me.” Ben stilled his hand and lay over Nikolas. He kissed him, just into the hollow of his neck, under his ear.
“Say it again.”
“Ben Rider loves me.”
He mouthed up into Nikolas’s golden hair, kissing over the greying temples. “Say it again. Emphasis on me.”
Nikolas cupped Ben’s face and kissed him back. “Ben Rider loves me.”
They climaxed. They hit the top of the climb at the same time with the intensity of the plunging free-fall taking them over. Semen shooting; waves of pleasure; the awful, beautiful sense of helplessness and crashing; and then the loss of rational thought. But they were there together, going through the same powerful loss of self.
When it was over, when they hit the ground, they both understood how that was, too; and when Nikolas collapsed on Ben, hearts racing, cock still twitching spasms deep within him, there were no words needed, no gestures, no reassurances, for they were both men.
So it was with a sense of pleasure almost greater than his orgasm that Ben heard Nikolas murmur into the back of his neck, “Ben Rider loves me.”
















