Ethan Bryant's world has been turned upside down by the loss of his submissives. Alone and desperate, his life spins dangerously out of control.
Will a return to Chicago give him the closure he so desperately seeks? What happens when a childhood friend comes back into Ethan's life, vying for his love. Will Ethan find what he is looking for, or will Jayden's jealousy tear them all apart and make everything come crashing down?
"I crushed him to me and was hit with a feeling so incredibly strong that, for a moment, I couldn't breathe. There were aspects of it that I recognized easily - attraction, lust, but there were subtler aspects as well and they weren't as readily identifiable - companionship, longing and comfort. The only way I could describe that undercurrent of emotion, strangely, was ... home." - Master Ethan Bryant
An award-winning, best-selling novelist of over a dozen books, J. P. Barnaby is a proud member of the GLBT community both online and in her small town on the outskirts of Chicago. A member of Mensa, she is often described as brilliant but troubled, sweet but introverted and talented but deviant. She spends her days writing software and her nights writing erotica which is, of course, far more interesting. The spare time that she carves out between her career and her novels is spent reading about the concept of love, which, like some of her characters, she has never quite figured out for herself.
Good Lord have mercy. Why is there so much death in these people's lives? I wanna know. I have never read about so many senseless deaths. This one did have me shed a few tears. Unrequited love is one of my favourite story lines and yet it is generally done so poorly. In this one, it was done in so many variations I could barely breathe through the pain. A mother's love is not returned. A father's love is misunderstood. A woman's love of her master and partner is not returned. A man's love and devotion is not returned. Good God Almighty. At this point, just slit my wrists. This book focuses on people's wants and desires which sometimes is met and sometimes not. While it is true growth for Ethan, some of his actions do have negative consequences. I felt so sorry for Gabriel. I wish there was another story to this series and may to read about Gabriel. He's such a sweet sweet boy.
Of course the two I really wanted to be together are finally together. But at what cost? The collateral damage seems to be quite intense. This book shows us how people aren't perfect. Doms are not infallible. Mistakes are made and best to be discussed and forgiven, especially if it is with people you love. If there is one thing this book says, it's "you never know if you are going to be dead tomorrow. Seize the day!"
The BDSM aspect of this story was less than the previous but still just as good. It's nice to show how there can be bad scenes and how to recover. Just as how there are some people who truly aren't good people can also play in the BDSM scene. It's best to know who you are playing with. This contemporary BDSM romance story is just so lovely. It's filled with the realities of life and decisions we make which impact others. I recommend it to those who enjoy BDSM and also like m/m angst.
House of Cards is the second novel in a series. Please read the Forbidden Room before before reading this. I will try hard not to give it all away.
In The Forbidden Room, we are told the story from Jayden's point of view. Jayden who is confused about feelings he has for Ethan and most importantly questions over his own sexuality. He doesn't know if Ethan has the ability to love or feel the same. It's all about being about a Dom for Ethan isn't it? So Jayden makes the only decision he feels that he can. And that made me so very angry with him.
House of cards is written from Ethan's point of view. And who better to deconstruct Ethan, than Ethan. This in itself is incredible! He is so lost and broken. Devastated by the loss of his subs and on a harrowing path of self destruction, when Lexi and Jayden come to rescue him.
Ethan returns with Lexi and Jayden to the place where it all began to find himself again. In order to do this he decides to purge his feelings and write. He writes about the trauma of his early years. His relationship with Jayden and Lexi and discovers the real truth about himself. It is a heart breaking discovery full of drama and shocking revelations. Love, life and jealousy. To know Ethan that way is to love him completely. You can't help it.
This is not as erotically charged as the forbidden room. But it didn't need to be. The roles have been reversed here and even though that did not sit well with me. I understood the need for it. I understood Ethan's needs.
This is a must read after reading The Forbidden Room. These characters have consumed me totally. I have loved every minute of these books. I cannot recommend this series enough.
this story was very powerful to me. This story gave me the validation i needed, and the most amazing characters I have read. Ethan is the most tortured soul I have met, and I loved every minute of his story. Ethan, Jayden, and Lexi are strong characters that grab you and hold onto you and suck you in deep. Ethan is such a strong guy, and as we watch his story unfold we see the depths of his demons and you can't help but realize how strong he is and be proud of how far he has come. Jayden is his Angel the rock of the group, he struggles to come to terms with himself, but he is always there for Ethan and provides him with the support he needs and requires to come back from the edge. Lexi is the mother hen. She sees to deep at times, and makes the guys face things they would rather shy away from.
