Okay. I had a whole AHA! moment about halfway through this one, and I think it has some merit.
Because while I have enjoyed this series thus far, something has been off. And by off, I mean it consistently feels like I’m missing 70% of the story. I couldn’t put my inside feelings and thoughts into coherent outside ones, but I think I got closer this time.
But then the last half of the book started to sort-of correct itself? A bit? And I started to think maybe it was intentional? The Lack, that is. I’m still not sure, but I mean stranger things have happened, and I don’t really think my theories are correct, but having them makes me feel better so that’s me saying my peace and counting to ten on it.
They may be all fucking wrong and in left field by themselves, but they make things easier to swallow. They are my spoonful of sugar and it’s fucking vanilla sugar, babe.
Nom.
Anyhow, my theory got put into a highlight, so I’m gonna paste it and then elaborate, as I am wont to do. These reviews of mine are still just dumping grounds of my immediate afterthoughts, or like my blog, so do with them what y’all always do and get mad or move on. Easy choices.
I think I just figured out why I feel like I’m not getting the depth/detail I need out of this series.
It’s almost like, yeah, this is a plot-heavy series/set of stories, but the romances are treated as foregone conclusions from the jump, and everything else completely drowns that part of each book/story. It’s lost under everything else, but since everything else is tied so closely to it, everything else suffers from the same general lacking.
The romance is feeding the story, but the story isn’t feeding the romance? Maybe? Is that how I want to put that? Idk… in any case, it’s just not a good balance, and I feel like every book so far could’ve only benefited from a little more attention to that detail—the balance of the romance vs the storyline.
Maybe if the love wasn’t so integral to the story/plot, all of it would just feel like a series of novella-esque books that are succinct and quick-paced. Instead it feels like I bought a new video game, and after I loaded it up I found out I needed like $80 of DLC to make it work/make sense.
I still like it, and I still enjoy my time in this world, but it’s got a sheen of “bummer” on it because it feels like it’s just a basic outline of something amazing.
Okay. That’s actually a lot more to unpack than I originally realised. Let me start by saying I am not dragging anyone or any book. I am not being hateful. I fully recommend and love this series, but I do notice a difference in the way these books feel vs how Cordelia Manor felt.
Cordelia Manor had the MORE. It was still a quicker pace, and had the air of being succinct, but it didn’t LACK. And that lacking is what’s fucking with me so hard. I don’t like The Lack. I want all of the good shit when a series is good because it deserves to have its moment.
And the relationships getting glazed feels like a let-down. Like, there’s the potential for an epic PNR/SNR. It could be grandiose and fantastical, but instead it just feels like each book is a carcass that has already been picked over. There’s still enough good stuff to make a solid bone broth or pot of stock, but not anywhere near enough to constitute a meal, ya feel me?
HOWEVER, comma, around 75-80% through this one, the detail started to get richer. The relationship and love that’s supposed to be the key suddenly took a much larger spot on stage for itself. Interpersonal relationships became even more important with satellite characters, and the brothers continue to mend fences and reinforce/rebuild bridges.
SO THEN I’m sitting here like, well damn. Was that intentional? Because it would track with the energy of the storyline, but with everyone constantly reminding the world that reading comprehension and the capabilities of grasping nuance and subtlety are shockingly low, maybe I’m just feeding my own tendencies into the narrative to force some kind of answers?
I guess this just means I have questions I’d love to get answers to. Was the bare-bones, outline-esque writing of these first three books on purpose? Was it a nod to the disconnect in the storyline that plagued each of the brothers?
3.5/5. This one had a lot more editing misses on the proofreading side, and The Lack was still present. Again, I’m out here reading way too deep into shit, and continue to get way different fucking things out of the books I read. I need my rabbit hole of a brain to calm the fuck down. You’d think I wore tin foil hats and screamed about conspiracy theories from a basement somewhere. I will most likely delete this later when I come to my senses and try again. Or not, because I spent all this time on it, and I am nothing if not lazy with my soapbox. It gets left lying around all the time.