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被写界深度 / Hishakai shindo #1
Depth of Field, Tome 1
J'ai pris l'habitude d'aller sur le toit du vieux bâtiment de l'école après les cours, quand je n'ai pas envie de rentrer chez moi. C'est là que j'ai rencontré Konno. Certains disent de lui qu'il est intimidant ou difficile à aborder, mais quand il prend des photos ou me parle de ses appareils, la joie illumine toujours son visage.
Respect, envie, jalousie, complexe dinfériorité...
Konno possède exactement tout ce que je désire sans avoir jamais pu l'obtenir, et mes sentiments à son égard deviennent de plus en plus complexes...
Rejeté par les autres à cause de son talent et des différences sociales, Shûichirô a préféré abandonner ses rêves et se cacher derrière un faux sourire. Konno parviendra-t-il à sauver son esprit torturé et à lui redonner le goût de la musique ?
Respect, envie, jalousie, complexe dinfériorité...
Konno possède exactement tout ce que je désire sans avoir jamais pu l'obtenir, et mes sentiments à son égard deviennent de plus en plus complexes...
Rejeté par les autres à cause de son talent et des différences sociales, Shûichirô a préféré abandonner ses rêves et se cacher derrière un faux sourire. Konno parviendra-t-il à sauver son esprit torturé et à lui redonner le goût de la musique ?
240 pages, Paperback
First published September 1, 2017
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May 28, 2019
Deberían haber sido tres estrellas, pero le bajo una por una escena que es un NO para mí.
September 2, 2020
Liked how this Yaoi is somewhat different and deep compared to the stereotypical ones out there. Let's see what volume 2 brings!
May 23, 2019
Es que no puedo darle más por ESO
July 9, 2024
this is written SO well and the mc has so much depth! absolutely loved it but sad i can’t seem to find volume 2 😭
May 28, 2022
ENJO did it again (for me, seeing this is published way before Usagi no Mori!) My internal organs are bleeding and screaming and asking for help—this is just phenomenal. ENJO has the way of bringing the worse in a character and then proceeding to peel every skin until the character is barely naked... and human. That's the thing I liked about sensei's works.
The cover kinda reminds me of Arima Kousei from Your Lie in April. They're both music-inclined characters who are drowned by "trauma" from the past and proceeded to turn their backs on music.
Mostly I'm using sensei in exchange for pronouns if I don't know their genders.
The cover kinda reminds me of Arima Kousei from Your Lie in April. They're both music-inclined characters who are drowned by "trauma" from the past and proceeded to turn their backs on music.
Mostly I'm using sensei in exchange for pronouns if I don't know their genders.
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January 31, 2022
3 stars for the series as a whole.
August 21, 2020
***Trigger warning for ***
September 8, 2021
My first BL manga. It's kinda tragic and I really loved it. I need more tho... more story pls.
May 21, 2024
This was devastating and wonderful. I'm in agony now because while this is apparently complete in two volumes, I don't know when the second volume will be coming out in English. Or if it will be? June is...I wouldn't say a less reliable publisher, but they're definitely slower. They seem to hit a lot more release date delays and I wonder if that impacts their ability to license and publish additional volumes. But I'll just hope they get around to volume 2, because depending on how that concludes, this could be a new favorite series.
It's not a happy story but it's told so effectively. Beautiful art, thoughtfully paced storytelling, character development that both grows and unveils itself over time. The main character makes some absolutely terrible decisions, but you fully understand his motivations once you see his backstory - which takes up a solid chunk in the middle of this nicely substantial volume.
Hayakawa is a popular playboy with a casually familiar attitude towards everything and everyone, and a willingness to sleep with anyone. This includes, possibly, the lunch lady (?) and the school nurse. Initially, you could read this any number of ways, and most of the people around him simply don't think that deeply about it. He wants to, so he does.
But the reality is that it's tied so deeply to both specific trauma from a few years earlier, and an intense inferiority complex he's had since he was the weird little kid who made up songs and hummed in class and couldn't make any friends. Ever. Kids can be brutal, and instead of being interested in or fascinated by his creativity and talents with music, they decided early on that he was "creepy" and shunned him. Which only made it worse over time, as he got rejected often enough to start expecting it.