The secondary supporting characters were essential too. Ethans wonderful parents just waiting and being there for him and accepting him no matter what. Gabriel who gambled on love, and gave comfort. Kimberly, Connor, Stephen, Nicole all played essential roles and this story wouldn't have been the same without them.
Ethan's story is not easy to read, but it is so worth every moment.
The final book in this series, and so much better in my opinion. Learning about Ethan, and being in his head was exactly what I needed to finally fall for the characters in this series. J P Barnaby excels at writing troubled and traumatized characters, and how Ethan's character was explained in this book was no exception.
I have had trouble with Jayden throughout this series, but by the end of this I had come to accept his character more, so I was very pleased with the ending.
Lexxie was very important to this story, and I love how caring and loving she is. I can understand why Ethan is so dependent on her friendship.
I enjoyed seeing Ethen reconnecting with his mother, and found those scenes both hopeful and loving.
Gabriel, a new character, who was a childhood friends of Ethan was someone I instantly felt for. I was a little disappointed with how things worked out for him, but that is life.
Overall, after finishing all three story's, these books have been very enjoyable.
Ethan's life as he knew it is over. After the abuse Ethan underwent when he was kidnapped at eight years ago, he rebuilt his life by maintaining the control he learned as a BSDM dominant. Ethan never became emotionally invested until he took Lexi then Jayden as his submissives. When Lexi left Ethan felt the whole in his life, but Jayden's leaving broke him. Ethan withdrew from the world until he went to another dominant to give him the pain he needed to deal with his emotional distress. When his friend Nicole arrived with Lexi and Jayden, they found Ethan horribly battered and talked him into returning with them until he is able to take care of himself. Ethan finds himself proud of their established BSDM couple something he is proud of, but he feels left out too. Ethan begins a journal to explore his past and try to uncover the truth in his feelings. Will Ethan's unveiling his past enable him to look for a brighter future?
Ms. Barnaby has continued her The Forbidden Room series with this incredible story about one man's search within himself to overcome his terrible past. Ethan's childhood horrors were enough to destroy most people until he found the control he needed in the BSDM world. Unfortunately, this just helped him hide from and not deal with his past. Jayden and Lexi showed Ethan what a true close relationship was. Ethan's struggle and agony were horrible to watch, but his fight to overcome them was inspirational. Lexi and Jayden's love, acceptance, and caring were beautiful to behold. I loved watching as the story unfolded the love between the characters and how they allowed each other the space they needed waiting until the other needed them. Thanks go to Ms. Barnaby for an incredible story.
Intense, emotional and more than good enough for a few moment of hyperventilating.
I enjoyed this sequel to the first book. Ethan turns out to be far more complicated and worthy than the first book portrays. His journey is more arduous both physically and emotionally than Jayden's was in The Forbidden Room. That was a young man's journey, this one belongs to a tormented one.
There are some wild swings in the emotions and how Jayden, Lexi and Ethan find resolution is not without a lot of pain. This story is for those who like to rip their hearts out, toss 'em in a sandbox, and then shove it back in. Definitely worth rereading.
I started reading this book at 10:00 last night and finished it at 4:00 this morning. It wouldn't let me go. I just had to see how it ended. I loved this book but I'm really hoping that a sequel is planned because it didn't feel finished to me. There is more healing that needs to happen.
I enjoyed this second book far more than the first. Ethan begins writing a journal to try and overcome his troubled past.
'I was the boy on the milk carton. I was the tortured soul. I was the doctor. I was the Master. I am Ethan Richard Hughes Bryant. Now I am all of them.'
As with the first book in the series, I never wrote a review for this the first time around and had that overwhelming urge to re-read it. And again, I was amazed at how many of the small details I didn’t recall at all from my first go around – like the whole big reason for Ethan’s issues that stemmed from a horrific childhood trauma. I also didn’t remember exactly how conflicted both Ethan and Jayden were over the lines that had been put down and were not meant to be crossed in their relationship. They both kept trying to compartmentalize things and were afraid of labels vs. opening up with each other. Yikes, lots of conflict, but loved it every bit as much as the first reading!
