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I devoured this book, but I didn’t want to. Every page read was bittersweet, delightfully consumed with a melancholy aftertaste knowing I closer to the end. Still, I couldn’t resist reading on. Julie Myerson’s Nonfiction commanded my attention from start to finish. How did Myerson craft characters with such complexity, who are nameless? Every character is dimensional through so little explicitly told. Nonfiction is a masterclass in writing; every word is essential. There is no fluff, no excess. This trim novel packs a punch, and every time the weight of the emotion knocked me down, I got up, ready, more excited even, for another round.
I thoroughly enjoyed Myerson’s unconventional plot structure. Nonfiction doesn’t just move back and forth in time, but races forward, springs backwards, crashes to a halt in the present, and catapults to the future, stretching the brackets of beginning and end in the process. Each line break I anticipated my new placement, relishing the whiplash of the surprise. Myerson’s use of time creates a chaos that upends chronology with something entirely unique and original. This chaos lurks in the negative space of the scenes, paralleling the chaos our nameless narrator experiences in the pages. We were uncovering something together. I was amazed at how quickly I adjusted to Myerson’s cadence of time, following along with little to no confusion from scene to scene. I believe this quick adjustment was made possible by being open to the narrator from the trust I was given as a reader. There was a quietness in the details that made me lean in and be open to the lack of information apparent at times. I took what I was given, knowing the other pieces would be revealed in due time—and, as it turned out—in ways that exceeded all anticipations.
I found Nonfiction to be about so many things, but also not really one thing. Prior to reading, I thought it would be about a mother grappling with her daughter’s addiction. While this book is about just that, I didn’t feel as though that element took precedent over the others at play. I dare say the addiction theme is not the most powerful in the book, though I also don’t feel comfortable saying what is—if not the addiction, then what? And I think that’s the point: that it isn’t just one thing, but the processing of everything. Our nameless narrator is no expert in the answers to her life, or trying to understand why, because she knows the point is not why. She understands unearthing Why will not alleviate the struggle her daughter endures; it will not mend her tumultuous relationship with her own mother; it will not fix her marriage. The only thing the narrator knows is what happened, and how she felt about it then, and how she feels about it now. And the in-between of all those events. The narrator’s humble humility in this knowledge, and the frankness about her life, are what make her convincing, and provide the reader with an authority of voice to believe in—because we can all relate to something presented to us here. What may have been the most memorable and impactful moments for me may be totally different from other readers. They may overlap, or perhaps be the same. The negative space in Nonfiction that Myerson so delicately protects allows for such various interpretations of the audience to differ and overlap. Of course, this effect is what good writing should do, but I find Myerson’s achievement to be beautifully haunting in her clean, honest prose.
One of the elements of Nonfiction that I remain most in awe of is the use of writing as part of the story itself (perhaps my favorite if I had to choose). The narrator is a writer, and her relationship to, and experience of, writing, is keenly observed throughout the pages. It’s almost as if Nonfiction breaks a fourth wall—the interrogation of writing as a cornerstone to the book itself. But such a statement feels inaccurate, because it’s not really a fourth wall that Myerson breaks, but a fifth wall the Myerson creates. The fourth wall is in plain sight, and she points at it, remarking on the craft of writing, but ultimately directing our attention to a fifth wall that becomes excavated as the story progresses. Her fifth wall takes this meta-grappling of form up a notch, making the reader ask what fiction really is, among countless other questions, in this pentagon of a room. This fifth wall is all her own, authentic to Nonfiction. I have never read a novel with this meta grappling of form not only weaved in flawlessly to the story, but even articulated at all. Identified and confronted, with the reader, together.
My favorite line: “Because I do have this one idea. I don’t know if it’s fiction or nonfiction.” I wept. It all hits you there. I can’t wait to revisit my favorite passages, as well as the whole novel cover to cover, again, and again.