When Dr. Daniel Ugarte arrives from Spain to work on the Apache reservation, he meets Jeff Redbear, a Native American social worker, and Sean McCallum, the local sheriff. The men come from three different worlds, and they have little to no common ground until an immediate, unexpected attraction sparks between them.
Facing the growing desire is just the beginning of the obstacles they will face. Daniel's past makes him blind to Jeff and Sean’s feelings for him and terrified of standing in the way of their love for each other. Sean has to fight his present worry of not being strong enough to protect the men he loves. Jeff’s pride and fear of future rejection make him push Sean and Daniel away before they get too close to his heart.
But the strength of the love that blooms between them is the worst of their fears, because it will take as much courage to run from it and go on living empty, meaningless lives as it will to fight for the happiness they might never reach together.
H.J. Brues lives in Spain, enjoying the hot weather, the brisk language, the warm-hearted people, and the thousands of books of the library she works in. She has a degree in medieval history and loves castles, knights in shining armor, and barbarian warriors with no armor at all. She practiced fencing till her knees started complaining, took archery till her elbow almost fell off, and then, wisely, switched to the less martial of the martial arts, tai chi.
Just when I thought I had a handle on the story-line, it took a new twist. I really liked the way this story gripped me from the first scene and kept me turning pages. There were times when I wanted to smack the characters for their choices, but that was all part of their growth and learning process. Excellent book! I look forward to more by this author.
There were times that this book was so sweet my heart wanted to fly from my chest. There were other times that same attempted sweetness became so saccharine I almost couldn't be brought to keep reading. This book was really hit and miss for me. Some aspects of it I loved—how determinedly loving Sean was, for example. However, even more aspects of it either forced eye rolls or flat out exasperated huffs from me—how Daniel was nothing more than a china doll for Sean and Jeff to love between them, for example. (Let me just pause and rant on this a moment. I'll try to be vague so there won't be spoilers, but I'll be discussing an event or two. So read with caution.)
I have two complaints about Sean and Jeff's love of Daniel, and neither of them has anything to do with them forming a trio. My first is the assumed knowledge that passes between S & J and apparently that the reader is supposed to share. Without exception, Jeff is hostile toward Daniel from the moment he arrives. He apparently makes some sort of peace with Sean, evidenced only by the fact that it's noted that he can call him by his first name. So already, the three men are not friends and there are no subtle hints that they might become friends.
Due to circumstances, J admits to S that he is attracted to D (kind of). Then suddenly (and I mean SUDDENLY, with no forewarning) S & J fall on one another in a fit of passion. Yes, two men who have not even been friends, one of whom just admitted his attraction to a third (and not the first) pounce on one another in a hallway. What? Why? What psychic communication did I miss that would make this make sense?
Afterwards, the two are A) instantly a couple and falling in love, even though they've barely spoken up to this point (stunning example of sex equals love, that) B) somehow both aware that the other loves D, even though it hasn't even been hinted out that S likes him as anything but a friend up to that point (Guess I'm just supposed to presume two men in an mm novel can't be friends so the lust is assumed, even if not shown.)
Additionally, when D leaves the reservation, S & J go about planning to get him back, despite the fact that as far as D knows nothing in J's attitude has changed. Seriously, just because S knows how J really feels doesn't mean D has any way of knowing and there are no pleasant interactions to counter the previously evidenced attitude. So again, psychic communications?
And lastly, it's quite explicitly stated that S & J never talk about 'this thing between them' but they are falling hard and heavy for one another and are open and determined to add D as their third. You'd think this would require a conversation or two. Yeah? How do they each know that the other is open to such an unusual relationship? There is a lot of presumed knowledge flying around and I disliked it. A lot.
Secondly (after all that), the whole book is about S & J trying to convince D to become their third, without asking him and scaring him away. I can run with that, it makes sense. However, at no point is D anything but an acquisition. His feelings change in accordance with the growth of S & J's feelings for each other and their determination to possess him, but at no point is there any reason they should. From what must be D's position, the two men are never anything but friendly to him (and J not even that). So there is no reason that he, a straight man, should be falling in love and lust with them. His feelings constantly change to conveniently fit where the story is going, but IT MAKES NO SENSE. He is never seduced, invited, or even talked to about it until after he too is in love. What?
