this one is for my fellow winter lovers ❄️☃️
"When I went back to the sea
itwasn't waiting.
Neither had it gone away."
- the return
"But still I stand under the trees, happy and desolate, wanting for myself such a satisfying coat, and brilliant work."
- the hummingbird
"I am tired of explanations. Unless they are spoken by the best mouths. Black bear coming up from sleep, growling her happiness (...)
Listen! Let the high branches go on with their opera, it’s the song of the fields I wait for, when the sky turns orange and the wind arrives, waving his thousand arms. Or, autumn! I hurry out to the middle of the field and stand where the tough goldenrod, seeded and tasseled, is vigorously tossing —until something thankful rises from my own body."
- wind
"All afternoon I have been walking over the dunes, hurrying from one thick raft of the wrinkled, salt roses to another, leaning down close to their dark or pale petals, red as blood or white as snow. And now [am beginning to breathe slowly and evenly— the way a hunted animal breathes, finally, when it has galloped, and galloped—when it is wrung dry, but, at last, is far away, so the panic begins to drain from the chest, from the wonderful legs, and the exhausted mind."
- the roses
"Then, not for the first or the last time, I take the deep breath ofhappiness, and Ithink
how unlikely itis
that death is a hole in the ground, how improbable
that ascension isnot possible,
though everything seems so inert, so nailed
back into itself—"
- heron rises from the dark, summer pond
"Don’ tellus
how to love, don’t tell us
how to grieve, or what
to grieve for, or how loss
shouldn't sit down like a gray
bundle of dust in the deepest
pockets of our energy, don’t laugh at our belief that money isn’t
everything, don’t tell us
how to behave in
anger, in longing, in loss, in home- sickness, don’t tell us,
dear friends."
- on losing a house
"Last night the rain spoke to me slowly, saying,
what joy
to come falling
out of the brisk cloud, to be happy again
in a new way
on the earth! That’s what it said as it dropped,
smelling of iron,
and vanished
like a dream of the ocean
into the branches
and the grass below.
Then it was over. The sky cleared. I was standing
under a tree.
The tree was a tree with happy leaves,
and I was myself,
and there were stars in the sky
that were also themselves
at the moment, at which moment
my right hand was holding my left hand
which was holding the tree
which was filled with stars
and the soft rain-
imagine! imagine!
the long and wondrous journeys
still to be ours"
- last night the rain spoke to me
"There are so many things to do in this world, and so many things to be done. Right now I’m glad to be agile and insistent. But, later! Then, I'll be happy to give up the quick burst, oh darling and important world, and just float away."
- now are the rough things smooth
"Therefore, dark past, I’m about to do it.
I’m about to forgive you
for everything."
- a settlement
"In summer the bats flylike dots and dashes over the evening pond
on the darkness
of their wings."
- their wings
" Now that I’m free to be myself, who am I? Can't fly,can’t run, and see how slowly Iwalk. Well, Ithink, Ican read books.
“What's that you're doing?”
the green-headed flyshouts as itbuzzes past.
I close the book.
Well, I can write down words, like these, softly.
“What's that you're doing?” whispers the wind, pausing in a heap just outside the window.
Give me a little time, I say back to its staring, silver face. Itdoesn’t happen allofasudden, you know.
“Doesn't it?” says the wind, and breaks open, releasing distillation of blue iris.
And my heart panics not to be, as I long to be, the empty, waiting, pure, speechless receptacle."
- blue iris
"What isso utterly invisible as tomorrow?
Not love,
not the wind,
not the inside of a stone.
Not anything.
And yet, how often I’m fooled— I’m wading along
in the sunlight—
and I’m sure I can see the fields and the ponds shining days ahead—
I can see the light spilling
like a shower of meteors
into next week’s trees, andIplantobetheresoon— and, so far, Iam
just that lucky,
my legssplashing
over the edge of darkness, my heart on fire."
- Walking to Oak-Head Pond, and Thinking ofthe Ponds I Will Visit in the Next Days and Weeks
"After all
what isNature, itisn’t kindness, itisn’tunkindness. And Iturned
and opened the door, and still the snow poured down smelling of iron and the pale, vast eternal, and there itwas, whether Iwas ready or not:
the silence; the blank, white, glittering sublime."
- early snow
"But here’s the kingdom we call remembrance with its thousand iron doors
through which I pass so easily,
switching on the old lights as Igo—
while the dead wind rises and the old rapture rewinds, the stiff waters once more begin to kick and flow."
- winter at herring cove
"in another world— anyway, at a house I no longer go to, whose people
are all dead now, whose graves, even, I don’t visit.
And the little birds
looked exactly the same! Trim and bold,
and empty of any memory that could break the spell"
- tree sparrows
" Last night, an owl in the blue dark tossed
an indeterminate number
of carefully shaped sounds into the world, in which,
a quarter of a mile away, I happened to be standing.
I couldn’t tell which one it was—
the barred or the great-horned ship of the air—
itwas that distant. But, anyway, arent there moments
that are better than knowing something,
and sweeter? Snow was falling,
so much like stars filling the dark trees that one could easily imagine
its reason for being was nothing more
than prettiness. Isuppose ifthis were someone else’s story they would have insisted on knowing
whatever is knowable, l would have hurried
(...)
I love this world, but not for its answers."
- snowy night