By middle school, he'd only ever successfully made one friend: a piano student of his mother's who'd told him it was okay to be good at the piano and to not worry about other people hating him for winning too many competitions. Because even after entering the music world, with people who should've understood him, Hayakawa was constantly met with jealousy and hate for simply being too good. When he won competitions, their parents berated them for not doing better. And over time, everyone...even Hayakawa's one "friend," iced him out for being unlike them.
Some of it is a little bit true: Hayakawa's mother taught piano, his father is an instructor at some prominent music academy, they're wealthy with a huge house full of music and soundproofed practice rooms, so anyone with a little bit of talent would have so many opportunities to develop their skills. There is definitely a level of privilege that boosts people's success.
But Hayakawa is also a prodigy in his own right; his interest in composing music came from an early age, without instruction, and his passion for it - even after he'd "given it up" and started hiding it from everyone around him - helped him to improve rapidly over the years.
The problem is that he has started to hide it, and to hate the part of himself he can't bring himself to cut out.
In this story, that hidden music becomes sort of a metaphor for, and runs in parallel with, Hayakawa's sexuality. I don't know if he had a crush on his friend; I don't think so, I think he was just a very lonely boy who clung extremely hard to the one person who had seemed to accept him. But when he does start to fall in love with Konno, another guy at school, all those insecurities well up and start drowning him.
At first, he thinks all the frustration and tumultuous feelings simply come from jealousy. Konno is calm and confident, happy with the photography he learned from his professional photographer father, and content with a small group of friends around whom he is always fully himself. That's what makes Hayakawa hate him: Konno is able to display his true personality and passions openly, without worrying about what others think. Hayakawa has spent the majority of his life hiding and doesn't know how to stop.
Konno, though, seems to like Hayakawa for who he actually is, and constantly prods him to stop being so fake around other people. So Hayakawa slowly starts to unpeel some of his protective layers, even apologizing to a girl from his old music club who'd known him before he'd fought with his "friend" and given up music.
The problem is, Hayakawa is still pretty heavily scarred, and messes up in how he approaches Konno. He still doesn't know how to be natural and honest about things. So when he makes his first move on Konno, it's a violent experience where they both end up bruised and Konno assumes it was all some big joke or power play on Hayakawa's side.
Except Hayakawa gradually realizes he's actually fallen in love. And he doesn't know how to tell Konno, or what Konno will do.
The ending of this volume is incredibly painful, and it's because the buildup was so skillfully crafted. Konno is rejecting Hayakawa - or so he thinks - in exactly the same way his not-actually-ever-a-friend had. So he leaves the rooftop and their relationship, whatever it was, before Konno can finish out the rejection: which in Hayakawa's mind ends with "Disgusting."
It looks like there's a time skip in the second volume, which makes me unhappy, because based on their personalities in this volume, and Konno's ability to read Hayakawa's expressions correctly, he should've been able to tell that Hayakawa was lying through his teeth at the end there. I would've thought he would try to talk to him about what happened. But maybe they do need more time and space - especially for Hayakawa to grow into himself more so he doesn't become entirely dependent on a single other person again.
This was just a beautifully told story that currently concludes on a very unhappy note, but I have high hopes for the rest.
It's not a happy story but it's told so effectively. Beautiful art, thoughtfully paced storytelling, character development that both grows and unveils itself over time. The main character makes some absolutely terrible decisions, but you fully understand his motivations once you see his backstory - which takes up a solid chunk in the middle of this nicely substantial volume.
Hayakawa is a popular playboy with a casually familiar attitude towards everything and everyone, and a willingness to sleep with anyone. This includes, possibly, the lunch lady (?) and the school nurse. Initially, you could read this any number of ways, and most of the people around him simply don't think that deeply about it. He wants to, so he does.
But the reality is that it's tied so deeply to both specific trauma from a few years earlier, and an intense inferiority complex he's had since he was the weird little kid who made up songs and hummed in class and couldn't make any friends. Ever. Kids can be brutal, and instead of being interested in or fascinated by his creativity and talents with music, they decided early on that he was "creepy" and shunned him. Which only made it worse over time, as he got rejected often enough to start expecting it.
