“I am here to tell a story,” Moriarty’s incipit reads. Indeed, the story is told, not only through her collection of poems, but with personal photographs from her life weaved together to form this “Patchwork” book.
Written almost entirely in first person, the collection reads like a memoir, taking the reader on a journey from red, curly-haired child, to angsty runaway, to multipotentialite adult who seems to have lived countless lives in her 40 some-odd years.
Her poem, “Drowned,” in the first section of her collection, serves as a sort of foreshadowing to the rest of the collection.
I saved myself
not when I drowned
the first time
when I was five…
But when I drowned again
I was twelve
I swam
gulped
grasped at each
particle of air…
my face breaking the plane of one
world to the other
in those first, small
purposeful
still and quiet breaths
I saved myself.
The passage left me wondering in what other ways would the poet save herself or define herself in survival.
“Forever in the mist” carries this energy, recognizing like so many of us do, that identity is complex, dialectic.
Outside looking in.
Apart even when together.
Behind even when forward.
I am the misunderstood.
The one in the mist.
The loner.
The soul griever.
The observer.
The achiever.
The believer / The dreamer.
Even more, in “Life blooms from the desert” Moriarty continues to assert that even in harsh conditions, survival is not only possible, it’s inevitable.
An inhospitable landscape…
Teaching me,
life can come from drought.
Life can be warm,
and full,
even where no life should dwell.
In “All that I was,” an ode, or at least, a dedication to her daughter, Moriarty links the survival she has experienced to the blessing of becoming a mother, finding a sense of purpose from the hardships she experienced.
All that I was became you
my roots becoming your branches
a perch to allow observation
of the world
marking it in chalks and ink
a paint that only you can see
We see this transcendence again in “The Fabric that Makes Me.” Moriarty starts the poem with “Everything of me / is threadbare” but ends with:
The threadbare of me
takes the fray
and weaves [the fabrics] together.
For knowledge, and sorrow
melancholy and scar become
the patchwork of a rebuilt
foundation,
that supports the new me
cocooned in the woods
where the threadbare fabric becomes
integral, and the trees can
protect it.
Even in the midst of grief, the section simply titled “Dad,” where Moriarty writes of her relationship with her father who passed from Stage IV bladder cancer, Moriarty refuses to let her pain be meaningless. The excerpt from “I dare you, Earth” shows how her sadness becomes something bigger than she is.
I dare you, Earth,
To take me, raw, broken,
for my tears create your oceans.
In the simple couplet from “You died today,” she writes: “You died today
/ and we, go on…” and the reader understands that “we go on” not because the loss is meaningless but because there is no other choice but survival. Survival is not only possible, it’s inevitable. And, it just simply is.
“How to explain that unquenchable sadness” reverberates this sentiment.
[Grief]’s slippery and lonely,
and yet I’m still here,
all of it, at once.
In the final poem of the collection, “There have been many definitions of me,” Moriarty writes:
There have been many definitions of me
Daughter, Sister, Writer, Delinquent, Healer, Lover, Wife
Mother
Mother
And she asks, “WHO am I? / WHAT am I?”
The poem resolves with:
I’m reminded of
the beauty of the life
I built
the joy that comes after
the struggle
the laugh lines around
my eyes
That, even in the coldest months
this home feels like summer’s brightest breeze
but, mostly
I’m reminded of
who I’ve always been
who I’ll always be
Daughter, Sister, Writer, Delinquent, Healer, Lover, Wife, Poet
But I dare argue that one identity was left out of the list. This collection is not just a patchwork of poems, it’s a survival guide, and this daughter/sister/writer/delinquent/healer/lover/wife/poet is also, first and foremost, in my opinion, a survivor.