I don’t remember how this book was recommended to me but I’m certainly glad it came across my path. It’s not the first book I’ve read on contemplation and spiritual growth but it fits well into the successions on books I’ve read on this topic.
Christianity, both Catholic and Protestant, suffers from a “separateness” from God that, for a litany of reasons, it has imposed upon itself. We read about similar incidences in Bible with individuals assuming this same thing; that there is barrier that prevents us from being close to God.
Somewhere along the path, Christianity has erroneously made the mistake of preaching that our “perfection” either is our conduit to knowing God or worse, entitles us with a feeling we have achieved some sort of deserved status with God. So Christianity in essence has joined the rest of the karmic faiths that are well known around the globe.
I remember growing up, I was told that angels sit outside the movie theater because they cannot be present where sin is. How silly on one hand yet how deeply damaging on another.
Laird asks his readers a question; Does Christ identify more with the perfectionist, or the sinner?
It really speaks volumes how one answers that in regards to a persons true understanding with God and further, a persons capability to know God. If our understanding of God is identifying with perfectionism, our entire life will be spent with our ego looking inwards, judging ourselves, needlessly always asking ourselves, have I done enough? What this does is place layer upon layer of self before God. We can’t find God because of the noise we create and place upon ourselves by the constant chatter and revisitation of whether are standing with God is adequate. Other words, our entire being is consumed with ourselves over God.
“My grace is sufficient for you” - Jesus (to Paul)
No long theological expose’ just these words. We want more because we feel it must, MUST, require more. It cannot be this easy. Yet, it is the entire bedrock of what we are asked to believe. It means losing that ego. You must trust, TRUST those simple words.
Jesus does not say much here because to say much is to interfere with....the silence. Silence meaning no chatter, no noise, no inward ego insisting more...”My Grace is sufficient...” that’s what is given, that’s all you need. You cannot instill your own ego here, because you have nothing to do with it, there’s nothing to self-check, you are both within and without the equation here. You contribute nothing.
When we begin to understand Christ identifies with the sinner, chose to identify with the sinner, we can go from a place of inward ego living to a place of outward focused joyous living.
Your forgiveness is/was established on Calvary.
You are already forgiven, that is the entire point of the cross.
It’s not an issue of asking for forgiveness, it’s accepting the forgiveness that Christ has already given.
Because when you understand that even when we fall to sin, Christ is behind us saying “I’ll pick up the check for that” and you understand Christ is doing that everyday of our lives, you can begin to understand God, His purpose and His love.
There is no separateness. God does not leave your side when you sin, He is there, sweeping it up into Himself and taking it to the Cross.
And contemplation of that, leaves me in silence.