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375 pages, Kindle Edition
First published September 24, 2013






"Someone might call me a fool for not facing reality, but if reality didn't include Ryder, I didn't want any part of it."

"Sunlight filtered in through the window, brightening the room, but only darkness surrounded me. The light in me was gone. Like a candle without it's flame, I sat alone and without purpose.

I felt as if a giant building collapsed on top of me, leaving me trapped and desperate for air. I waited for someone to rescue me and dig me out from under the constant pain, but no one ever came. Every day I tried crawling my out of of the rumble, cutting my hands and leaving a trail of despair behind. But I never could see daylight, only darkness.
"This was it. The truth. The reason we both lived and breathed. Some called it friendship. Others called it love. I just called it each other. We needed each other to survive.

"I love you Maddie. Remember that. I'll love you forever. Now let me go." ~Ryder

"Being with Ryder was like a roller coaster ride that never ended. There were sharp turns and up and downs. You never knew what was waiting for you around the corner. One moment you wanted to laugh, the next moment you wanted to scream. But through it all, it was exhilarating, and fast paced. The ride of your life. And I never wanted to get off.

"I'm darkness Maddie. Stay away from men like me. You'll only get hurt." ~Ryder
"I need you now," he said, grabbing my loose hair in a fist and tugging me closer. "A gunshot wound won't stop you?" I asked with a smile."Not with you baby."








“Somebody once said that when the darkness fell, we would be shown the light. I wasn’t sure that was true. Darkness had descended on my world and all I saw was despair.”
“There are certain days that I will never forget. Days that changed my life forever. When my mom died. Meeting Ryder for the first time. The night I gave him my virginity. The moment when the EMP hit, taking electricity from the United States. The day my dad died. Finding out I was pregnant. Standing under the stars as Ryder asked me to marry him. So many important days. Each had a different impact on my life. Some happy. Some sad. But the day that changed my life forever was the day he didn’t return. That day, my world shattered.”
“I forced my feet to move and my heart to beat. I told my lungs to breathe and my mind to think. Every day, I forced myself to go on, surrounded by people I loved but feelign more alone than I had ever felt before.”
“Death was trying to steal him away from me. But I didn’t plan on losing.”
“Every day, I sat in that hellhole, beaten and barely holding on. Watching people die around me. But when I closed my eyes, thee was only you, Maddie. You made me survive. They couldn’t break me. They tried. Hell, they tried so damn hard, but they couldn’t take the memory of you away from me.”
“Being with Ryder was like a roller coaster ride that never ended. There were sharp turns and up and downs. You never knew what was waiting for you around the corner. The ride ws bumpy and sometimes rough. One moment you wanted to laugh, the next moment you wanted to scream. But through it all, it was exhilarating and fast-paced. The ride of your life.”
“I’m darkness, Maddie. Stay away from men like me. You’ll only get hurt.”
“Let’s get a few things straight before we go, Maddie… Your body is mine and your heart is mine. I’ll fight for it and I’ll die for it. Never forget that.”


“I’ll always want you around, Ryder.”
“And I’ll always be there,” he said, his voice lower. “Wanting to be around you. Never needing anything else.”
"Leave me. Run as fast as you can.”
“Never,” I whispered. “I’m not running unless it’s to you.
“When you’re hurt and angry, I’ll be here. When you need the person that knows you like no one else, I’ll be standing here waiting for you. You may give up on me but I’ll never give up on you. I’ll always love you but I’m letting you go.”
"You said it was over,” he whispered against my skin, sending a tingle through me. “But we’re never over.”