Just promise me one night. One more night before you pull that trigger.
Two broken souls, lost in a sea of trauma. One last chance to forge a new future.
Ariel has turned her troubled past into a glittering career, taking power and control from others for a living. Left behind to survive the sickest of evils, Leah has been consumed by her inner darkness and sees no hope for a better tomorrow.
When fate offers a powerful reunion that will change their lives forever, the two survivors of St Lucien’s Church must choose.
One path leads to redemption.
The other to oblivion.
Sometimes, the way forward is to go back.
Back to sin.
Back to forbidden lust.
Back to pain, pleasure and the art of surrender.
Two girls were set adrift nine years ago.
Now, they must battle against the current to return home…to each other.
Author's Note: Drown in You is a dark, lesbian short story that can be read as a standalone. Full trigger warning is available inside the book.
J Rose is an independent dark romance author from the United Kingdom. She writes challenging, plot-driven stories packed full of angst, heartbreak and broken characters fighting for their happily ever afters.
She’s an introverted bookworm at heart with a caffeine addiction, penchant for cursing and an unhealthy attachment to fictional characters.
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Drown In You is a quick read that will leave you wanting more. Here is my vague review. The novella is six chapters, and I don't want to give any spoilers. Here is what I can tell you It's a Dark FF based on past trauma from a religious upbringing.
Is this book
Dark ✔️
Kindle smoking ✔️
Kinky as hell ✔️
Emotional ✔️
Captivating ✔️
J. Rose really braced the kinky side on this one, and I can’t thank her enough for it. Drown In You is the perfect balance of steam and plot. That is also very emotional. Both characters deal with trauma and how they deal with it. They have a strong and unique bond. For such a short story, this book did touch my heart. I want more FF books like this. I'm my kindle. I hope to see more of these two in future books.
My very first read by this author, now I'm looking forward to reading more of her books. I actually own one of her series physically, but figured this would probably be easier to start off with and it was.
Basically, it's sapphics with A LOT of religious trauma, who find each other again, 9 years after one of them ran away. Then they work through it all together, the only way they know how.
I feel like we got enough story, but I do still wish it was longer and a bit more developed. I liked the characters, but didn't have enough time to fully connect with them, so I wish there was a sequel of sorts. I'd love to see these two pop up in some other series too, fingers crossed they do.
I can see its potential, but I wished it would've been longer and more fleshed out. It does have a good mix of spice and plot for a novella this short, and it could work better for other readers, but it didn't fully work for me. You have to be in a certain mindset to read this and read the trigger warning before going into it! It's a depressing read but has a hopeful ending!
Degradation & BDSM isn't my cup of tea, and I didn't feel fully invested in these characters. But one scene was great (🔫😮💨), and there were some beautiful quotes sprinkled in:
This is my first piece of work written by J. Rose and wow, I am thoroughly impressed. I really am not left wanting in any way. J. Rose was able to successfully yank me into this little piece and fleshed out this heartbreaking story of sexuality, fear, religious abuse, being at your lowest point as a human being, and what it’s like to pick yourself up from a state that you didn’t think you could come back from. This was a really nice peek into what she’s capable of as a story teller.
I really loved some quotes and wanted to highlight just a few that really expressed her talent in stringing together such lovely statements:
”Tears gather and roll down her cheeks. Instinctively, I reach out with a single fingertip and swipe the moisture. Leah watches as I lick the bead of salt, stealing her sadness for myself.”
“I’ll lock her soul in a box and bury it at the bottom of the ocean if it protects what we have.”
“Caught between light and dark, life and death. A land for lost things and broken reunions.”
Dark, twisted, and seriously spicy Drown in You packed a serious punch for such a short novella.
Ariel and Leah are both drowning in their lives, but Leah can't seem to let go of what is holding her down. When Ariel can't take it any longer, she leaves Leah behind never expecting to see her again.
Move to nine years later and Ariel has found a way to overcome her past, even temporarily but Leah is still drowning. When Leah is ordered to group counseling the last person, she ever expected to see was Ariel. Time has changed her but even after all these years Leah still recognizes the girl, she fell in love with all those years ago.
Will Ariel be able to convince Leah to give this life one more chance or is it too late?
Full of dark themes, lost love and serious heartbreak this novella really hit my heart in so many ways. J Rose has a new fan, and I can't wait to check out her other books.
a short story about two girls who loved each other all their lives but were forced to leave each other. the 18+ scene is as always on top, I liked everything, but somehow there is too much in one book.
heart-wrenching. mouth-watering. depressing. tantalizing. i felt like crying and turned on at the same time. this short story healed me in more ways than it broke me. i only wish it was a full length novel.
i’m so happy chiara forced me to read this (she sent me ss of quotes)!! but this book was so emotional to read especially when they would relate being gay to sinning
I am definitely going to give this author another go as I am seeing J rose next year at a book event🥳 so trying to get through my TBR, picking the shortest book the authors have, so I don't think I can fully rate this author based on a short book such as this one because I can already tell this author's writing style is amazing and will definitely be better with other books❣️
Now that doesnt mean that I didn't enjoy this book because I did, I just wish it was much longer but again I knew going into it that it was probably one of the shortest book the author has🤷♀️ It does however cover a lot in the short space, it discusses religious trauma and mental health, it gives a lot of insight into how the trauma affected these specific characters, and we do get a small glimpse into their future where they are trying to live with it all😢 Like I said the only thing I would change is the length, I hope these characters get their own book, I would love to see how they got to where they are and seeing them in the future as well.