Even worse, once they have him the obvious power dynamics of the group irked me. He was not an equal participant. He was their 'little cub' or 'pretty prince' he was something to be taken care of or responsible for, like a child. This was also reinforced by the roles played in bed (and there was no indication this would be fluid). If it wouldn't be insulting to everyone involved to say he was obviously the woman in the scenario I probably would. He was a damsel in distress, who had to be protected from himself. It made him seem fragile. Then he is...let's call it made love to by S & J, instead of makes love with S & J.
Additionally, and this is a general complaint but it's especially relevant in relation to the romance. Large important chunks of time pass unrevealed. For example, D arrives and despite being attracted to him, J is rude to him. Then it's suddenly weeks later and D is out running. The whole settling in, getting to know each-other, etc is completely skipped. At this point, S sees a strange man and decides he wants to meet him. Then it's weeks later and the two of them are BFFs who are out running together. We never get to see them meet or get to know one another. Then, after D left the reservation the first time, weeks pass in which S & J's relationship is progressing but we see none of it.
These are IMPORTANT events. These are events I want, need to see to understand the relationship between the characters. Lacking them everything felt rushed and UNBELIEVABLE. Really, that's the crux of my problem, S & J's relationship makes sense and even wanting D makes sense. But nothing about D's actions, feelings, thoughts, etc are realistic and anytime there is an opportunity to delve into his motives or change of heart, it's skipped over.
The writing too was hit or miss. For 99% of the time it was wonderful. But the author had this horrible habit of using oddly outdated phrases on occasion—'lest we do..." or "they waited upon" or "for it had been," "for it was," "for they thought." These anachronistic words stood out like neon signs. The 'for' seemed to be especially prevalent and once I took note of it I was jarred by every subsequent one. I found it really disruptive. There were also times that it was difficult to keep track of who was who and/or who was speaking at any given point.
But like I said in the beginning, some parts of this book really are sweet. Seeing S & J's love for each-other and how desperately they wanted D (I refuse to acknowledge his love as it was so unbelievable) was heartwarming. They way the men are able to understand and heal one another was nice. The dialogue was mostly pretty smooth. There are a lot of things to like about this book. Unfortunately, FOR ME, there was also a lot to dislike.
It's a well - written story. The characters are depicted in a sympathetic way, each with his flaws and stregths. They have pretty distinctive voices, too. The story is told from the alternating POV's of all three men, thus the reader learns each of them though the eyes of the others as well as through their internal thoughts and fights. All three men are really heavily conflicted. Daniel endured a horrible childhood with abuse of the meanest kind. Jeff was abandoned by his mother in a very young age and was raised by an uncle who was an outcast himself. Irish - catholic Sean is a gay cop with too much empathy for his own good. But here lies the first rub: It would have done the story good to repeat/ ponder on the past aches of the men a little less often. There is a lot of angst involved, mostly in Jeff's case; I had a hard time to believe that an Apache, raised by the tribe's shaman, could behave that way. My second rub were the many different genres and themes mixed up within that story. Daniel thinks himself straight. He had a long - time relationship with a woman and is actually recuperating from their split - up. But one night of love with Jeff and Sean, and - whoosh - he's gay, just like that and no more doubts about it. Jeff's and Sean's relationship, on the other hand, starts when they realize they share an attraction to Daniel that borders on obsession. They are depicted as being each - other's stress - relief f*** buddys, their encounters pure animal need and nothing else. But then again, Jeff thinks of Sean a gentle and caring. It is not entirely comprehensible what they need Daniel for except that both seem to be crazy for him. And it's even less comprehensible what Daniel needs THEM for. Later in the book, there is a little bondage, a smidgen of Master/ Boy action and finally, they suddenly switch into Bear/ Cub - mode. In my opinion the author did mean too well and tried too hard. Thus the book appears overconscientious. Nevertheless, it's a fine read with memorable characters and a heartwarming, if a little redundant story. Recommended for everybody who doesn't mind angst and a lot of introspection.
Hmmh, I was very frustrated when I first read this book.
Two most annoying things were: 1. the time jumping, it does that a lot and you never know when something is happening. I mean it literally skips MONTHS without telling anything about those months after the jumps. The best you get are a few random sentences that mean nothing to the plot.
2. the details. It seems that the author doesn't care about details that much or something. There's a scene when two guys leave the third in the bedroom, go to the other room and jump each others' bones. You get the impression that one of them is naked and the other has jeans around his knees or something, by the time the third wakes up in a nightmare. They jump up from the floor but when they get to the room, they're miraculously dressed again.