By middle school, he'd only ever successfully made one friend: a piano student of his mother's who'd told him it was okay to be good at the piano and to not worry about other people hating him for winning too many competitions. Because even after entering the music world, with people who should've understood him, Hayakawa was constantly met with jealousy and hate for simply being too good. When he won competitions, their parents berated them for not doing better. And over time, everyone...even Hayakawa's one "friend," iced him out for being unlike them.
Some of it is a little bit true: Hayakawa's mother taught piano, his father is an instructor at some prominent music academy, they're wealthy with a huge house full of music and soundproofed practice rooms, so anyone with a little bit of talent would have so many opportunities to develop their skills. There is definitely a level of privilege that boosts people's success.
But Hayakawa is also a prodigy in his own right; his interest in composing music came from an early age, without instruction, and his passion for it - even after he'd "given it up" and started hiding it from everyone around him - helped him to improve rapidly over the years.
The problem is that he has started to hide it, and to hate the part of himself he can't bring himself to cut out.
In this story, that hidden music becomes sort of a metaphor for, and runs in parallel with, Hayakawa's sexuality. I don't know if he had a crush on his friend; I don't think so, I think he was just a very lonely boy who clung extremely hard to the one person who had seemed to accept him. But when he does start to fall in love with Konno, another guy at school, all those insecurities well up and start drowning him.
At first, he thinks all the frustration and tumultuous feelings simply come from jealousy. Konno is calm and confident, happy with the photography he learned from his professional photographer father, and content with a small group of friends around whom he is always fully himself. That's what makes Hayakawa hate him: Konno is able to display his true personality and passions openly, without worrying about what others think. Hayakawa has spent the majority of his life hiding and doesn't know how to stop.
Konno, though, seems to like Hayakawa for who he actually is, and constantly prods him to stop being so fake around other people. So Hayakawa slowly starts to unpeel some of his protective layers, even apologizing to a girl from his old music club who'd known him before he'd fought with his "friend" and given up music.
The problem is, Hayakawa is still pretty heavily scarred, and messes up in how he approaches Konno. He still doesn't know how to be natural and honest about things. So when he makes his first move on Konno, it's a violent experience where they both end up bruised and Konno assumes it was all some big joke or power play on Hayakawa's side.
Except Hayakawa gradually realizes he's actually fallen in love. And he doesn't know how to tell Konno, or what Konno will do.
The ending of this volume is incredibly painful, and it's because the buildup was so skillfully crafted. Konno is rejecting Hayakawa - or so he thinks - in exactly the same way his not-actually-ever-a-friend had. So he leaves the rooftop and their relationship, whatever it was, before Konno can finish out the rejection: which in Hayakawa's mind ends with "Disgusting."
It looks like there's a time skip in the second volume, which makes me unhappy, because based on their personalities in this volume, and Konno's ability to read Hayakawa's expressions correctly, he should've been able to tell that Hayakawa was lying through his teeth at the end there. I would've thought he would try to talk to him about what happened. But maybe they do need more time and space - especially for Hayakawa to grow into himself more so he doesn't become entirely dependent on a single other person again.
This was just a beautifully told story that currently concludes on a very unhappy note, but I have high hopes for the rest.
November 11, 2020
Interesting story with a rocky beginning, about two highschool students that become friends by spending time in the roof of the school. This would have had a higher rating if it weren't from one unnecessary scene in the first chapter.
November 4, 2020
Aufmachung
Charaktere, deren Kleidung, sowie Hintergründe sind recht einfach gehalten. Dafür sind sie jedoch unterschiedlich gestaltet. Zudem werden die Emotionen wirklich gut transportiert. Alles wirkt, vorwiegend auch durch die starken Linien, atmosphärisch eher düster.
Fazit
Diesen Titel habe ich auf Empfehlung gekauft und muss gestehen, dass ich Anfangs ein wenig meine Schwierigkeiten hatte, denn Hayakawas Verhalten war für mich kurzzeitig nicht mehr ganz nachvollziehbar.
