Because this is an ARC, and it's supposed to explicitly describe my feelings towards the book, I'm not going for my usual unhelpful, extremely short comments that give no insight whatsoever, so enjoy this rare occasion if you like more helpful reviews. Prepare for an awful recap of what happened (opinions at the end) while also simultaneously trying not to go into too much depth for spoiler purposes.
The start of the book starts with our main character, Lucille, who's in some form of torture chamber with IV's sticking from her limbs. Now, Lucy has absolutely zero clue how she got there and of course, who she is. The only thing she knows is that she wants to find her mom. That there, ladies and gentlemen, is basically the entire plot to the book.
She manages to escape with the help of a voice in her head telling her to find Oliver and Magda, which will give her information about her mom. Then she finds Oliver, and the world is explained to us a little bit more. There are different types of angels, and there's a place called Elora, where Lucille wants to go to find her mom.
Elora is very very dangerous, but Oliver plans to take her there (for certain reasons).
Then we go through ups and downs with Oliver trying to get Lucille to control her powers when we finally get to the gate that goes from Earth, to Elora.
BOOM!
Oliver betrays Lucille by handing her over to some evil people that whisk her away. And then the next two hundred pages is her riding with a sexy angel/demon dude and some asshole with a name that starts with D (I forget. That'ss how much I hated him.) We'll call him Dick because it's fitting. He tries to harm her several times all the while she and super hot prince dude (his name is Aspen btw) are having angsty, banter.
Now, his mission is to take Lucille to his queen, where...scary torture things are implied to go down. Lucille, obviously terrified and kinda like...wtf bro I just want to be normal, tries to escape several times, which ACTUALLY ENDS UP WORKING THE FINAL TIME!!!
BUT!! But but but, the last one hundred pages are her going through hell (minimal to what she previously experienced let's be real, but still hell nontheless) before FINDING OLIVER AGAIN. Oh and Aspen also tried to chase after her as well when she escaped because he cares about her AWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!! But he doesn't last very long and ends up going batshit crazy or smth after Oliver and Lucille make up (kind of) and then they have to cuff him because suddenly he's not himself anymore.
Then Lucy and Oliver find Magda. They ask questions in exchange for things she wants, and then...honestly I have no clue what the fuck happened after that because my brain was going banana's after literally everything that was going on.
But the next thing I know Lucy is being chained to a metal table and being tortured by her "father." Ohh and her mom is also unconscious and in the same state as Lucy was at the start of the book.
And then...she stops being tortured, Aspen finds her and is himself again, except with any memories whatsoever. He can't even remember who Lucy is. (at least I'm pretty sure it was Aspen. I'm not sure who else it would be).
And the BOOM! End of book. Yeah, it caught me by surprise too.
So...thoughts: At the start I was intrigued. Like the very very start. I immediately got into it. And then we met Oliver and I was like "oh dear.... this better not be the love interest." The more he talked, the more I cringed. I didn't like the way he talked. It felt awkward and robotic to me (apologies to anyone who loves Oliver. I just can't.) But then we got into Elora and we met up with Aspen and I was like FUCK YEAH THIS IS WHERE IT'S GONNA GET GOOD!!! And it didn't disappoint me one bit!! You would think tht reading about traveling would be boring but it really wasn't. Not with the constent threat of Dick and the banter between Lucy and Aspen. These were probably my favourite scenes in the book because it gave all of the emotion. It gave worry for the main character, want for interactions between Lucy and Aspen, more insight on Lucy's past, and also violent rage for Dick. Everything everywhere all at once. It's like an all you can eat buffet. And yes, obviously, I love Aspen. This man is so mysterious and I can't get enough of it. And like the small amounts of affection because he's under a rune curse thing AHHHHHHHHHH PLZ BE MY HUSBAND!!!! Like he got so freaked out by an injury that Dick caused her and the way he handled it was just so awesome. So hot.
Aspen checked the box on the list of new book boyfriends. So the characters were character-ing (especially Aspen), maybe except for the development???? I may be blind but I personally didn't...see any changes. This is probably because it's the first book and you can't really shove all the development into one and have the second book be...nothing to change the characters. So this makes me more excited for book two.
Oh and here's a little more bonus content: If you liked ACOTAR but hoped there would be less romance, then this is for you. If you liked Hush Hush but hoped for it to be...just better as a whole, then this is for you. If you liked TOG, then this is also for you. If you like the amnesia trope, this is for you. Oh and also before all the people come swarming in asking wAiT bUt Is thErE SmUt?????
Kind of. It's like dry humping and nothing more because Dick catches them. So if you hate that and want all of everything for 30 pages straight every chapter this isn't for you. It's a lot more fantasy than anything.
And for the other people who are asking trigger warnings: here you go. Straight from the book.
-Sexual Violence (forced removal of clothing but no penetration)
-Graphic Violence/Gore
-Verbal Abuse
-Child Abuse
-Physical Abuse
-Swearing
-Explicit Sexual Situations
Was I triggered by any of these?? I thought I would be but there was no whipping (i can't stand that shit that's probably the only thing that really makes me upset) so I was fine reading the whole thing. I was just super angry at Lucy's fuck ass "father." But everyone is different, so if you are triggered by any of these, please take care of yourself.
Overal, this is a fantastic debut, highly highly recommend!!
4.25 stars in total!