Hello, my name is Shannon, and I am the protagonist and narrator of this dreary, tedious book. I am the type of person who walks around with a giant chip on my shoulder and while I am unwilling to give anything to anyone or even to contribute any type of any action to my own life and my own well-being, I am angered beyond reason when someone around me does not bend over backward to give me 100% or more of anything they might have to give to me, even if I am not actually entitled to it.
Although I have had some bad experiences in my life, and even though I toss around words like dissociation to pretend that I might have CPTSD, and even though I might actually have CPTSD, the story that I tell really makes me come across much more like someone who has a Cluster B personality disorder (sociopathy-psychopathy, now known as Antisocial Personality Disorder; Narcissistic PO, Borderline PO, and Histrionic PO) (and getting a Cluster B Personality Disorder is also a possible outcome of childhood abuse). People who have CPTSD are able to understand other people's feelings. They are capable of empathy, and connection, and interacting with other humans at a human level. Sometimes the psychological injuries suffered by those with CPTSD cause them to respond in inappropriate ways, but overall, those with CPTSD are still caring, people. Those of us with Cluster B personality disorders, on the other hand, are incapable of having empathy for others, and throughout the book I will tell you that I am incapable of having these types of feelings. I, like many Cluster Bs will also try to pretend that I am suffering, suffering greatly and always, because if we can get people to feel sympathy for us, to pity us and have compassion for us, we can reel them in and abuse them and take advantage of them, and trap them in our sphere, as I did with Miranda. I will also lie and cheat and steal, and manipulate people around me, and blame them for my shortcomings just because I can, other actions that are typical of those with Cluster B personality disorders.
Aside for being a character with horrible character in this book, I narrate a story that is excruciatingly painful to read and not in the way that the author seems to have intended. No, not painful because of the abuses I suffered as a child, but painful because of the narration I inflict on the reader. I will tell you about sidewalks so that I can point out the litter on them. I will eavesdrop on other characters that have no reason to exist in this book except to give me a reason to tell the reader how inane the conversations are and how asinine the people have the conversation are. I will tell you about buildings to describe how ugly they are, except when they have some architectural value, at which point I will focus instead on the disappointment I have that no one is currently jumping from them. I will describe to you the belongings and furniture in people's homes so that I can give details about how cheap, poorly-constructed, worn, torn, stained, and/or other terrible they always are, all the time, in every home, of every person I ever meet. Unlike most people who are disappointed to find a bottle floating in the ocean, I will be disappointed that this is the only trash that I find. I will ignore the beauty of my surroundings and the forests and oceans and mountains on the island where I live, except in one scene which will focus on the roots that can trip me and the mud that ruins our shoes and clothes (because, you know, washing machines do not exist in my world?). I will continuously, relentlessly, monotonously describe everything wrong with everyone and everything around me, even if I must introduce pointless characters and places and props just so I can have something new to complain about. I will continue with these ceaseless, heavy-handed fault finding until the person reviewing this book wanted to stick a fork in her eye.
And while I am complaining about everything and everyone I will also tell you about how terrible I look. And I will do it in the same shallow, superficial way that I narrate everything else in this tiresome book, so that the reader will begin to think that I am doing so not because I believe it but because I am both seeking sympathy with which to trap my victims, and also so that I have an excuse to never do anything or to ever to try and do anything with my life except to sit around and complain about everything that everyone else is or is not doing with their lives and what everyone else is doing and not doing for me. To top it all off, I will continuously equate being short with being deficient and inadequate and ugly. And, I will use the blindness in my eye as an additional excuse to waste my life. Because, I really am just a shallow superficial person who while trying to gain sympathy from others just comes across as the whiny obnoxious brat that I am.
Hello, I am the writer of this review. I think that the book was not badly written, but I am unsure because Shannon was such a problematic character that I could not really think about the writing, and as the narrator of the story it was impossible to get away from this terrible being in the book. BLARGH! There are so many problems with the way that Celona treated the mental injuries and concerns that result from childhood abuse that I cannot even begin to list them here. But, what I can say as a 5' tall woman (the same height as Shannon supposedly is in the book), is STUFF IT! to Celona for using this trite, offensive cliche in her book. I have to say, I am hardly surprised because the whole book is trite and banal. But, I am short, and strong, and healthy, and beautiful. So STUFF IT to Celona (because I cannot say what I am really thinking right now - it would never get past the GR site's censors).
Blargh! I will not only not read any more books by this author, I think I will be taking a break from reading Canadian literature for a while. I am a Canadian who has been making a point of reading literature from my country, but this book is Canadian in the worst possible way that literature can be. I need a break. BLARGH!!!!