And that was just one example. There are plenty.
Then there are some things the author keeps repeating over and over again. Like Jeff and Sean having these very intense, almost violent encounters. It's pointed out, how exactly rough they get, too many times.
Another thing I disliked VERY much was the three guys laughing their assess off and being all mellow and tired right after the laughing fits. This happens about five times in the book. Trust me, not funny, pun intended.
Good things?
There are some smoking hot sex scenes. I also liked Jeff's family and the native-culture stuff sneaked into the story. The guys are all different, which I liked too.
This book actually has a few sex scenes I really really think were extraordinary, from my point of view at least.
Other than that...I was disappointed.
Oh and one other thing, even if Daniel thinks Freud is the man (D thinks all men are bisexual, even if he's considered himself straight before), the whole being okay and falling in love/lust with two men happens too fast, even with the fucking insane time jumps.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
This one had some good moments, and I mostly liked the characters and minor delving into their various cultures. I wasn't crazy about the way that Daniel was portrayed in his relationship with the other two, especially at the end as they finally came together, being too much like a victorian damsel. The endearments at the end really spoiled it for me too - a little of that goes a long way, and it was layered on thickly. Great idea, unevenly realized.
I DNF’d. I could only roll my eyes and grimace so many times, then resolve to press forward. The premise of the story is great. The characters were sweet and had a lot to work through (except Sean?). This book could have been great & other reviewers have pointed out ways in which the time jumping & dialogue could have been better.
The handling of Jeff, specifically in his identity as an indigenous person, was terrible.
As they are reconciling on the phone Jeff says “god knows he has the right to call me anything from filthy Injun to chicken shit.” This level of self deprecation from a native person characterized as proud of and embedded in his culture is 1) not believable 2) incredibly irresponsible considering the history of white genocide and continued aggression toward native peoples to the U.S. 3) telling of the poor understanding the author has of native peoples and the importance of rendering them respectfully and responsibly- especially since the author is not themself native.
This was just one quote. There were many wtf moments along this line. Describing Jeff as “the Apache” all the time is weird. This is not a historical novel - respectful people and intimate lovers don’t say this in (checks when book was published) 2009. The emphasis on naming skin color during intimate moments was weird. There is this attempted juxtaposition of white vs native. There are of course tensions due to this history in the U.S. but the author handles it poorly.
Incredibly disappointing aspect to the book that regularly took me out of the story and left a bad taste in my mouth.
I have mixed feelings about this book. On one hand, it kept me completely captivated and interested. But on the other hand, the entire time I was reading this I couldn't;t help but think "I can't believe this" and "Seriously? How on earth is that realistic?".
Also, I have to be honest, Jeff and Sean aren't NEARLY good enough for Daniel.
It took me a minute to get into this plot. Some of the scenes are a little much especially the abuse scenes. I know that they were crucial to one of the characters development. It still took me by surprise and make me a little queasy. Otherwise I did enjoy it. I do think that some of the characters of flawed and the development but that kind of makes them more believable. I caution you, if you don’t like the trope of miscommunication then you’re not gonna like this!
Prideful social worker, Jeff, dominant Sheriff, Sean and wounded doctor, Daniel come together in this book as colleagues of sorts at first. Distrust, shame, pride, family, past abuse, fear, illness, injury, assumption and poor communication skills all come between the men at various times. As job necessity pulls everyone closer explosive sexual needs begin to grow between them as well.
Sean and Jeff, both strong men with little to no tenderness in their passion crave Daniel’s softness as the balance to their off balance needs. They struggle upstream to find and carve a place for themselves in the isolated world of Jeff’s reservation. In order to find their center, Jeff and Daniel must overcome personal demons and allow vulnerability to bind them together. Sean must make a safe haven where they can do that.
The men are all interesting but flawed. In some cases the flaws seemed to overwhelm other positive characteristics. I struggled to really like Jeff. He comes off as racist and bigoted too often ~ it wasn’t unbelievable or out of character, in fact it was his character. Where as Sean seemed to be very self assured he also made arrogant assumptions that made things worse too often. Except for the explosive passion between him and Jeff, I wasn’t sure what the two had in common except their mutual attraction to Daniel at first. Once Sean masters Jeff, and he accepts that from Sean, that relationship clicks much more smoothly. Daniel, probably the most well traveled and well educated of the group was forced into a role of naivete and obtuseness that seemed out of character at times. I liked his vulnerability, it was a necessary counterpoint to the other two but at times they treated him like a child and that clashed with the type of man Daniel is.