Well, I have to admit that I liked the Forbidden Room a lot, but I did love A House Of Cards more. My first reaction upon ending the book yesterday was staring at my screen and going 'wow...'.
I do get emotionally invested with characters in what ever I'm reading, but to really get me sucked in to a story, you need to have good, solid characters with proper causation for who and what the are AND character growth. That's never a given, no matter how good a story is.
One of the things I loved about this book, was that I it didn't go into the details of the abuse Ethan suffered as a child. Sure there were hints and I know many readers would probably have wanted to read more (in the same way people stop and stare at car wrecks...), but it wasn't needed. Even with the gruesome details you can feel Ethan's confusion, see how his past reflects in his present day relationships as he tries to find 'the boy in the box' again.
I know he did a shitty thing to Gabriel in the end, but in my opinion his mother was right. Especially when you are someone like Ethan, you need to risk things. It takes a lot more from a once broken person to be happy again than it takes from from your average person. In that light I am going to forgive Ethan, even if Gabriel probably never could.
Also, I hoped for the outcome that we got at the end of the book, but for me personally it wasn't something obvious. There was still the kind of uncertainty in it that keeps you hoping but that you just can't count on. That, for me as a person who has read a LOT is an excellent thing and a lovely surprise.
The writing is smooth, it flows and Ethan has his own voice. In The Forbidden Room we got to see things from Jayden's point of view and it was refreshing to have a proper peek into Ethan's mind as well. The differences in how they saw some of the things that happened and were covered in both books were interesting and only clarified how different, yet similar, the characters are.
There were some things I'd still like to see, like how did Gabriel cope. How about what happens to Connor? Those things, however, would take another book to tell and right now I'm quite happy for Ethan and Jayden's happily ever after.
I definitely recommend this to anyone who likes to read well-built characters, likes some drama and angst and doesn't mind or likes the BDSM-aspect (which, in a way, in this book was lesser than in the Forbidden Room). Oh, a word of warning: You might not be able to stop reading once you begin. Make sure you have time before you begin to read it. ;)
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Normally, I shy away from BDSM books in which the main character(s) have any sort of psychological issues. It seems almost trendy that some authors toss that in as a means of eliciting sympathy or to make sense to vanilla readers as to why anyone would get off on flogging someone or being flogged. In the case of A House of Cards: Deconstructing Ethan, it's less about wallowing in self-pity and more about how Ethan, a victim of a horrific childhood kidnapping and sexual assualt, begins to reclaim his life from the monster who stole it.
The story is told through Ethan's eyes as well as entries in his journal as he slowly emerges from shellshocked and numb to finding himself. He moves to Seattle to start over as another man, only to return to Chicago where he begins to put the pieces of his shattered life back together. Along the way he reconnects with his parents, takes a chance on love only to discover the man he really wants has been right in front of him all the time. The journey is not an easy one, and there are missteps, roadblocks and tragedy that get in the way. Add to this the BDSM milieu and Deconstructing Ethan is a gripping and emotional read. What I enjoyed the most is that Ethan is a switch, as are his two subs--Jayden and Lexi. Once again, here is a Dom who doesn't know everything, second-guesses what he does know, and yet seems pretty fluid in his shifting roles.
Deconstructing Ethan is definitely erotic, but even if there'd been not one sex scene, it would have still been a compelling and emotional read. Now that's saying something.
The story was hard to get through, but Ethan's journey to acceptance and happiness was beautiful. You get to really get to know Ethan inside and out. All his inner musings, his thoughts, everything was full of emotion and you couldn't help but feel for him.
"I crushed him to me and was hit with a feeling so incredibly strong that, for a moment, I couldn't breathe. There were aspects of it that I recognized easily - attraction, lust, but there were subtler aspects as well and they weren't as readily identifiable - companionship, longing and comfort. The only way I could describe that undercurrent of emotion, strangely, was ... home." - Master Ethan Bryant
Now Jayden...still think he's a selfish bastard, but if he makes Ethan happy...oh well, I'll go with that, but I don't have to like it. Personally I liked Gabriel better. He was good for Ethan and showed him from the beginning that he had Ethan's best interests in mind. Of course, Ethan wasn't a saint and he didn't treat Gabriel right, but it could be forgiven given his confusion and struggles.
