To the Moon and Back was a book that I was really looking forward to reading, based on the synopsis. I had watched Nicole Aunapu Mann launch to the International Space Station as commander of SpaceX Crew 5, and as a full-fledged space geek, had regularly tuned in for EVAs and astronaut interviews. Sadly, the book didn’t live up to my expectations. Some of them were high, based on my knowledge of NASA and the astronaut program. Others were lower and were based on the storytelling itself.
I loved the premise of telling of a journey of a Native American woman to achieve her dream of becoming an astronaut. In her author’s note at the end, Ramage acknowledges that she took creative license when accuracy didn’t fit the story, which I’m fine with. But there were several things that were not accurate that I wasn’t fine with. I have a hard time believing there’s any way that Steph, the protagonist, would have passed the rigorous personality tests and assessments that are done on candidates. And I don’t believe she could have successfully faked her way through them. NASA requires that candidates must have a STEM background to be considered, but their personality, teamwork skills, and ability to take direction and follow instructions are a paramount part of the qualifications and Steph is pretty much the antithesis of what they are looking for. She’s self-absorbed, reckless, breaks the rules and seems to spend an exorbitant amount of time worrying about her next hookup, and whether a woman she’s attracted to is also gay so that the possibility of hooking up is still an option. When it’s not a casual fling she tends to mow the women over, with complete disregard for their own feelings and interests.
Also inaccurate and unnecessary to change for story purposes is that there would have been launches within six weeks of each other in 2017 (the Soyuz was the only ship launching to the station at this time, the Shuttle had been retired and Dragon did not send a crewed demo mission until 2020). It’s also incredibly unlikely that an astronaut would have had more than three missions within the span of ten years, let alone four. Missions during this period were usually six months with an 18-24 training period beforehand. An astronaut would be essentially going straight from completing a mission with no debriefing and recovery straight into training for their next mission. The astronaut core is way too large for this to happen, even if one got added to a mission later in the training process.
Off my unnecessarily inaccurate soapbox, the personal side of this story was a mess too. The characters are hard to like, see above for a description of Steph. Her sister Kayla isn’t any better in a different way. She tends to get so wrapped up in herself and her latest cause or pursuit that she doesn’t consider that others around her don’t feel the same way, and much of it feels performative more than passionate, which has additional consequences for her loved ones.
The story swings back and forth. The first half of the book is almost more about Steph and the first women she has a serious relationship with, two people who don’t seem to be good at sharing truths with each other, and one who disappears entirely for the second half of the book (with the exception of a minor appearance) after having part of the book told from her POV. There’s no explanation for her disappearance, she and Steph are just no longer together after she gives up a great career opportunity to follow Steph to Russia. This isn’t really unexpected, but with the time Ramage spends to build out their relationship it feels like the reader is owed the courtesy of the collapse as it happens.
Then the middle of the book shifts to mostly a format of blog and social media posts and journal entries mixed in, before moving away from this back to primarily Steph telling the story. It feels so inconsistent.
The book isn’t about Steph and her relationship with Della, because that ends halfway through. It’s not entirely about Steph’s dogged pursuit of becoming an astronaut, because the first half really only hints at that. It could be about Steph’s actualization and growth as a person to be able to achieve her dream, but while she realizes that she’s screwed things up and apologizes for them, I don’t see major character growth. I feel like this book is trying to tell too many different stories that aren’t blended together well, with a protagonist that doesn’t work in the role she’s in. A complimentary copy of this book was provided by the publisher. All thoughts and opinions are my own.