Grief takes on epic and violent proportions in this story of a reclusive artist, one who is notable in Santa Fe. Jim Stegner cuts a searing, Hemingway-esque figure, the beard and the bigness, the love of fishing and the outdoors, and the laconic mask. However, Stegner doesn't possess much in the way of academic roots. He was essentially a punk, belligerent kid who dropped out of school, had an epiphany at age seventeen after viewing some art that blew him away, got accepted into the San Francisco Art Institute (and dropped out), and somehow became a sensation in a few circles--certainly he makes a good sum of money. He also lost a fifteen-year-old daughter, Alce, to murder a few years ago.
The novel captures the span of a few weeks when Jim is losing control. He does have a history of violence even from before Alce was murdered, and he served time in the pen for it. Now, his rage is coloring his world, and in the space of less than a week, he kills two brothers--one, Dell, for his abusive treatment of horses, which he witnessed one day on the road, and the other, Grant, in self-defense. In the meantime, the authorities are watching him, and interviewing his friends and neighbors, like his model and sometimes lover, Sofia.
Alce was a good kid, but as teenagers are wont to do, she got caught up with a reckless and dangerous crowd. It would have been a temporary rebellion, but she was viciously murdered. Since then, Jim has been finding solace in fishing and painting--but, even after cleaning up his heavy drinking, he is stuck in despair, and contemptuous of the world around him. Yet, his paintings are also an aching, nuanced outpouring of his burdens, the daughter he lost, the brothers he killed. Stegner has a mountain of guilt that he can't unload, and he feels responsible for Alce's death.
"She died because she was just like me." And, in his descriptions braided through the novel, he conveys it well. He never married Alce's mother, and after this tragedy, they permanently separated. Whereas Cristine moved on with her life, Stegner was consumed in torpor. And yet, his paintings are dynamic.
Stegner lives in the flank of mountains that lead to Crested Butte, Colorado, which is a beautiful place I have stayed at, so I get a buzz when he describes the setting; he captures the landscape superbly. He spends most of the days fishing and, of course, painting. His style is sort of a Zen approach--to get inside the movement of the creation, and allow the spirit to move him forward. His large-canvas paintings are often executed in a matter of a few hours, and are more about momentum and color than studied technique. "...I wonder if painting isn't a way just to be like an animal for a few hours. To be in the stream of eternity... ...To feel like that. Same as fishing."
At a certain point, the plot becomes a cat-and-mouse suspense, which has a manic sort of pulse. Stegner has a manic pulse, too, one that is both a gift and an albatross. It could redeem him, which he desires, or finish him off. "Things pile up... ...What they mean by the weight of evidence. It just piles and piles up and you carry it with you until you're walking around like a hunchback."
Heller gets to the heart of Stegner's grief, and evokes a compelling perception of how art and life, and the life of the artist, are intertwined. At times, I was annoyed at how often Stegner scoffed at Southwestern art, especially because Heller came right at the edge of Stegner being a parody of himself. Stegner criticized his peers in a way that occasionally made me think less of him as a painter. After all, his breadth of knowledge should also clue him in that there are more than a few ways to skin a cat...or render a chicken! But, as the novel progressed, this was at least partially defended, i.e., Stegner's perceptions were thwarted by his rage, and he was often pessimistic about the agendas of others.
Also, the spacing of this novel almost dumbed it down. It was inorganic and distracting. Too many uncalled for spaces between dialogue, passages, and paragraphs. (This is also in the published version, so it is not just an ARC quirk). However, this tale was so superb, and Stegner such a riveting protagonist, and the prose itself unbearably beautiful, that I didn't let the flaws undermine my five-star assessment. His landscape/settings were stunning and the inner dialogue of the grief-stricken artist was breathtaking and poetic. In the end, I see this as a memorable and captivating novel about loss, redemption, and reinvention, and how art moves through it all, with love.
"The reason people are so moved by art and why artists tend to take it all so seriously is that if they are real and true they come to the painting with everything they know and feel and love, and all the things they don't know, and some of the things they hope, and they are honest about them all and put them on the canvas."