Duped into carrying books with 1.7 kilograms of heroin hidden in them, Goosen is arrested and tried on drug-trafficking charges. Deaf to her pleas of innocence, the Thai courts sentence Goosen to death. On appeal, her sentence is commuted to life, to be served in Bangkok's notorious Lard Yao prison. Pregnant, terrified and desperately alone, Goosen begins a harrowing 16-year journey behind bars...
I bought the book because I am friends with the publisher, on Face Book, and I read how it was flying off the shelves in bookstores. I could not find it available in a Kindle version which was annoying, so I did get the soft cover.
This turned out to be a good thing as my daughter, Victoria (13) was visiting on the weekend, picked up the book and finished it by the next day. I heard her laughter next door, as well as the silence and I felt happy that books could take her on an emotional journey.
Once I also settled down to read "Drug Muled" I finished the same day. I did not enjoy the style of writing as it was very simplistic reading in terms of language and comprehension and I felt could do with some "meat". Victoria and I agreed it is difficult to say we enjoyed the book because of the subject matter. How do you enjoy reading about a horrific act of evil done to a person, which in turn affects dozens of people in its aftermath?
I must admit, after reading the book, I never want to visit Thailand. Not for anything.
I found it hard at times to follow the sequence of events, or how exactly the relationship between the embassy and prison worked. What I did however fully grasp was the love Vanessa shared for her daughter, the devotion of friendship (because I have once shared such of powerful bond) that she could ask a friend to raise her child, and the difficulty adjusting to life outside of such a rigid, cruel structure for so many years.
It was mentioned on Face Book, that the book should perhaps be a compulsory read for high school students, which I would agree with. There is much one can learn about being a naïve young girl, believing in first love. People are both evil and good, and you may be surprised who stands by you when the chips are down. Perhaps the most overwhelming of them all, the difficulty in trying to forgive the people who had framed Vanessa (which is never mentioned in the book) and her acceptance of the years of her life she has lost.
I bought this book about 3 odd years ago and it has been sitting on my shelf ever since. I’m a hoarder of books and it takes me a while to get through them. I regret that it had been sitting there for so long, the story unread, the pages unturned and the words unheard.
I have watched news and seen these women being caught with drugs and their story is told in a technical manner. No explanation, no story behind the story - just a 30 second clip in a 30 minute slot and that’s it, in that 30 seconds she has been caught, judged and prosecuted - life moves on for the rest of us and stands still for her.
The book tells the story of Vanessa Goosen, whom at the prime of her life is caught with 1.7kgs of heroine at a Thailand Airport. Pregnant and alone in a foreign country that shows no mercy to drug traffickers, she starts a 16 years, 6 months and 16 days long fight for her freedom.
At just 22 years old, life could not have been more perfect for Vanessa. She was pregnant and engaged to the man she adored. She has just found out that she is a semi finalist in the Miss South Africa pageant and is opening up a clothing store with Felix, her fiancé. She takes a trip to Thailand to shop for clothing for the store, and while there Felix asks her to meet up with his cousin/friend to collect Engineering text books from him, and bring them to South Africa. She thinks nothing of it, collects the books and as she goes through customs, she is stopped and 1.7kgs of heroine is found amidst the pages of the books.
The majority of the book takes place in Lard Yao, a prison for women in Thailand. The conditions that the prisoners live in are inhuman to say the least. She describes how they are stripped of their dignity by being subjected to body searches, having to take a bath with a tiny amount of cold water from a shared trough. They have to live amidst disease, overcrowded cells and eat food unfit for human consumption. Eventually she gives birth in prison and 3 years later she is separated from her daughter, who comes back to South Africa to live with her childhood friend and her husband.
The lesson I took away from the book are lessons one kind of knows, but we don’t really think about knowing them - like driving & walking.
1. Your mind will take you so far, and when it gives in, you need strength from somewhere else. Her faith carried her the rest of the way. 2. When faced with a difficult situation, you need to work with what you have at that time. Sitting there and asking yourself “Why Me” is not going to yield any positive results. 3. You don’t know how strong you are until being strong is the only option.
I have finished reading the book but I am still having chills down my spine. Joanne Joseph did a phenomenal job writing Vanessa’s story. You feel Vanessa in every single word and every single page. There is not even one hint of Joanne.
The only negative I have is that I feel like the real difficult and horrific parts of being at Lard Yao were too traumatic for her to talk about and have been left out (I may be wrong, but I got a strong feeling of this when I read the book)
About the book: She was 21 when she left South Africa hoping to get new designs for her business that she shared with her boyfriend. She had just qualified for Miss South Africa finalist 1994. She shares a birthday with yours truly😊. She was my neighbour at Eldorado Park. She was few months pregnant. Vanessa Goosen’s story will take you through all emotions.