Als dann jedoch der Rückblick in seine Vergangenheit kam, wurde einiges klarer und ich begann die Geschichte immer mehr zu mögen. Tatsächlich empfinde ich diese, sofern ich das einschätzen kann, als ziemlich realistisch. Das und dass die Emotionen so gut bei mir ankamen, hat mich am Ende wirklich überzeugt. Des Weiteren bin ich ein großer Fan von Geschichten, in denen Leidenschaften, wie hier das Fotografieren und die Musik, eine wesentliche Rolle spielen, denn ich selbst habe einige davon über Jahre hinweg einfach vergessen und weiß wie sehr sie einem unterbewusst fehlen.
Charaktere, deren Kleidung, sowie Hintergründe sind recht einfach gehalten. Dafür sind sie jedoch unterschiedlich gestaltet. Zudem werden die Emotionen wirklich gut transportiert. Alles wirkt, vorwiegend auch durch die starken Linien, atmosphärisch eher düster.
Fazit
Diesen Titel habe ich auf Empfehlung gekauft und muss gestehen, dass ich Anfangs ein wenig meine Schwierigkeiten hatte, denn Hayakawas Verhalten war für mich kurzzeitig nicht mehr ganz nachvollziehbar.
Als dann jedoch der Rückblick in seine Vergangenheit kam, wurde einiges klarer und ich begann die Geschichte immer mehr zu mögen. Tatsächlich empfinde ich diese, sofern ich das einschätzen kann, als ziemlich realistisch. Das und dass die Emotionen so gut bei mir ankamen, hat mich am Ende wirklich überzeugt. Des Weiteren bin ich ein großer Fan von Geschichten, in denen Leidenschaften, wie hier das Fotografieren und die Musik, eine wesentliche Rolle spielen, denn ich selbst habe einige davon über Jahre hinweg einfach vergessen und weiß wie sehr sie einem unterbewusst fehlen.
August 3, 2024
3.5⭐
Todo iba bien, hasta que pasó ESO y se me cayó.
El prota tuvo un pasado bastante triste, que si yo hubiera sido él y un amigo me hace/dice eso más que deprimirme me hubiera resentido.
Todo iba bien, hasta que pasó ESO y se me cayó.
El prota tuvo un pasado bastante triste, que si yo hubiera sido él y un amigo me hace/dice eso más que deprimirme me hubiera resentido.
November 23, 2024
2.5 that was weird
January 1, 2022
[ ★★★,3 / 5 ]
[ cw//tw: dubious-consent. ]
[ Tag(s): high-school. ]
[ cw//tw: dubious-consent. ]
[ Tag(s): high-school. ]
August 25, 2020
Absolutly adorable, both characters are so sweet, love the slow burn, totally worth waiting for.
Love the cats xD
Love the cats xD
April 26, 2022
Okay wow. Also erst mal war das gar nicht das, was ich mir vorgestellt habe. Viel ernster als ich gedacht habe. Das Cover sieht so voll schön und unschuldig aus und dann....
Und ich konnte Hayakawa am Anfang auch gar nicht leiden. Dann kam seine Background Story. Bestes Beispiel dafür, dass man Menschen nicht so schnell verurteilen sollte, wenn man sie nicht kennt😅
Dann konnte ich richtig gut mit ihm mitfühlen. Ich liebe Musik ebenfalls. Und die paar Male, die man sie mir mehr oder weniger verwehrt hat, waren die Pest. Nicht auszudenken, ich müsste sie komplett aufgeben so wie Hayakawa. Der Part der Story hat mir wirklich gut gefallen. Da bin ich fast ein bisschen emotional geworden.
Ab da wurde die Story dann auch langsam so wie ich ursprünglich erwartet hatte. Natürlich nicht ganz so Friede-Freude-Eierkuchen aber dennoch.
Mir fehlt noch das gewisse Etwas, deshalb hat es nicht ganz für den vierten Stern gereicht. Es ist halt noch nicht "sehr" gut. Mehr so 3,5⭐
Mal sehen wie der zweite Band wird
Und ich konnte Hayakawa am Anfang auch gar nicht leiden. Dann kam seine Background Story. Bestes Beispiel dafür, dass man Menschen nicht so schnell verurteilen sollte, wenn man sie nicht kennt😅
Dann konnte ich richtig gut mit ihm mitfühlen. Ich liebe Musik ebenfalls. Und die paar Male, die man sie mir mehr oder weniger verwehrt hat, waren die Pest. Nicht auszudenken, ich müsste sie komplett aufgeben so wie Hayakawa. Der Part der Story hat mir wirklich gut gefallen. Da bin ich fast ein bisschen emotional geworden.
