Edit 6/2/2021: The author contacted me and is going to rewrite (parts of) the book. I’m very curious about that because done in the right way, this could be a wonderful book about friendship, bullying, love, (attempt to) suicide and more.
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Why was Tristan in that river?
A fall? A push? A suicide attempt?
Was the story just about friendship?
Or would it be a queer love story?
The blurb of this story gripped me so much that I couldn’t control my curiosity and immediately started reading. Wrong. So wrong. I flew through the pages. I forgot the other book I was reading. I desperately wanted to know more about Tristan and Avery.
And in the meanwhile ...
I felt something nagging in my chest, an unease that became worse while reading the story. And I hated the ending. It’s wrong, so wrong!
Although I loved the premise and what the author tried to tell, I believe this story is not ready for publication yet. Because it’s an indie-published book, I hope the author decides to edit and rewrite it once more. Therefore I’m not going to rate it right now.
The most important issues I had:
The atmosphere, especially in the first part of the story. I cringed many times, and I believe some things could have been handled more subtly with the same outcome.
This is a raw and harsh story, and there should be trigger warnings. A lot of trigger warnings!! I don’t get triggered that easily myself. Still, I’m sure many YA readers do, especially those who experienced bullying, trash-talking, homophobia, (attempt to) suicide, abuse, mental illnesses.
The writing is more telling than showing and not always adjusted to teens. Furthermore, the writing seems to be more for younger YA readers, but the themes in the book and the way those themes are being handled are definitely not! And please skip the iPods! I know a lot of teens, and none of them still own an iPod.
The ending!!! Like I said above, it’s wrong, so wrong! Please, please change the ending! I’m still so angry about it!
I received an ARC from Hidden Shield Publishing and NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.