When SA citizens were exercising their first democratic right to vote in 1994, she was appearing for the 1st time in court. She was later given life sentence because she was pregnant, otherwise she was supposed to get death sentence.
When a friend of her boyfriend asked her to bring his Engineering text books from Thailand to SA, she was not aware that there was 1.7 kg of heroine in the pages of that book. Well there are lot of arguments regarding this issue, if she really knew or not? If not, was the boyfriend aware of the set up? but that is irrelevant now she served over 16 years in jail and paid her dues, now what is important is lessons learned.
The life in Thailand prison (Lard Yao) is no child’s play. The humiliation that prisoners go through, hygiene issues, abuse, health service issues. She gave birth in prison and within 3 years she had to be separated with her child as per the prison laws. She suffered depression, anxiety and almost lost her life and her mind.
In summary- what she went through is what we all go through in our personal lives:-
• There are situations we get into, knowingly or without our knowledge - she was caught with drugs
• Life becomes damn hard. No one listens to you - she screamed her innocence but no one cared
• Though you wish you can give up but you have responsibilities - She was pregnant even when it was hard she had to endure
• We become hopeless and lose ourselves - there was a time when she could not move and was hospitalized for months and later diagnosed with depression.
• We ought to find our purpose to be able to get out of our depressed state- Her daughter which was miles away became her reason that she wanted to live. Inmates that needed health and social care became her priority
• Self talk sometimes becomes a necessity, talk yourself out of depression-the day she told herself she wanted to live and not allow to be sucked in that dark hole she took her 1st step to recovery
• While you are in a situation be grounded, don’t fight and ask why you because lot of energy is lost at this stage, that is the stage most people give up on their lives, loose themselves and some commit suicide- when she accepted that this was her current situation, her winter and that there was nothing to do about it, she started to have friends, engage with other people. That does not mean you accept the status quo and not believe- your faith plays a big role here but do positive things and find a reason to live. When they say Joy cometh in the morning- that is the state i am referring to. The only fight required her is for the will to live
• Positive mindset yields to greater things. Even things you never thought were attainable - When she had positive energy, helping others, her sentence was being reduced year after year.
• Sometimes you will pray and you will never get answers at the time you want but be rest assured He will come trough for you. When they say He is never late. I do not know how many times did Venessa pray- she lived on hope
• Accept that people are there for a season- she found love in prison from outside of prison foreigners- they gave her hope when she was hopeless, they helped her to fix her documents when it was time to go. Though both relationships did not last, they serve their purpose at the right time. When her child had to leave prison, she was adopted by her friend for over 13 years. Few months before she was released her friend died- she was there when she needed a friend
• Your life can turn for the better anytime, do not count the years, do not compete, stick to your lane- Vanessa had to restart her life at almost 40 while she had left SA at 22.
Thanks to Vanessa for sharing this story even very deep humiliating things that happened in Thai and for reaching out to people from the prison and South Africans when she came back.
Very well written, easy to read, but nothing easy about the subject line. Did she know she was carrying drugs or not? ..that is somehow irrelevant. I feel for Vanessa who lost 16 years of her life. One is quick to say let the drug dealers and carriers rot in jail but what if it was someone you love? and as Gibson said to think with a lawyers head is one thing but when you come face to face with the person in jail its another situation completely.Does another have the right to dehumane.I think not
Brilliantly written. Found it totally gripping and moving. Sometimes we need to suspend judgments and look at the human being. This book is a lesson for all young people to stop and think before they act. Vanessa is incredibly brave and inspirational in her willingness to make a difference to others. Well done Joanne - I hope you continue to write more riveting books like this one.
I bought this book at the airport on the way home and was instantly hooked. Joanne Joseph's writing style is brilliant and I couldn't put this book down -read it in one sitting!
I read her story when I was just fifteen, i remember shedding a tear trying to imagine how scared Vanessa Goosen must've been at only 21, a bright future ahead of her and pregnant in a foreign land. Before I go into any details, the writing skills In this book were great but what would one expect from a great journalist like Joanne Joseph? It captured the mood of Lard Yao and Vanessa's emotions pretty well. I was captivated by her powerful narration and how she made me feel like I was actually there.
April 1994, South African Vanessa Goosen was told to step aside by an official at Don Muang Airport in Bangkok. To her shock, a 1.7kg heroin drug was found in her possession, stashed in books her friend had asked her to bring back home from Thailand. A lot had gone through her mind at that moment as she came to understand what this meant for her. Her posession of heroin meant being sentenced to death on drug trafficking charges. From a model/businesswoman to an instant prisoner at the Lard Yao women's prison.
