Jeremy Pauling is living in a Bizarro World.
You may remember Bizarro, in the DC Comic book story Superman. I certainly do, as Bizarro premiered when I was only 9 years old, and I was by then fatally addicted to comics.
Not all of us can become a Superman. But Superman’s archenemy Lex Luthor thinks he can recreate Superman - and his scheme, of course, as all evil schemes eventually will be, is foiled.
Luthor inadvertently creates an amoral, twisted monster. Bizarro is in it all for his own glory - he is his own gnostic Daemon - and so, like Luthor, Bizarro bends reality in his daemon’s twisted image.
So his is a Bizarro world.
And this is Jeremy Pauling’s world.
In it, all abiding Value has been “de-“, or “trans-valued” in the Nietzschean sense. Bizarro’s efforts are worthless to God. And so are Jeremy’s. But not so his soul. No, for he is a transmogrified innocent at heart.
Jeremy’s simple world as a child with Asperger’s Syndrome was annihilated when he put two and two together. And no, it’s not his fault. The Daemon’s toolbox is just too sophisticated for him.
But then the unlikeliest of apparitions of Grace is given him.
You know, we seldom make use of our Graces. That is the business of our Faith. Without at least a modicum of it we are ALL at sea. Faith would give Jeremy the grit he needs to face the world at least obliquely head on.
But like many of us he refuses it, cause it’s not his Thing.
And so - Enter the Daemon....
With more bait.
The world thinks Jeremy’s “found (ie worthless) art” - a Dadaist term for the modern art form that sprang, fully formed, from the side of Surrealism when it merged with Abstract Expressionism - is pure genius.
His art becomes priceless in the world’s eyes.
But guess again.
It’s not Jeremy’s art. It’s his Daemon’s ignoble way of reconciling him to a transvalued cruel world, a world to which the Bizarro nobility of nonsense constructions gives Jeremy new strength.
So he becomes a Superman manque of alienation, and in the end his isolation is terminal. But he still remembers how to make sense of the world on a basic and ingenuous level.
His art becomes a hidden language, reverberating in the callous world’s postmodernist soul.
It’s like in Simon and Garfunkel’s Only Living Boy in New York:
Half of the time we’re gone
But we don’t know where -
We don’t know where...
But Jeremy knows.
Did that ever happen to you? Me too.
But that’s Jeremy ALL the time.
He’s trapped in his aborted and alienated Asperger’s world and can’t get out. Except through his neutral, amoral Daemon.
We are actually no better than our neighbours, sub specie aeternitatis -
The Being of God ultimately knows no distinctions.
Jeremy’s way out is actually only a way further into myopia. And he refuses to transmute his Asperger’s Syndrome into the transient gold of everyday, common reality.
No wonder that among her own novels, this is one of Anne Tyler’s favourites!
We ALL share Jeremy’s blindness to our faults. That dysfunction is our humanity.
We’re duped - myself as well. And nowadays, we’re duped by the Daemon of technology into thinking we’re somehow more well-adjusted than we really are.
If we - you and me - can just continue to do our best to stay alert and awake to what is actually happening to us, on the inside and outside, in every moment (a VERY tall order, believe me) we just might smash the Daemon’s illusions and see the clear light of the everyday world - and find Peace, more and more of the time.
But Jeremy, like so many of us:
would rather be ruined than changed.
(He) would rather die in (his) dread
Than climb on the cross of the moment
And let (his) illusions die.
And Jeremy, unchanged at the end, is still ruined. Though NOT unhappy in his ruin.
But there IS a way out of this postmodern dilemma: Jeremy has to make the plunge and OWN his Daemon, in an act of sacrifice. It’s The Hard Way.
It’s what the mightily disturbed Cliff does in R.J. Ellis’ unsung Masterpiece, Behind the Spiritual Lines.
As an act of love, Cliff BECOMES his snarling Daemon - peacefully.
And so, his Cross is his redemption -
As it must be for US:
And the ONLY way to Postmodern Peace.