I think….I think i’ve just read a masterpiece
This is such a genius idea i don’t even have the words to explain how much of a smart one this was. First, i read unrequited and i cried and cried because i felt Andy’s pain with him. It’s so beautifully written, packed with so much pain, pining and yearning.
I even thought to myself at one point that “is this truly a HEA book?” cos it sure as hell didn’t feel like it at the time.
I read the blurb for requited and i squealed, i was excited, itching because yess 😭now let me tell you how much of a masterpiece this book turned out to be.
In requited we find out how fascinating West found Andy, even before he realized he had a crush on him. Shortly after, he realizes he actually had feelings for Andy, his yearning and pining starts too, he starts feeling a strong sense of jealousy whenever Andy hangs with other men. I’m actually really happy i read Unrequited first, because you know exactly how Andy also felt with him, they both were just too scared to do anything about it. And it hurt because they were both hurting and self loathing and i kept saying to myself “you have no idea” because they didn’t 😭
I love them both, truly I do, but i couldn’t help but be annoyed with them sometimes…okay not Andy cos he’s my favorite but here’s the thing with West. Just like Matt told him, there was no way Andy was ever gonna make a move or even think he had a chance because West was straight which is true. If there’s one thing about Andy, it’s that he never wants to make anyone feel even the least bit uncomfortable, so of course he wouldn’t make a move, gay men can’t afford to do that. It’s honestly really annoying that it took a stranger to get him to think in that direction, this same man who’s supposed to be so damn smart he doesn’t even need to study for exams because he never forgets anything he studies ugh 🙄
But i forgive him, the poor guy was in love, he feared rejection, and not even that per se, it’s the fact that it had the possibility to destroy their friendship and he’d rather have Andy as his best friend than not. So yes i understand his dilemma. And oh the part of this story i’d never forget is West seeing Andy come out of Alex’s room after they’d hooked up. West going into their bathroom to quietly cry until he couldn’t anymore, is seared into my brain 😭 it hurt so badly because i know Andy felt the same and he was just suffering because they couldn’t let their feelings be known. UGH!!
Requited hurt, but it doesn’t come close to how badly Unrequited broke me 😭 these boys went through so much.
Oh and when i tell you i want romance??? this is what i’m talking about!!! The love they had for each other stopppp 😭 i felt it, i felt it all i can’t even explain how but i did. It’s kind of rare today, to find stories like this with actual romance, where they truly fucking love each other. Now books are just lust lust lust lust they forget that a love story is what we are here for.
One last thing i wanna say is, i really wanted to see Andy’s paintings 😭 i wanted to see HEART and ALWAYS, picturing it isn’t enough.
I gotta say, unrequited love fucking sucks.