This was a dark, short, and very kinky🌶️ sapphic novella, it's an emotional rollercoaster, full of rage, sadness, and trauma, we do eventually see the characters slowly learn to live with what they have been through but there is definitely a lot that can be added and I would love to see more of their character development❤️🔥 I honestly can't believe it was only under 70 pages because it felt like a lot in such a short amount of time.
Some Side Notes:
* No OWD/OMD * Religious Trauma * Sapphic * Mention of Sexual Assault * Mention of abuse * Using sex as a form or emotional healing * Second-chance * Big time jump * 1st person Dual POV * Mentions of suicide
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So the book starts of with Ariel explaining how she was severely beaten as a form of punishment for stepping out of line by Pastor Kane which is actually her father, because she was found drunk, pretty much immediately it becomes obvious they are part of a what I would call a religious cult, because in no way, shape, or form is that normal🖕🖕 Ariel is actively sneaking out as she's describing this, she's sneaking out to meet with Leah who's just turned 16, I'm pretty sure they're both the same age at this point, and we see that they are much more than friends. Now Ariel does suggest running away from this place but Leah doesn't seem convinced, she actually does not want to step out of line and doesn't want to go against Pastor Kane, to me it seems as though she fully believes in what she's being taught🙄
Next scene is pretty brutal as Pastor Kane walks in on them and demands Ariel to get on her knees and apologise, which she absolutely refuses this time and pretty much attacks him with a few blows, Leah seeing this tells Ariel she doesn't love her and she wants Ariel to leave, it's pretty obvious that Leah does this to protect Ariel as she then demands to be punished instead of her, we see a glimpse of the punishment that Leah will receive as we see Kane begin to sexually assault Leah, we don't see much more as Ariel escapes. All of this so far is being told in Ariel's POV.
We then begin a new chapter with a time jump of 9 YEARS😨, I completely forgot there will be a large time jump and was shocked that it was 9 WHOLE YEARS. The new chapter also begins in Leah's POV🤔, right away we are made aware that she has just recently escaped the cult as there was an investigation and she is trying to deal with her trauma, which going to group therapy is a part of which she is making her way to. During the meeting in walks Ariel😱, looking rich, full of tattoos and all put together💋, Leah freaks out when their eyes meet, while Ariel is absolutely stunned and whips out the old nickname she used to call her "wildflower" 🥺and chases after her.
When they eventually get outside and start talking they end up in a physical fight as Ariel hates the way Leah gave up on them and abandoned her when Leah had no choice, during the fight a gun falls out of Leah's pocket and the realisation hits that Leah bought the gun for suicidal purposes, so Ariel asks her for 30 minutes of her time which Leah gives.
During the 30 minutes they discuss what they have been doing in not much detail as Leah seems closed off, Ariel sees how Leah has no light left in her eyes she is just an empty shell of a woman🙁 Ariel tells Leah what she does for a living now, which is part of Dominatrix, she basically hurts people to help them as she describes, so in that moment Leah agrees to accept that kind of help from Ariel so they decide to meet and Ariel says that if Leah wants to end it will be her choice to do so after.
When they meet again it is at Ariel's house, she makes Leah sign a contract and advise her safe word is 'indigo', and they begin. Ariel takes Leah to the room where she has all of her toys shall we call them, whips, ropes, clamps, anything you can think of really⛓️ she then ties Leah to the bed and begins what she does best. She does love on Leah for a little bit before becoming really mean to her, degrading her in many ways, Leah eventually uses her safe word as she doesn't want to take it anymore, to my surprise Ariel says she isn't taking her safe word😟 and will not let her out because she refuses to visit Leah's grave. So she goes on and eventually believes she has got through to her and unties her.
They have a little talk after and Leah describes how she felt alive during it how she feels in control, and the spark is back in her eyes. THEN 😏Leah decides yeah fuck this and decides to dominate Ariel, not really giving her a choice, not that Ariel really complained but she doesn't usually let anyone touch her so it was also something different for her and she had to trust Leah in order to take control.
In the end we see a little epilogue where they swim out into the sea and Leah lets the gun drop forgetting her plan to ever end her life🥹we then get a slight glimpse into their future when Ariel mentions that their next client will be for Leah so clearly they have stayed in the business and now will do it together.