This book is told from all three POVs and at times I had a lot of problems trying to determine who was who, who was speaking and who was thinking as I maneuvered through each paragraph and scene. The descriptive sex scenes were few and far between but they were well executed and steamy. Unfortunately I had to stop so many times to backtrack and try and get my bearings that it really made buying into the relationship a struggle.
To my ratings (thanks to amazon I had to change it again and 'upgrade' it a little bit.):
5* - very very good and rare (it would be a Blow- Away-book like 'Liberty' from Seth King, 'Save the at he kids' series from EM Leya or 'Jesse's Smile' from Angelique Jurd), it's like an A+
4* - very good and will be often reread and is a WOW-book with interesting plot and surprises (like most of Andrew Grey books) it's like an A
3,5* - a really good book, which will be reread a few times a year (most romances where you can enjoy for relaxing and during waiting times in hospitals). I can recommend them definitively! It's like an B+
3* - it could be more then a one-time-reader, maybe 2-3 times a year. It’s like a B
2* - it was ok to read, but it's more a one-time- reader (i wouldn't recommend it heartily, but it was ok). It's like a C-, D
1* - sorry, but that isn't really a book for me (too many mistakes, not nice plot, illogical, so an absolut NO-GO). It's like failure in the whole line, dismissed, repeat the class
Half decent story poorly realised. I wondered at times if the "jumps" in the story indicated where the author had finished one day to be started again another day but in a completely different time/part of the story. Confusing as heck to be honest at times but I persevered as I have a penchant for anything Native American Indian. Parts of the story were well told and touching in a way, others were so sickly sweet and overdone you thought maybe someone else had written it. Some parts seemed to be glossed over while others were so verbose as to make it boring and verging on unintelligible. Perhaps a better editor would help to point the problems out to the author prior to publication? However the story itself (picking it out from the myriad of problems) was quite good therefore giving it 2 stars.
Loved Yakuza Pride by this author but Warriors and Healers might as well have been written by two different people they are so different in their writing style.
I had a hard time getting into this one, the write was really chunky and there wasn't a lot of dialogue or movement to break it up just a lot of self loathing, pity, internal struggles etc.
The time line was also off. Each chapter jumps ahead by weeks of months sometimes and it takes a little while to realize that.
Anyway, give it a go if you like this authors other works, it might appeal to you more then it did me.
Perhaps 3.5. Characterizations are good, but I would have liked to see Daniel deal with his issues and Jeff resolve his family conflict. Maybe Brues has a sequel in the works. The relationship driven plot is complex, but other plot elements are simplistic. Still, an enjoyable read. Also, with my history of severe migraines, i found Daniels suffering to be authentic and added interest that operated as a convenient plot vehicle.
I loved this. The characters were heart-warming and I really wanted them to get together and to be happy! It did get a bit hammy in parts, but I kind of enjoyed that as a guilty pleasure. It was a bit of a roller-coaster with the up and downs, and I wanted to smack them sometimes, but there's a lovely ending :)
Mhm also der Grundplot war gut. Die Helden waren ein wenig speziell und auch wenn die Chemie unübersehbar war, fand ich das Buch teilweise sehr anstrengend zu lesen. Drama Baby, Drama. Und oft auch sehr in die Länge gezogen und nicht wirklich verständlich.
Die Übersetzung war gut und flüssig zu lesen. Mir machte eher der Plot etwas Schwierigkeiten.
OK, how did I miss that this was a 3-way in the description? Anyway, it had potential it didn't really live up to--I would have loved to read more--or even, I dunno, *anything*-- about health care on an Indian reservation, for example. Disappointing.
Not my usual type of read but I enjoyed it immensely. I'll admit that I skimmed over the racier scenes and noticed a certain jumpiness in the book as the story jumped ahead jarringly. But I also liked the characters and found a lot of the story sweet and romantic.
Nice story of three coming together. Daniel has to learn to trust that others see him as worthy, and Jeff has to get over his fear of being hurt. Sometimes the writing style was a bit awkward with mental ramblings, but I did enjoy the book.