Ab da wurde die Story dann auch langsam so wie ich ursprünglich erwartet hatte. Natürlich nicht ganz so Friede-Freude-Eierkuchen aber dennoch.
Mir fehlt noch das gewisse Etwas, deshalb hat es nicht ganz für den vierten Stern gereicht. Es ist halt noch nicht "sehr" gut. Mehr so 3,5⭐
Mal sehen wie der zweite Band wird
January 28, 2020
Un manga muy hermoso, la historia fue buena y me hizo pensar mucho sobre las diferencias de clases sociales cuando Hayakawa recuerda su pasado con Yamashita. Los dibujos fueron originales, sentí que no eran siempre el típico rostro de un manga yaoi y aunque al principio pensara que no iba con la estética correspondiente a este tipo de manga, logré verlo de manera muy diferente. Por cierto me encanta el cabello de kon-chan. Este tomo tiene cinco estrellas, espero que el segundo supere mis expectativas.
Psdt: Estoy feliz de que este haya sido mi número 100 (cien libros que debo leer antes de morir)
Psdt: Estoy feliz de que este haya sido mi número 100 (cien libros que debo leer antes de morir)
May 26, 2021
Całkiem w porządku jednotomówka. Kreska przyjemna dla oka, aczkolwiek trzeba się do nie przyzwyczaić. Co do fabuły to nie powala, ale bardzo szanuję to, że relacja między bohaterami rozwija się powoli.
Podobał mi się wątek muzyczny, nie będę ukrywać - ogólnie bardzo lubię jak takowe się pojawiają.
Nie wiem czy polecam, ale na pewno nie odradzam. Jeżeli ktoś lubi szkolne BL to powinno mu się spodobać.
Podobał mi się wątek muzyczny, nie będę ukrywać - ogólnie bardzo lubię jak takowe się pojawiają.
Nie wiem czy polecam, ale na pewno nie odradzam. Jeżeli ktoś lubi szkolne BL to powinno mu się spodobać.
June 25, 2020
Hat mich nicht wirklich überzeugen können. Mit den Protagonisten bin ich auch nicht wirklich warm geworden. Die beiden, aber vor allem Shu waren doch seltsam. Auch als man mehr von ihm erfahren hat, hat mich das nicht wirklich zufriedenstellen und mehr für die Story begeistern können. Ich glaube, ich werde die nächsten Bände nicht weiterlesen.
January 19, 2019
The art is amazing
April 26, 2019
Pretty good BL manga, The Art was very good and the story was pretty great😁👌💕
June 12, 2020
Menschen die Klavier spielen. Frag mich weshalb ich diese Art Geschichten so sehr mag.
November 11, 2021
I remembered liking this a lot more the first time I read it. I liked Hayakawa's backstory, but Konno felt underdeveloped and too much like a blank slate.
March 30, 2022
4.5/5
En este primer tomo la historia está más enfocada en la vida de Hayakawa, mostrándonos un poco de su entorno social y familiar, así también como su amor y pasión por la música, el cual ha tenido que esconder por su experiencia de rechazo.
Me pareció bastante humana la forma en la que presentan la personalidad de Hayakawa, fingiendo que está bien y restándole importancia a su más grande sueño y pasión con tal de ser aceptado y no sufrir el mismo sentimiento de soledad que enfrentó durante la escuela media, mostrándonos todos sus matices y reacciones realmente adecuadas para un adolescente, por lo que me agradó bastante el que no estuviera escrito como una persona con rebosante madurez emocional.
En cuanto a Konno, el que sea tan diferente a Hayakawa pero aún así logre conectar con el me resultó bastante dulce, además de algo bastante propio de esa edad. Por otra parte, me pareció muy agradable que él también se mostrara tan humano, dando a relucir que el ser una persona relajada y hasta cierto punto despreocupada no te convierte en un vago -por llamarlo de alguna manera-.