Anyway, it had all the elements I love in a story. The emotions, great characters and the happily ever after. However, I still don't like Jayden, so THAT is still why I don't give the book the 5 stars it deserves. I thought he would redeem himself in my eyes, but actually I just could not connect with him.
The first book ended with Ethan all alone, having realised that he'd waited to late to utter those words of love. Words of love that unfortunately, were taken as a casul utterance and not the heartfelt enormous revelation they were. Ethan is a mess, his carefully constructed life of no truly deep ties to his heart crashng down. How Jaden and Lexi handle the situation when it comes to their attention only adds to the tension..they mean well, but Ethan is too busy trying to move on and erect new barriers around his heart to seal them out . The journey to true love isn't easy, and it definitely is not what Jaden, Lexi and Ethan ever envisioned, but Fate has a way of stacking the deck...Emotionally satisfying, I quite liked how this volume was told from Ethan's POV (first vol is from Jaden's) and how it resolved some things that left me questioning at the end of vol.1. Recommended.
Just got notice I won this on First Reads! My first win ever! May try to find the first book in the series so I can get caught up.
Finally had an opportunity to sit down and finish this book. I was very impressed with the character development of Ethan. He went from an aloof, mysterious dom in the first book, to a very complex person in the second.
I thought having the honeymoon in Greece was a little over-the-top as far as gay cliches go, but I was satisfied with the way the story ended.
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This sequel was very different than the first book. There weren't as many "scenes" as the first book and the ones there were were either flashbacks or much more emotionally charged. This book was mostly about Ethan and him coming out of his self imposed box.
I really liked the first book despite sometimes feeling like I needed diagrams to go with the scenes. But this book was a lot deeper emotionally and at some times quite tragic. I'm not quite sure what else to say without giving things away, except that there is a happy ending but one I didn't quite see coming.
I was disappointed after reading The Forbidden Room as the story felt unfinished. I had no idea that there was a follow up until I picked this book.
I loved this book. It was difficult to read at times the story so jammed packed with angst and hurt it was difficult to breathe. It was a long journey for two people to find each other when they were already so close.
Like The Forbidden Room the ending was again bittersweet but it felt finished. It left me teary eyed with relief for Jayden and Ethan but sad - in more ways than one for Lexi.
I started this book immediately after reading "The forbidden room" and this is the way that they should be read. Please read the books in order as only then will you get the full experience. This book is written from Ethan's point of view and through his writing of his diary we understand what makes him the man that he is. His diary entries are intertwined with the present day and this really makes the story interesting. I read the book in one sitting as I did not want to put it down and I highly recommend it.
I can't put into words the emotion I feel for this book. I feel such a connection to Ethan. Well it is more emotional connection since I am not a guy or gay. All his feelings I have felt. The self hate, denial, regret, what if's and confusion about what was done to us as children. I still am not sure if I really know what love is or if I can feel it. Besides for my kids and sister I don't think I am able. Ethans struggles give me hope. He was an amazing complex character that I will not soon forget.
Wow. I am on an emotional overload. I have to process a bit before I can thoroughly review. I can only simply say that this was an honest, gut-wrenching, and some how still sexy read that forces you to look deeper into or to explore your own sexual depravities (or lack there of I would assume.)
I won this book on a Goodreads' giveaway contest to try out a new author and gene and am glad I won it. The story is a nice read and flows very well. The characters are likeable and the bdsm scenes are done very well.
I read both books in this series in two days. Wow, could not put them down! First time reading MM without much female interaction. This author did not disappoint, the characters and emotions in this book are so well written. This is definitely a keeper to be reread!
3.5 stars I really loved these characters in the first book and was mostly frustrated with them in this one. It still had some great moments, but I didn't love it like I did the first one in the series.
I'm not going to spoil this for anyone else by giving away the plot. I will say that every misgiving I had in book one was solved in book two. The reader was given Ethan's POV and got to see Ethan become emotionally invested in his friend's lives. I wish it didn't have to end!
I liked this book but I felt like Ethan was a different character than I remembered in the first book. It has been a while since I read it but he just seemed like a completely different person.