Overall I have enjoyed the book a lot, and like I said before the only thing I would change is the length, I want to see more of them because I know for a fact I would absolutely devour their book, I need to know what happened in the 9 years they were apart, how did everything come out about the cult, how did Ariel end up doing what she does??? I have so many questions. Hopefully they get their own book or something because I did love them both❤️🩹
I have hit backspace so many times, trying to find the perfect words to describe this and nothing can compare to the greatness within these pages. This story is everything! J Rose outdid herself once again with this emotionally gripping and sinfully hot tale.
“Because I will always be the sinner whose spirit you couldn’t crush.”
Ariel and Leah won my heart a thousand times over. One running from the Hell that was imprisoning her, while the other sacrificed herself to protect the one she loves. They are strong, resilient and so brave in their own way.
“You have to break before you can put yourself back together.”
This story is quick read, I devoured it in about 30 minutes, but don’t let that sway you. It’s fast paced, but it’s flawless. Drown In You is packed full of emotion and steam with characters that jumped off the pages and directly into my heart..all wrapped up perfectly with this talented Queen’s impeccable writing skill of creating stories that bury themselves within your soul. I loved every single word and despised saying goodbye to these two angels and definitely will be revisiting them.
Drown in you is a FF, emotional standalone, that I fear dark romance readers are missing out on.
As apart of my June, LGBTQ (re)reads, I feel this one is pretty underrated. Ariel and Leah's story hits you right in the feels. Although, this is a quick read, it is jam packed with deep rooted trauma, k!nky/smųtty spice, and overcoming said trauma. Honestly, I cannot stress enough about the triggering content. However, I definitely recommend!
This novella was okay. I struggled feeling the darkness in this one; and because of that, some lines could feel quite cheesy to me because the I was missing that depth. This could have been a better story as a longer novel or a novelette. I struggled to connect to these two characters.
Got this as a freebie at RARE. The book cover drew me to it. I'm not the target audience for this, I don't read a lot of dark romance. If you do, and want a fast sapphic romance, this may be for you.
My bisexual self wanted to LOVE this sapphic spicy story but it was just too short. It is less than 100 pages and I just feel like the story could’ve been so amazing if it was longer. The spicy scenes weren’t all that hot either :/
This was trying to do too much in too few pages. There was a weird disconnect between the character voices vs the way the characters came across. The writing style was too flowery in places that were meant to add depth but just made it seem melodramatic.
WOWWWW I’m floored. This is the best WLW book I’ve ever read and I dare say my new fave novella of all time. I don’t have one bad thing to say about this book other than I wish it was 3000000 pages so I could stay in the story!
I received this ARC as part of J. Rose's Street Team and am writing this review voluntarily and completely honestly
Drown In You was one of the fastest reads ever, and also a slightly different one for me, not only because it's my first FF romance, but also because I think J. Rose put a new spin on what I've read about her before, while still having the twisted, tragic, real, and moving edge that I love about her books.
Ariel & Leah are two girls who have survived trauma and abuse by the congregation in which they grew up, their story is quite strong, heartbreaking and it made my heart shrink differently for both, although I do have to say that there was a specific part from Ariel's point of view that made me doubt a little about the way in which the experiences of the girls were going to be treated, fortunately, and as always, J. Rose wrote Ariel & Leah's path respectfully, realistically and, most importantly in this story for me, with a great hopeful tinge for Leah's character.
And without saying much about the plot of these beautiful girls, I can't fail to mention the attitude of Leah towards the end of the story, I loved the way the roles were reversed and how Ariel allowed herself to be vulnerable too, it was one of my favorite moments, and I'm definitely looking forward to seeing more of them, their recovery and relationship.
🇪🇸 Recibí ésta ARC como parte del Street Team de J. Rose y estoy escribiendo ésta reseña de forma voluntaria y totalmente sincera
Drown In You fue una de las lecturas más rápidas del mundo, y también una un poco diferente para mi, no solo porque es mi primer FF romance, sino porque también creo que J. Rose le dio un nuevo giro a lo que ya he leído de ella antes, aunque sigue teniendo el toque retorcido, trágico, real y conmovedor que amo de ella.
Ariel & Leah son dos chicas que han sobrevivido al trauma y los abusos generados por la congregación en la que crecieron, su historia es bastante fuerte, desgarradora y me encogió el corazón de manera diferente por ambas, aunque si tengo que decir que hubo una parte específica desde el punto de vista de Ariel que me hizo dudar un poco sobre la manera en la que se iban a tratar las experiencias de las chicas, afortunadamente, y como siempre lo hace J. Rose escribió el camino de Ariel & Leah de manera respetuosa, realista y, lo más importante en esta historia para mi, con un gran tinte esperanzador para el personaje de Leah.
Y sin decir mucho acerca de la trama de estas hermosas chicas, no puedo dejar de mencionar la actitud de Leah hacia el final de la historia, me encantó la manera en la que se invirtieron los roles y como Ariel se permitió ser vulnerable también, fue uno de mis momentos favoritos, y definitivamente estoy deseando ver más de ellas, su recuperación y relación.