No idea what to rate this.
edit: I gave it 1 star because of the 5th POV which was unnecessary and if anything it seemed to normalise some very abusive and disturbing behaviour and make it okay just because the guy in question was a good club brother even if otherwise he was a disgusting human.
As far as MC books go the style of this one is somewhere between dark and grey. Most people maybe wouldn’t agree because the “club business” only involved the club members and none of their families - but even if the relationship conflict, inner conflicts of the protagonists and the action part of the conflict in the plot were all separate, and therefore the main characters didn’t deal in so much trauma or darkness - it was still all around them. There are graphic scenes of murder and torture and I had a hard time reading some.
The first part of the book I didn’t like anything about the hero. I don’t think this book is safe for some people. Objectively there is no cheating, but the hero and heroine do get together (in a one night sense) and afterwards things between them go from friendship to not talking to each other for months. Months in which the hero got around and the heroine saw him do it too. Quite literally.
At the same time, they weren’t together and the heroine did stop speaking to him so there was no obligation on either part.
When it comes to the hero, to finish my earlier thought, I didn’t like him. He’s a 32 year old who is known for having sex - a lot of sex with multiple partners at the same time and who never had a relationship. He has no reason for it. He’s had a happy, great life and parents. He came from stability and was witness to the great and loyal relationship his parents had. I don’t like that we weren’t given an explanation why he can’t stop having sex. It wasn’t an addiction thing because he did stop when things with the heroine were looking up so I don’t understand why his character was painted that way - with so much emphasis on how he is a “Dawg” but then he gets a personality transplant.
The heroine - well, right after I finished the book I thought I didn’t like her but the more I thought about it the more I realised that I was just being too hard on her and too judgy.
Because in the second half of the book the hero was quite literally perfect - she got painted in a worse light. She had issues, she didn’t deal with them in a healthy and correct way. True. She literally ran into an issue which she didn’t agree with and then instead of dealing and talking it out - she ran. Literally. She’d scream that she doesn’t wanna talk to him and then run. I got that it was toxic and I got that it was annoying but given her background I understand why she doesn’t have the tools to deal with conflict. I think her being away and travelling the world for 6 years doesn’t make up for the fact that she didn’t have a family or a healthy relationship in her life - and globe trotting isn’t exactly conducive of lasting relationships. So I got her and I think she will eventually get over it . But those things take time. There will come an occasion where instead of running from conflict, she would starting arguing back and scream her grievances- but that time wasn’t yet there. I’m fine with that.
I also liked (it’s what I liked most maybe) that she didn’t take to the club like another woman standing by her man and start doing the chores around there nor did she give in to any pressure in the very misogynistic culture of the MC. Because here it is, this book rubbed me the wrong way too many times and most had to do with the roles of men and women around the club and things which were mentioned. I liked that she was against some of the club’s “imports” and therefore in principle she refused to get his club tattoo (basically like an Old Lady mark) - but she did tell him that she will get a tattoo that has significance for him just not club related - I thought that was pretty cool.
Overall I’d say that this book could have been worse for me if the heroine was different. I think the fact that she wasn’t a pushover and that she stuck to her guns all the time made a big difference to how I enjoyed this.
The reason I can’t rate this:
We got 5 POV’s - most of them were of the hero and heroine but we would also get small glimpses from Melanie (the heroine’s sister - who kinda made things about her a bit too much and put her nose where it doesn’t belong - but I can let that go cause it came from a good place),
then from Brick (Melanie’s husband and the Prez of the club - and I gotta say, some things in his relationship with Edie, the heroine were a bit weird. Too much love between them, too soon. I liked it, don’t get me wrong - but it was only a few months before she was one of his favourite people. Just a bit odd) - and lastly the reason I can’t rate this book - we got a totally random POV of Bull - one of the club members.
Let me just preface my upcoming rant with the question why. Why did we have to get that POS’s point of view? Why? It was unnecessary. Because if there was a need for a POV of someone’s insight into the club dealings - Brick, the Prez, had it covered. So again, why? I honestly thought we were getting a side story of a guy who is a waste of space and he gets killed or something in club conflict. Everytime there was some club issue I was desperately waiting for the guy to kick it. I was sorely disappointed in the end.
Let me give you the juicy tidbits about this absolute trash of a human. He is very against being cheated on. He has an ex wife (6 years separated) and apparently it’s a well known fact she cheated in him and he took her to the “cabin” - that’s where the club does the torturing- and then he proceeded to torture her. We weren’t told what he did exactly, just that she will forever have scars to remind her and that he magnanimously let her live (because no one who goes to the cabin lives). They also have a small child - a son who he doesn’t allow see her more than once every 2 weeks - mostly, from what I gathered, because he is a petty sick fuck.
Then, this petty, sick fuck got married again only because he wanted another mom for his kid. So in his words, he married this sweet, shy, obedient Latina (there was also an undertone of racism there - he kinda said her race in the context of her putting up with anything from him - like he’s better than her and she’s lucky he chose her - what with her being Latina and all) who stays home and takes care of his kid and never asks him and questions. He cheats every day with different women but says that Angie (his new wife) wouldn’t dare because she knew what happened to women who did that to him. The hypocrite literally scared his wife into keeping silent and letting him mess around on her but never having the guts to do anything about it. I’d be scared if I was her too tbh. He is the clubs main torturer and I saw that guy in action.
I hate that I had to read about him. I hate that he was part of the brotherhood and that he had a great and pretty normal relationship with his club and the extended family of
people in the club. I hate that we were given all this sickening info on him and then the next page we have someone speaking to him and about him like he’s a great guy. A great guy, sure! He saw his wife at a club function - helping the women with the food and noticed her being uncomfortable and looking at the club girls - and he literally said to himself “she’s probably thinking who I’m fucking out of all of them” and then he thought ”probably shouldn’t have married her, she’s too good for me - but eh, what can ya do now”.
I hate that I had to read all that. He’s not the only cheater. And it’s worse because we were introduced to male characters and then their wives only to have those guys afterwards cheating on their wives but all keeping each other’s secrets - cause it’s nobodies business apparently.
It’s enough that there are so many misogynistic undertones in that world and that there are so many throwaway comments which seem innocuous and are everything but. It’s enough that I have to put up with that in order to get through to the end of the love story set in that world - I don’t also need a front row seat at the depravity of the male psyche and have it painted as being okay because he’s more than just a monster - he can be good to some people. I’m sorry no. Never. I wanna read the next book because it sounds like a very sweet story but I can’t put up with more PoVs about depraved men doing depraved shit.