En conclusión, este tomo me resultó bastante interesante y fue muy fácil empatizar con los protagonistas, por lo que considero que fue un gran trabajo en el desarrollo de la historia apestar de estar escrito en pocos capítulos.
En este primer tomo la historia está más enfocada en la vida de Hayakawa, mostrándonos un poco de su entorno social y familiar, así también como su amor y pasión por la música, el cual ha tenido que esconder por su experiencia de rechazo.
Me pareció bastante humana la forma en la que presentan la personalidad de Hayakawa, fingiendo que está bien y restándole importancia a su más grande sueño y pasión con tal de ser aceptado y no sufrir el mismo sentimiento de soledad que enfrentó durante la escuela media, mostrándonos todos sus matices y reacciones realmente adecuadas para un adolescente, por lo que me agradó bastante el que no estuviera escrito como una persona con rebosante madurez emocional.
En cuanto a Konno, el que sea tan diferente a Hayakawa pero aún así logre conectar con el me resultó bastante dulce, además de algo bastante propio de esa edad. Por otra parte, me pareció muy agradable que él también se mostrara tan humano, dando a relucir que el ser una persona relajada y hasta cierto punto despreocupada no te convierte en un vago -por llamarlo de alguna manera-.
En conclusión, este tomo me resultó bastante interesante y fue muy fácil empatizar con los protagonistas, por lo que considero que fue un gran trabajo en el desarrollo de la historia apestar de estar escrito en pocos capítulos.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
April 2, 2022
Tanti commenti si dimenticano una cosa, secondo me: non possiamo giudicare qualcosa prodotto in un'altra parte del mondo con gli standard occidentali. E si dimenticano anche che sono comuni negli yaoi. Anzi, sembrano essere uno dei motivi preferiti dalle autrici. A me personalmente non piace, perché spesso prevede che i due personaggi siano in una relazione non equilibrata, in cui uno ha molto più potere dell'altro.
Qui, tutto sommato, i due ragazzi sono sullo stesso piano e il loro rapporto sembra abbastanza sereno, nonostante uno dei due sia stato forzato a fare una cosa che non voleva.
Capisco meno tutti i problemi che si fa Hayakawa a proposito di fingere e di non voler amici che sappiano della sua passione per la musica. Se sei stato sfortunato una volta, non è detto che sarai sempre sfortunato con gli amici. E proprio non capisco perché voglia provare gli stessi sentimenti che ha provato il suo amico di infanzia.
Una nota alla traduttrice: da quando in qua i musicisti si "allenano"? Si esercitano, magari, provano... Ma di sicuro non si allenano.
E in quarta di copertina, cosa significa un "amore moratorio"? Visto che la Treccani mi rimanda alla mora in senso giuridico.
Qui, tutto sommato, i due ragazzi sono sullo stesso piano e il loro rapporto sembra abbastanza sereno, nonostante uno dei due sia stato forzato a fare una cosa che non voleva.
Capisco meno tutti i problemi che si fa Hayakawa a proposito di fingere e di non voler amici che sappiano della sua passione per la musica. Se sei stato sfortunato una volta, non è detto che sarai sempre sfortunato con gli amici. E proprio non capisco perché voglia provare gli stessi sentimenti che ha provato il suo amico di infanzia.
Una nota alla traduttrice: da quando in qua i musicisti si "allenano"? Si esercitano, magari, provano... Ma di sicuro non si allenano.
E in quarta di copertina, cosa significa un "amore moratorio"? Visto che la Treccani mi rimanda alla mora in senso giuridico.
April 5, 2021
SPOILER
I ADORE this idea of not giving up what u love and endure the hardship and lonelyness until u finally find the person who loves you BECAUSE of your edges.
I feel so seen!
I was honestly shocked when I saw Shuichiro getting head from the school nurse, even though it was short and not too graphic scene, I needed a long time to recover from that. I just can't deal with even hints of that.
The rest of the book was awesome! It's been a while since I last read a so well written character, with deep rooting feelings of lonelyness and regret.
I have a long history of trying to shape my mind and body into ways and forms everybody liked hoping to be deemed worthy of friendship in the eyes of others one day, until I find I couldn't.
One can change only as far as language and habits go, but you cannot change your very essences.
