idk what book all the arc reviewers read bcos we clearly didn’t read the same one? definitely my most disappointing read of 2022 so far.
someone explain to me the point of this book? bcos i would love to know why i not only wasted my time reading this disappointment, but wasted months being so stoked for Luke and Nathan to get the romance they deserved🤡
i think this was supposed to be emotional? but for me, it truly had no real depth whatsoever. the foundations of Nathan and Luke’s relationship were so vague and weak. i feel like the same poetic shit was constantly reiterated without any solid ground to the sentiments — Luke talked about this sordid past, the pain Nathan caused him, how he’d never put his faith in Nathan again...
then the next page they’d be kissing like nothing happened, like Luke hadn’t told Nathan to back off bcos he didn’t want a casual relationship. there was no real angst. no pain or conflict. they’d both say one thing, then do something that completely contradicted what they’d just said?
they just talked so much about their connection, how much it meant to them, the memories of each other... but for Nathan at least, it didn’t add up to his actions whatsoever. he always walked away from Luke, don’t ask me why bcos i still don’t know, yet would say how his fondest memories that kept him going were always Luke? if Luke has always meant that much to you, why the fuck did you treat him like shit??
the book opens with Luke taking a stand internally that he will distance himself from Nathan bcos he can’t do the half-arsed thing Nathan has always done with Luke... and that lasts for literally five seconds before their kissing and groping and Luke is pining and letting Nathan worm his way back in 1) without Nathan putting in any effort whatsoever, 2) taking Nathan’s half-arsed, allusive riddles at face value instead of asking Nathan to be more explicit.
bcos Nathan was truly one of those people who says SO MUCH without actually saying anything of value whatsoever. he kept repeating the same basic sentiment that he’s always thinking about Luke yet his actions prove he’s never been thinking about Luke but himself instead lmao.
why this time? why now? especially since Nathan didn’t actively DO anything remotely convincing. he just said he was staying... why the fuck would Luke believe you now? when Luke has woken up the next morning to find Nathan gone without a word and no trace of him left behind...
the book opens with Nathan already acting like this time is different and now he wants Luke properly so there was no real development. we don’t go on a journey. we don’t see either man grow in anyway shape or form bcos it all seems to be off page before the book even began. like they kept mentioning the night on the moors which happened in book one, about how it changed shit for them BUT WE DON’T GET TO SEE ANY OF IT!! we didn’t see it in book one bcos that’s Charles’ POV, it’s only briefly mentioned... so if it’s such a pivotal moment for both Luke and Nathan, why the actual fuck are we not shown it? why isn’t the interaction explored in more depth and detail?
there was just zero buildup. the previous books indicate all this tension, angst, history, pining, hurt, resentment, betrayal between them... and i felt precisely nothing. i expected a huge collision. an explosion of all that pent up emotion bubbling over years. and instead im left so disappointed and unsatisfied. i think if you read this as a stand-alone with no previous history of the characters, you probably wouldn’t feel this way. but from the set up from the previous books, i feel robbed ngl.
it’s just made me question what the actual point of this book was? you could have just told me in one of the other character’s books that these two just magically got back together with no real ground work and saved me the time of slogging through this – bcos that’s all that happened here too. they literally just magically reconciled with no ground work done on Nathan’s part and it resulted in Luke looking so pathetic in my eyes. like i said, the book opens with Luke telling himself that this time won’t be the same as before with Nathan and he won’t fall into the same old patterns, that he’s distancing himself... and pretty sure by the end of that first chapter or maybe it’s the following one, they’re making out in his office🙃
pacing where? bcos i was 41% into the book and it could have just ended right there. Luke and Nathan were reconciled, Nathan hadn’t put any real effort into explaining his past actions while vouching that this time around was different... i–💀
and it just made Luke look like a gullible lil idiot. which i struggled to reconcile with the previous portrayals of Luke who’s a very hardened, stoic type of man. i wanted Nathan to be held accountable for his actions. and to be told WHY he continuously walked out on Luke, again and again and again and again... you get the picture right?
and yes, before people harp at me for being a bitch, i know we later find out about some of Nathan’s trauma with Grove (which was so bizarre and vapid😭 the author literally couldn’t have chosen anything else? it was laughable and instead of making me sympathise with Nathan, i just laughed bcos it was all so ridiculous). maybe if his trauma had been explained throughout the book, rather than info-dumped at the end and his character had been explored more then it would explain his actions, but they weren’t. so it truly wasn’t good enough for me. whacking up the trauma factor in a shitty book is like slapping a bandage over a leaky pipe... does absolutely fuck all. it’s a low blow in my opinion. maybe just put some effort into characterisation instead of relying on trauma to justify/explain a character’s actions?!? so weak and convoluted.
(can u tell how frustrated and disappointed i am???)
i seriously wouldn’t call this a second chance romance🤡 it’s legit over a decade’s worth of Nathan crawling into Luke’s bed when it suits him and leaving without a word, where Luke has to pick up the pieces of his heart and the whatever’s left of his backbone.
so one star might seem extremely harsh. but i seriously couldn’t name one thing about this i enjoyed. that’s usually how i decide whether a book is one or two stars. and it kinda hurts to be so harsh but this could have been that bitch. instead was just a monumental disappointment with zero depth, angst or character development.
the wasted potential of this book is truly staggering and i think the author did a severe injustice to these two characters. they deserved a better story than this half-arsed attempt. it felt like no real effort was put into this and it was thrown together last minute with the lack of plot and repetitiveness. im honestly so mad😭
and on top of all that, the cover is fugly too.