First-off, be aware of ignorance in my attempt to critique two men in art, a mischievous mythomane Cullen, and the author of this book, journalist and editor of The Sydney Morning Herald, and founding editor of Saturday Paper, Erik Jensen. Furthermore, I'm animated upon recommendation to the Council's library who ordered not one but two copies of this book certain to take away basic wealth from the author, in defense, adding abundance to the blue-collared space I'm housed in and the extended earthquake-d area. For the showmanship of book beauty, the front cover is stand-out and could add depth to the greyness of mid-century formica bookshelves were you, tight-arse, to buy a copy - sales pitch over.
I became aware of Cullen the mangled artist and The Cullen, a Melburnian art hotel same name-same where I stayed for some time and shared a lift with the man himself, Adam in 2011. Clutching Coke, at least him with branded liquid, and me anxiety-ridden, employed by a right bastard who hoovered and supplied coke, the Universe manifested a brief, awkward in lift experience. Only weeks before and I'd taken a guided tour of Cullen's art in said hotel, the guide's showing far too professional to merge with the obvious of contemporary art. I'm seeing HOTEL-SEX TOTAL FUCKABLE ART DANGER.
Later, staring off at one ugly image of a woman in my room and further learning from Jensen, a portrayal of his Mum - mate, I'm guessing his relationship with his Ma was a frayed and mixed-up one, indeed it was.
He'd be pushed out further on the outskirts of feminism's skirt:
'Women fare worse than men in Adam's paintings. They are victims of greater violence. If his men are impotent, his women are visions of cartoon sex - gin club floozies or wild squalls of genitalia. Their faces are watery, their features barely held together with make-up... In the painting 'Shut up, nobody wants to hear your stories', 'I've never painted any woman but my mother,' Adam says. 'That's her'.'
And further by animal rights groups:
'I was an adolescent, and like most white, middle-class teenagers from the northern beaches of Sydney, I hadn't experienced anything. It was in the far west of NSW on a sheep property. I was in the company of two older cousins and two dogs. We were in a truck pig-shooting in the blackness of early morning in God's Own Country. My cousins caught a large red kangaroo by lassoing it on the run. While two kelpie bitches held it down, they proceeded to cut its tail off with a chainsaw. At the time I thought it was pretty amusing, it certainly held my attention.'
Putting ideals aside, I imagined an anxious Cullen guiding me through his work, hating the tour and me, appearing ordinary, him gawking at my tits and standing far too boring for his dangerous tastes. Truth is in those days with a self-destructive no-care toward me nor feminist books, I'da happily necked a bottle of voddie with the bastard. Turns out, Jensen did. The consequences, being shot by Cullen to see how committed he was to the book also thrown from a speeding motorbike. On second thoughts, perhaps not.
Cullen dead at 46, he's not dangerous and since death, he's no longer a danger to himself. Decades of self-abuse, our vital organs start to erode, destruction and chaos from addiction/mental illness, the drink and drugs on the constant, escapism made violent art of his insides, details of which show here not spared for the sensitive among us:
'To prove on this first meeting the conviction he felt about his death, Adam unbuttoned his shirt to show me a scar that twisted the length of his torso. His stomach looked like an overstuffed carpetbag, stitched poorly at the fastenings. He forced his thumbs into drain holes on either side of his abdomen - ports from the operation that a year earlier had removed his gallbladder and much of his pancreas, and which had healed as enormous pockmarks burred by infection. I asked him what had happened, to fill the silence more than anything. "Acute misfortune," he said. "I think the art world caused this." '
Eventually, 'he drowned in his own blood'. You can't help ache a lot saved by the dotting of dark humour:
'My Parents Number is 99821676... a painting no more than its title, spelled large across the picture plane... won the 1996 Gold Coast City Conrad Jupiters Art Prize. His father still receives phone calls to the number. 'I've had about ten since he did it,' Kevin says. 'The bugger'. '
Cullen's Dad, Kevin Cullen, a bloke's bloke and Adam's hero managed his son well despite daily obsessive behaviour on Adam's part leading unconditional love to sometimes distraction. You're left with a solid impression Kevin supported his son 100% from the early childhood days of art discovery to one time, chaining a rotting pig's head to his ankle, demonstrably setting out to shock others. Jensen captures Cullen's vulnerability, his insecurities and darkness made worse by surges of grandiosity and dips into the lows of manic energy, a diagnosis of bi-polar mixed with the cocktail of heroin and booze, the driving edge in creation in a nocturnal practice of his art.
To call Cullen misunderstood is a label I couldn't pin on him for the sake of unoriginality. I get his life and exploration as Jensen outlines Cullen's descriptor of others and complete avoidance, safe distance and observation of others shadows avoiding their own, a total cop-out and while he didn't fare out the other side never quite getting a handle on addiction, his illness nor saving himself, he explored, making him a damn case interesting over the liberal system of carbon-copies, unequally and immorally designed for the 1%, some of them hanging his works in congratulations of their stark individualism bogging holes in charity work, and those lesser among us, bound in its suffocating up-keep affording, if lucky, a print. I almost bought a print.
His achievements other than lasting his age, peaked at the Archibald prize in 2000 for a portrait of David Wenham. His non-achievements, brushes with the law, his Court appearance for weapons possession.
I read the book and revisited it days afterward, re-entering chapters, resisting the urge to rant nor fall into shock never finding Cullen offensive in the first place. Jensen writes intelligently. But this isn't about him, it's a well-written account of a confined relationship with an artistic rogue whose talent hit and miss. In the end, a lump in throat recalling sexy hotel, total fuckable art and an unusual man destroying himself, paint-brushing danger.