You are stuck with yourself. It feels like a curse, until one day a person shows up and accepts the YOU deep inside of you.
I ADORE this idea of not giving up what u love and endure the hardship and lonelyness until u finally find the person who loves you BECAUSE of your edges.
I feel so seen!
I was honestly shocked when I saw Shuichiro getting head from the school nurse, even though it was short and not too graphic scene, I needed a long time to recover from that. I just can't deal with even hints of that.
The rest of the book was awesome! It's been a while since I last read a so well written character, with deep rooting feelings of lonelyness and regret.
I have a long history of trying to shape my mind and body into ways and forms everybody liked hoping to be deemed worthy of friendship in the eyes of others one day, until I find I couldn't.
One can change only as far as language and habits go, but you cannot change your very essences.
You are stuck with yourself. It feels like a curse, until one day a person shows up and accepts the YOU deep inside of you.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
July 21, 2024
"After that day, Hayakawa never came back to that roof."
Even though I didn't cry when I read that line, it still broke my heart. So, they never kept in touch for the rest of high school? Yeah, I know, maybe it's for the best for both of them.
My friend picked this manga for me because I wanted to read a high school romance and needed something sweet. I thought it was the right choice. But my hopes were dashed by the third chapter! Hayakawa's past really made me sad... oh, it's all because of that jerk Yamashita! Just go away, you bastard!
Despite the inappropriate and indecent thing Hayakawa did to Konno in the second chapter, I still like this. This manga really exceeded my expectations.
Even though I didn't cry when I read that line, it still broke my heart. So, they never kept in touch for the rest of high school? Yeah, I know, maybe it's for the best for both of them.
My friend picked this manga for me because I wanted to read a high school romance and needed something sweet. I thought it was the right choice. But my hopes were dashed by the third chapter! Hayakawa's past really made me sad... oh, it's all because of that jerk Yamashita! Just go away, you bastard!
Despite the inappropriate and indecent thing Hayakawa did to Konno in the second chapter, I still like this. This manga really exceeded my expectations.
December 27, 2023
Really great first start! I wasn’t sure what type of yaoi this would be, but it definitely surprised me in the best way! The first book provides context and flashbacks to explain the main character in order to show us why the character is the way they are - which was so good to see. I feel connected to the lead, especially because their feelings are such a common thing we all face in society at some point in our lives, as well as the people around him! The book and characters, their experiences are all thought out and you can understand all of their perspectives. I’m really looking forward to future volumes and how our leads grow together!
January 12, 2022
Art style: beautiful
Storyline: beautiful
the characters: relatable
The story really delves into the depth of talents and emotions and everything in between. The battle of emotional stability is well-described. I can say I'm pretty relatable to Hayakawa, not on the raw talent part, but the fact I have to change things just to fit it and avoid traumas. However, our own actions must not be the reason of other's trauma. I didn't like how he *sa konno but he immediately regretted so that's a good thing. I'm actually excited how the second volume goes
Storyline: beautiful
the characters: relatable
The story really delves into the depth of talents and emotions and everything in between. The battle of emotional stability is well-described. I can say I'm pretty relatable to Hayakawa, not on the raw talent part, but the fact I have to change things just to fit it and avoid traumas. However, our own actions must not be the reason of other's trauma. I didn't like how he *sa konno but he immediately regretted so that's a good thing. I'm actually excited how the second volume goes
November 20, 2023
So this was not my normal manga. Did I hate it? Not at all. It was beautiful, but not exactly “slice of life” as it says on the back. I don’t really even know what to call it.
I will say that it felt like two different books mashed into one. There is the “easy with sex”, finding himself, sleeping with teachers and faking his way through life Hayakawa and the lost music virtuoso who only wants to make friends Hayakawa. I feel like their stories should be separate. 🤷🏻♂️
Also, there was a DubCon moment that I wasn’t expecting at all. So there’s that.
I will say that it felt like two different books mashed into one. There is the “easy with sex”, finding himself, sleeping with teachers and faking his way through life Hayakawa and the lost music virtuoso who only wants to make friends Hayakawa. I feel like their stories should be separate. 🤷🏻♂️
Also, there was a DubCon moment that I wasn’t expecting at all. So there’s that.
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