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243 pages, Paperback
First published February 23, 2015
Hot! Intriguing! Suspenseful! Sensual! Erotic! Engaging! This character-driven book is full of everything! I loved every page of this book, and what made me fall in love was C. Roop’s fantastic writing, which led me to form bonds and fall in love right along with Nicola and Andris.
Nicola is a beautiful young woman who has Alexithymia. This is a dysfunction in emotional awareness, social attachment and interpersonal relating. It means that she isn’t able to identify or describe most of the feelings that people experience, such as emotional pain, remorse, love. She cannot process most of emotions, like anger, sadness or caring, and what can only treat her condition is a trigger, something that will “shock her and set off a chain reaction within her. “ Dr. Robert Gunn is the psychiatrist who diagnosed this personality trait when she was five and has tried to help her since then.
After the loss of her parents in a plane crash when she was still very young (14 years old) and fragile, a dramatic event in her life which even that could not trigger some sort of reaction out of her, not even crying, she was left completely alone. She was removed from her expensive school, since she had not the financial means to cover the tuition fees, she was left all alone and poor, as there were no relatives or friends to support her and help her and she stopped attending her sessions with her doctor. Eventually, she became an escort because the only thing that seemed to mend her damaged soul somehow was pleasure via sexual intercourse. She visited again her therapist in the span of nearly 24 years, when by the end of this 24th year, she finally finds what her trigger is!
Dr. Andris S. Gunn is the psychiatrist to whom ‘Gunn and Associates’ clinic will soon be signed over after his uncle’s (Robert Gunn) retirement. He is the one who takes over Nicola’s treatment and is responsible for her mental healing. He is a young, sexy as hell, caring, and ethical doctor who has to face Cardinelli family’s illegal involvement in the clinic and is determined to get away from.
Nicola finally finds her trigger on her kinky client, Link, who keeps his identity in secrecy by blindfolding her and leading her to sexual pleasures with the verbal guidance of a mysterious, handsome man. Link offers Nicola a huge amount of money for her exclusive services for the following 12 weeks, and she accepts. When she firstly meets her new therapist, Andris, one week before he takes over the clinic, she recognizes on Andris the mysterious man who has been leading her to ecstasy without even touching her!! Nicola starts experiencing feelings for the first time, such as caring, fear, jealousy, anger, love, both for Andris and Link, and she tries to discover this new reality with Andris’ help both as Link’s assistant and as her therapist.
The climax of this erotic thriller is reached when masks fall, Link reveals his true identity, Andris expresses his love to Nicola under the shadow of the 12-week contract, while Cardinelli family is threatening Andris’ morality as a psychiatrist and the standing and integrity of the clinic.
I miei anni da escort, battona, prostituta, comunque vogliate chiamarlo, erano stati un buon allenamento per diventare un'attrice. Quando era con me, potevo far sentire ogni uomo come fosse il dio delle arti del sesso.
C'era qualcosa di primordiale riguardo alla connessione tra me e lui. Non sapevo se fosse una cosa naturale, o se il mio cuore, la mia mente e il mio corpo fossero completamente investiti su di lui.
La gelosia per poco non mi consumò. Volevo essere la sua prudenza e volevo che lui fosse il suo ripensamento. Volevo rimpiazzare me stesso nella sua immaginazione e possedere il suo desiderio.
“Have you ever wanted something so bad that you felt almost desperate to have it? Imagine one of those things you want was your own feelings. Your own emotions, but no matter how hard you try, you can’t turn them on. You can’t cause a stir within yourself to flip the switch that turns everything on. You get to watch others around you feel love, passion, excitement, and even pain, yet all you feel is nothing”[3.50 - 4]
"What is the one thing I do experience? Pleasure. Having sex is the only time that my mind and my body get to truly… feel. I guess you could say that is the reason behind my chosen profession. Having sex with men gives me a sense of tipping the hat as normalcy. Having someone buried deep within the walls of me is the only occurrence in wich I don't feel like a stagnant, vacant person."Toda su vida cambia cuando entran en escena Link, Sinclaire y Andris. Las emociones que Nicola comienza a experimentar la dejan confundida. Por primera vez puede sentir e identificar de forma más clara las emociones.
"For the first time in my life, I was feeling feelings. I was experiencing normal emotions that I had never felt before until this point and it was all due to two different men."Void tiene sus aciertos y desaciertos. Creo que de forma general cumplió su misión. Me entretuvo. Mi gran "pero" fue que sentí que la autora desperdicio una gran oportunidad. Tenía en sus manos a una gran protagonista a la que le pudo sacar mucho más. Sentí que no desarrollo de forma acertada el desorden que padece Nicola. Me hizo falta esa profundidad tan necesaria en este tipo de historias. Otro desacierto fueron los capítulos finales del libro. La intensidad en la historia comenzó a disminuir y no me gusto como se supo la verdadera identidad de Link.