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First published December 21, 2020
She was the light to my dark, the joy to my pain. I loved her more than life itself and there was no life to be had at all if I didn't have her by my side.
Darcy pulled me into the bed with her and we curled up beneath the covers together like we used to when we were little kids. She didn't ask me anything else about it because there wasn't anything more that I could say. And I just tried to take that comfort I could from the only love I'd ever know.
"If you try to fuck me over, kid, I'll break every bone in your body. And if you try to fuck over the Vegas, I'll rip out said broken bones one by one, put them in a blender and feed them to you through a straw. I know some nasty fucking spells that will make sure you stay alive through the entire thing. Mark. My. Words."
"I'm okay with you being my weakness, Blue. Because that means my weakness is a badass, hot as fuck Phoenix with enough fire in her veins to rival the sun. So come at me stars, I'm invincible!"
Lance: I can't wait that long and I'm gonna make a real mess of this paperwork if I keep messaging you.
Darcy: Tut tut. Are you jerking off at your desk, sir!
Lance: Well it's difficult not to get distracted. I've got my eye on a beautiful Cardinal Magic hardback with a leather bookmark pushed between its supple pages. Is it cheating if I stick the tip in?
...
Lance: Couldn't do it, Blue. You're the only first edition I want.
"So are you wearing a cheer ribbon for me today?" I taunted and he leaned in closer with mischief in his eyes.
"Yes, but I had to wear it somewhere no one would see. So it's tied in a very special place."
I burst out laughing, gripping his waistband. "Are you telling me it's tied to your-"
"You can find out exactly where it's tied after the game, but only if you do well." He plucked my hand off of him with a stern stare that sent a shiver through me.
A broken heart was the most painful thing I'd ever endured. But I'd never deserved to own the heart of Darcy Vega. And I'd had to give it back in the most brutal way possible. It was the only way I could save her. And it would be worth it when she rose to power and led to the life she was meant to lead. If my own life had to be a casualty for that to happen, I was more than willing to sacrifice it. Even if I was going to pine for her for the rest of my days. Miss her with the very essence of my soul and ache for her until the world stopped spinning. I would stay here and I would suffer willingly to do what was best for her. And someday she'd understand why.
Darius Acrux: @Margurite Helebor, I wouldn't fuck you again if you were the last Fae in Solaria and my dick would fall off if I didn't. Don't talk shit about my Mate. One more word and I'll destroy you. #trymebitch
He clutched onto me and the knot in my chest eased as the bond between us deepened, thrumming in my ears and making me want to get nearer and nearer to him.
"Let's just run off together into the sunset," Darius joked. "We can forget all about the Vegas and buy a house in Starshine Bay."
"We can have two kids. Boys obviously. Girls are trouble," I played along and he released a chuckle as we stepped apart.
Magic spilled from my fingertips where I still held his arm and Orion looked at me in confusion as I conjured tiny brown vines into existence, plaiting and braiding them together until they formed a ring around his wrist.
"What's this?" he asked, rasing his hand to inspect it and I had to say I'd done a damn good job too.
"I promised you a friendship bracelet," I teased. "We can get together for a slumber party another time though."
He snorted a laugh at me as he backed up. "I'll treasure it always. Goodnight, Tory."
"Goodnight."
He shot away from me and I was left alone, but somehow that didn't seem so lonely anymore.
"You two are...well, fuck the law for saying you can't be together," Darius said, folding his arms.
"Fuck the stars too, Darius," I breathed and his muscled tightened around me as he held me close. "Fuck every shining gleaming one of them."
“𝙄𝙘𝙚 𝙢𝙚𝙡𝙩𝙨,” 𝙄 𝙥𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙤𝙪𝙩.
“𝙁𝙡𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧𝙨 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧,” 𝙝𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙙.
“𝙄 𝙜𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙬𝙚’𝙧𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙩𝙝 𝙨𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙬𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙣.”
“𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮 𝙖𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩.”
"I found Darius staring at me like he’d never seen me before and he never wanted to look away again."
“You can’t tell me you don’t feel that when we’re together. The way my heart pounds, my soul burns, my whole body aches…I know you feel it too,” he breathed,
“The stars might have decided that you can never be mine,” Darius said roughly, refusing to move away from me. “But I am yours. No matter what. I don’t care where we end up or who we’re with, I’ll always be yours."
“And I know it doesn’t change anything. That it can’t change anything,” he growled. “But I’m going to prove it to you. I’m going to do everything I can to make it up to you, for the rest of my life if that’s what it takes. I’ll never forgive myself for bringing this curse on us. And I’m never going to stop loving you either.”
“I already told you I love you, Roxy,” I growled and her eyes widened as she looked up at me in surprise. “But now I’m telling you I want you too. Only you. No matter what it takes to make that happen.”
“You’re one dirty, book talking Vampire, you know that?”
“I know that.” He kissed me again.
“And you’re one sweet, bitey little Countess.”
"I was a slave to this body, this girl. I wanted to possess every part of her, invade her and lay siege to every corner of her being."
"She blushed and I wished I could bottle that colour. I’d paint it on my walls and wear it on my damn skin."
“I won,” I sang and he smirked, his eyes becoming hooded. “I’m okay with you being my weakness, Blue. Because that means my weakness is a badass, hot as fuck Phoenix with enough fire in her veins to rival the sun. So come at me stars, I’m invincible!”
“I’m such a fuck up,” I said with a heavy sigh. “You’re not a fuck up,” Seth growled. “You’re the most thoughtful, generous, amazing fucker I know.”