In the book we get details of her life in Lard Yao, on what it was like being a foreigner with no background on Thai culture or the language. Six months into the prison, she gave birth to baby Felicia whom she only kept with her till she was three years old because that's how long the Thai prison system allowed. It broke her heart to watch her go to South Africa while she stayed behind and it almost took away her motivation to keep fighting for her freedom, this had been in 1997. As rough as it had been for her in Lard Yao, Vanessa continued to keep her faith and stayed strong, she sang in a choir, modeled designs manufactured in the prison and even taught aerobics, it wasn't easy but she pushed through.
Thirteen years later, the doors of the Thai prison opened for Vanessa to go home. She was set free in 2010 after being given amnesty by Thai King Bhumibol Adulyadej. Vanessa reunited with her family, friends and her beloved daughter after 16 years of being in Lard Yao. I truly hope wherever Vanessa and Felicia are, they are alright today.
From the moment I picked up this book, I found it so hard to put it down! I ordered it via our church bookstore when Vanessa had been a guest speaker. I was privileged to receive a signed copy!
Vanessa discussed her gruesome struggles in prison in a foreign country! Having been accused of drug smuggling, thrown into prison, having to learn a new language, give birth in a Thai prison and find her faith, Vanessa persevered!
I loved this book. As a criminology student,I was recommended this by my lecturer. An amazing insight into life not only into prison life but in such unhealthy and inhumane conditions. I can not imagine what life in Yard Yo for 16 years was like, let alone having to give birth in an unkind place. I also liked the fact that the story continued with her few years after prison and her re-introduction to society after several years on world change.
Joanne did such a wonderful job of writing Vanessa’s truly tragic story, as it’s such a visceral gut wrench to be manipulated that way. To have your life snatched and be betrayed by someone you trust and love-like that, unimaginable.
This book was an alarm bell to me at the time that I read it. The story of a young woman who’d been used and then almost forgotten by her country. How she managed to survive and make a new life for herself at the end was beyond inspiring. I hope wherever Vanessa and her daughter are today, they are happy.
This book was a gut-feel buy! I was book-less and bored and decided to pass by the bookstore. I read the back cover citation and felt it was interesting! One of the best buys ever! No regrets, even though I cried a lot. Vanessa's story is very inspirational and I am really intrigued by her strength to carry such an experience, whether guilty or not! It's a worthy read.
Very easy to read and descriptive. Can't imagine how prisons can legally treat prisoners in that manner. I can appreciate Amnesty International, although they weren't involved in this poor girls tragedy.
This was the very first book that got me into biographies/autobiographies and it has since stuck in my mind. It’s so heart wrenching with all the despicable things that happened to the main character do not deserve to be done to anyone.
The main character has since healed, and now conducts motivational talks just to encourage other people. There’s no way what she experienced can be forgotten, hence this book has since stayed with me.
As Vanessa (main character) tells everything she went through and how she was in a Thai prison for 16 years, you’re moved as you flip page after page in trying to see what happened next.
I'm not such a fan of the author's writing style. She seemed to be in a great rush to tell this story which was disappointing, because I felt certain events were so pivotal and heart breaking they needed more time, emotive text and description to convey that. It got better after the halfway mark. Despite the above, it's a truly moving story which will change anyone's view on life. The gratitude I feel for my life right now is larger than before. It's very inspiring and will definitely show you that you can triumph over any of your demons which may be standing in your way. ❤Love the overall message and raw humanity of it.
A week before I read this book; while on vacation in South Africa(visiting my family), my sister introduced me to Vanessa Goosen AND her daughter. I had no idea who they were, I just thought they were the most beautiful and friendly people. Then the book was placed in my hands and I was told to read it...I never put it down until I cried my eyes out, and it was complete!! What a tragedy! And frightening! I was on the edge of my seat the entire time. To make matters worse...I had to fly back to New York in 2 days!! I was so anxious; it made me paranoid. I never let my luggage out of my sight. I think of Vanessa and her daughter often and keep them in my prayers.
This was such a horror of how other country's prisons are like everything that happened to her like she wasn't Human and how they took Her daughter from her her only life I believe she was innocent
Ok, so I do believe her. There is such sadness in her voice over the lost years but amazingly not much bitterness. Enjoyed reading the Afterward by Joanne Joseph (dissapointed she's not on Twitter). Amazed by how uninvolved our government has decided to stay in regard to SA prisoners in foreign jails.
I think that this was an honest and horrifying account of a Thailand prison experience. In the days where drug trafficking is becoming more and more common, I think books like these are a must. I do believe the author is innocent....I did NOT believe Shelby Corby was... Innocent or not these stories must be told to keep other young people from making the same mistakes.
A must read!!! A huge eye opener. Such a sad story but inspiring and motivational!!! There are so many amazing good people in this world. What Vanessa went through I would not wish on my worst enemy but how she overcame and survived WOW!!
Fast paced. Quick read. Written by a journalist so very factual, which is mostly why I gave it three stars because the characters were quite "flat". Good book to take along on trips or to the beach.