3**/5**--I received this book as an advance reader's copy in exchange for my honest review! Mild spoilers below for early interactions between the MC and another character.
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Figuring out my own feelings about this book has been really tough, because there were a lot of unique and wonderful things about it that I truly loved, but also a good amount of things that just aren't to my taste or that made me feel uncomfortable. I do think that some of this is because I wouldn't consider myself a big romantasy reader, and I am not neurodivergent (this is a specific selling point of the author and book), so I'm maybe not the ideal audience. But, on the other hand, I am bisexual and hypersensitive with a history of anxiety and depression, so in some ways I am. Overall, I really did enjoy it, and am happy I read it, but it didn't grip me in the way that my favorite books have. On to the details!
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Let's get the hard stuff out of the way first; the reasons I was turned off by this book, which for the most part are more minor than the positives and mostly come down to writing preference, with one exception. First, about a quarter of the way through the book, two things started happening that really turned me off, after being very excited about how the book was going from the start; Beau (the main character) trying to get under Lady Penamour's skin by calling her a plethora of different nicknames, and her definition of politics that I thought would go one way (politics aren't optional when life and rights are on the line) but just missed the mark for me instead (politics are about giving people what they want).
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From there, for the rest of the book, the tension and atmosphere of a lot of scenes and characterization felt very off to me. Some scenes had deaths and intense fighting, but still felt lighthearted and had little to no consequence in short periods of time with the story. Every character (side characters included) has so many nicknames that it becomes confusing, and there are a lot of unnatural, cliche phrases that fit this genre but not the world, which makes most side characters feel like NPCs. Phrases like "godsdamned" are used often, and there were a lot of strange, canned ways that characters converse that is just something I don't personally like in writing. Using modern words and phrases like "sexy" and "I'm in" and "he's hot" while also using lots of phrases like "who's this then" that feel like they come from a different place and time took me out of the setting a bit. But, as I mentioned at the beginning of this review, I know that sometimes repetitive phrasing and canned responses can be comforting to people who are neurodivergent, which I am not! This issue was more of a personal preference for me than a deal breaker for the book.
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The biggest issue for me is that I don't understand the interest that women have in writing explicit sex scenes between two cisgender men. As a queer person, I of course think that in the realm of romantasy and even all other genres, it is important for there to be representations of lots of different types of identities. The issue for me becomes where the gaze is coming from, and my own identity as the person consuming the media. If McPherson were a bisexual or gay man, I would have felt lot more grace for the sex scene I take most issue with, but I felt so uncomfortable reading it because I felt like I was intruding on something that wasn't meant for me, written by someone who also shouldn't have been present for it. I really didn't like that there was necessary character exposition embedded in the scene as well, so it wasn't really optional to skip. This phenomenon of women being interested in or turned on by sex between two men has never made sense to me, and makes me feel very uncomfortable. I think this scene in particular and the romance it involves does make sense within the context of the story and the identity of the characters, but it was the biggest issue that I had personally with the book. The scene was something that I did figure would come up from the very beginning based on the book's description (so perhaps that should have made me decide to not read it as an ARC reader, which I do feel guilty about), so I don't necessarily think it's the fault of the writing or shouldn't be included, but instead a matter of taste. It does feel a bit problematic to me, but I am also not from the demographic that would maybe take offense to this. If there is anyone who believes that this trope is harmful to their identity, I believe that their voices should be the ones we listen to, not my analysis of my own uncomfortable feelings. So, moving on.
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Now, the good things! The first is my favorite character, the main character, Beau. He is an incredibly real and believable MC, and one of the most relatable that I've ever read. Almost every quote I wrote down was something that Beau thinks or says, because his view of the world was so eerily similar to my own, for better and worse. His thoughts about his own bisexuality and reading people, his opinions on tattoos (I am a tattoo artist), his hypersensitivity and his imposter syndrome made it so easy for me to understand him, the plot, and further reflect on my own character. From the very beginning, I loved that he had flaws, that only grew to make me (and other characters in the book) love him more as the story went on. There is also a ton of myth busting and abuse identification that is present in the book as a result of his character, that was incredibly refreshing and different than most popular fantasy books written by men, from the 80s to now. It felt so good to not have to give a story the benefit of the doubt for the time period, and incredibly satisfying for one character to bring up a problem or fear and then have another character identify the real issue in exactly the way I was yelling at the page. And, speaking of satisfying, I really enjoyed the millennial references throughout the book, to Ella Enchanted, Tangled, Twilight, and more. They were blended into the story very well and made me feel some very happy nostalgia.
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Another thing that I loved so much and wish there was even more of was the magic system. I did feel that the romance part of the book took priority over it, and I wish there had been equal parts or more exploration of the magic because it was so fascinating and McPherson did such an amazing job in developing it. I loved that Beau didn't know very much about it in the beginning of the book, and learned more throughout, so the actual building of the information didn't feel rushed or boring or overwhelming to me as a reader. If there is a sequel to this book, which I suspect there will be based on the introduction of a new character at the very end, I really hope that McPherson dives head on into the magic system and makes it more of a main focus.
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All in all, the biggest thing that I hope for McPherson's future writing is that she learns to trust herself and her readers a bit more; so much of her work is very compelling and has so much potential, but it sometimes felt like she gave us a little too much to make sure that we would really be able to get what was going on. I wonder if she uses the spicy element of the book a little bit too much of a crutch to keep her reader interested, when there really are some elements (like the magic system and character discussion) that are so incredibly compelling and strong. I did enjoy this book and am very happy I read it, and though I do feel bad about giving it a middle of the road rating that is the lowest so far, I really hope that if you're thinking about reading this book, my review is helpful to give you an idea of if you'll enjoy it or not. Hopefully I've done a good job of identifying what would maybe make someone pick it up, and I hope that those who took the time to read the whole thing and are excited by my descriptions will love it and leave 5 star reviews!