“Fuck the stars too, Darius,” I breathed and his muscles tightened around me as he held me close. “Fuck every shining, gleaming one of them.”
“Hop on then,” he turned his back to me and I jumped up onto it with the hint of a laugh. Who’d have thought my Cardinal Magic Professor would be giving me piggy back rides around campus when I first started out at this school?
”There was only one enemy that mattered, and it was time we defeated him. Together.”
someone pls check if i’m still alive bc i think i might have had a heart attack????????
WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED?
in this book everything went to shit. EVERYTHING. idek HOW, but the things that happened here… i can’t put them into words… and the worst thing is that i must read the novella before knowing what will happen next…
someone pls tell me if the authors will give darius a fucking break????? lord knows how many times i cried for him and the injustices that keep happening to him.
i’ll need therapy once i finish this series.
“I promised you a friendship bracelet,” I teased. “We can get together for a slumber party another time though.”
He snorted a laugh at me as he backed up. “I’ll treasure it always. Goodnight, Tory.”
“Goodnight.”
Caleb...fucking Caleb with his fucking face and his fucking blonde hair and his fucking fangs which he got way too close to my girl way too often, not to mention what he did with the rest of his fucking body and- Not my girl. Never my girl.
We were wearing leggings and sports bras, our hair tied back and looking very twinny in our matching outfits. I kinda loved it.
“You two are...well, fuck the law for saying you can’t be together,” Darius said, folding his arms.
My heart squeezed at his words and I saw so much pain in his eyes that I strode forward and wrapped my arms around him. […]
“Fuck the stars too, Darius,” I breathed and his muscles tightened around me as he held me close. “Fuck every shining, gleaming one of them.”
He was the kind of friend who would stand up to my bullshit, bristle in response to my resting bitch face, call me out on my own crap, push me off a roof when I cheated him and have my back to the brutal, bitter end. Ride or die. In short, the best kind of friend there was. Which considering the short time I’d known him seemed insane, but I just knew it was the case.
Darkness was starting to fall and the shadows were thick between the trees, but there were no shadows in my heart tonight, there was too much brightness in me to let them in.
“I love you, Tor,” I breathed, just because sometimes people needed to hear that. And maybe I didn’t say it to her enough.
“Love you too, Darcy,” she whispered.
He’d come to me in my room last night, wrapped me in his arms and held me like the world was ending.
“I hate the days I don’t get to wake up with you,” he said, his voice rough from sleep. “For a second I thought it was one of those days.”
“The stars might have decided that you can never be mine,” Darius said roughly, refusing to move away from me. “But I am yours. No matter what. I don’t care where we end up or who we’re with, I’ll always be yours. And I’m going to fix the damage I did to us even if the stars don’t care. I’m going to prove to you that I could have been worthy of you if I’d just listened to my heart sooner.”
I headed back to Blue with my heart pounding, feeling like a teenager with his first crush. I’d never had that all-consuming first love everyone talked about during my school years. I’d thought it wasn’t for me. But I guessed the stars had decided to keep me waiting a little longer. And now I had it, I was determined for this love to be my one and only. My last and everlasting.
“I love you, Roxy,” he said in a rough, dark voice which held no room for lies or falsehood, no space for tricks of cruelty. Only the truth. I could feel it just as keenly as I could feel the rush of his magic beneath my skin. A tear slipped from my eye, searing a burning trail along my cheek as it spilled from my flesh and fell between us. How many times had I ached to hear someone say that to me? How many times had I wondered if anyone even could love me like that? I might have denied it to myself more times than I could count, but I’d been aching for this for a long time. Needing it more than I’d ever wanted to admit, more than I’d ever needed anything. And not just from anyone. I needed it from him.
She pulled me into her arms and I held onto her, clinging to the other half of me. My twin, the night to my day. She was in pain too, and somehow in her arms it felt a little lighter. Like she was carrying some of mine and I was carrying some of hers.
I could have said a thousand bad things about Darius Acrux, but the best ones shone brighter, outweighing them so they were all I could see.
No one would ever own my heart but that man. It was a truth cast in iron, impossible to undo. And if I had to wait months or years or an eternity for him, I would.
“I don’t care that you’re here. You could be on the moon and I’d still find a way to love you.”
“And there was me thinking it had something to do with you not wanting anything from a jumped up lizard asshole who doesn’t know his ass from his elbow and is only good for hate sex?”
I could have thrown a silencing bubble over us, but what was the point? I didn’t care if they knew how I felt about her. They were our family and despite all the reasons why they should have been encouraging us to stay apart, they’d been trying to help push us back together. Because when it came down to it, they cared about our happiness more than some fucking throne and I should have realised a lot sooner that that was more important too.
“Forever is a hell of a long time to give to someone you don’t trust. But what if forever was just a day? What if all we had was today and the clock was ticking down to midnight? What if giving yourself to me meant just that? Being mine until the strike of midnight. Would you be mine forever then?”
[…] “Forever?” I confirmed, moving so close to her that the sweet scent of her skin enveloped me and I never wanted to exhale again.
“Forever,” she agreed, with a finality that weighed on us so heavily that for a moment I couldn’t breathe.
”I hate the days I don’t get to wake up with you,” he said, his voice rough from sleep. “For a second I thought it was one of those days.”
I gasped as he leapt at Caleb, throwing him down into the dirt before slamming his fist straight into his face.
“You will never hunt her again!” he roared as he battered his fists down over and over. “You will never put your fucking mouth on her, never sink your fucking fangs into her ever again!”
"Ravish me, you devilish donut," she commanded and I swear my dick got harder as she uttered that ridiculous phrase.