CW/TW: Violence, blood, child/domestic abuse (child neglect), dubious consent, sexual assault/violence
Towards the end of this book, I'm unsure how to feel. The first half was quite strong, but I had a harder time connecting to the latter half.
(I don't attempt to really hide spoilers here, so take caution as you proceed).
The premise is quite gripping. Overall, this book is a fast read, and it wastes no time getting to the point of things. I was drawn in immediately. I Hear Your Voice centers around the dark, gritty sides of Seoul, the parts that society often ignores or are actually completely unaware of. It's also a deeply disturbing book, and at times, heavy, so those of you are cautious when it comes to violence, I do recommend that you approach with caution (I will list the content warnings down below). It focuses on young teens who are often turned away by their families, or come into the world as orphans, and are neglected. It also deals with the societal issues of how low-income class kids often wind up with the "wrong crowd" and turn to a life of crime - in this case, motorcycle gangs. And while these kids are rebellious and cause havoc across the streets, there is an emphasis on the fact that at the end of the day, they are just kids. They aren't necessarily trying to make a life out of crime; it's just the way that they can express themselves or live a life. And in turn, I think this comes from the writer's experience of observing these types of kids up close during his military enlistment period, and he learned about the dark sides of reality when it comes these "troublesome teens." This also a book that humanizes them and makes you sympathize with them, and makes you think about why these kids end up making these choices. Furthermore, having grown up in a neighbourhood where one can easily imagine a similar thing happening, these events are not completely foreign to me.
Jae is a really fascinating character; at times, he almost seems Christ-like, but I think it would seem too simplistic to cast the book off for having Christian imagery. Jae is born in a bus terminal to a teenage mother, and is quickly swept off by the neighbouring crowd, and ends up moving from home to home. He is rootless, but he learns to become self-assured. He has this idea that he's meant to do something in this world, and that he has purpose. Jae's "specialness" is emphasized from the getgo. After all, he can hear things around him -- this was a fascinating concept, and I wish there had been more done. He can talk to motorcycles and bridges, he can hear boxes and chairs. He, in that sense, is very connected to the world around him. Jae is also fascinating in the sense that he sees cruelty in the world around him, and thinks of it as deeply wrong, and wants to be the one that corrects that order. Whether or not he succeeds is something that I think is left to the reader.
On the other hand, Donggyu is interesting - reading the summary, I would've thought that he and Jae would've had a stronger bond, but it's actually not as explored/developed as I had hoped. That might be shortsighted on my part for coming into the book with expectations, but I also wonder if their ambiguous relationship was supposed to point out the elusiveness of these kids. Afterall, towards the end, the motorcycle gang racing on the bridge towards the police brigade is soon forgotten and is almost legendary. But still, Donggyu and Jae are described to each other's shadows and are regarded to be two peas in a pod, or simply are called "weird." Donggyu likes and admires Jae, but it's hard to read what Donggyu means to Jae. Of course, they'd grown up together, but at the end of this novel, I'm unsure how to describe their relationship - is it friendship? is this worship? is it brotherhood? At times, they seem like they are one in the same, but at other times, they seem so separated to see them "as one."
An aside here to say that I enjoyed Mokran's character. I like that she's a "I take no shit" kind of girl.
I don't really have else much to say about other characters - I thought Seungtae would've been a great character to show how toxic masculinity often ends up making young men more "performative" to act a certain way, look a certain way (muscles!!!! athletic!!! etc), and have certain hobbies. And in some ways, I think the smart reader with reading comprehension will see this. But I do wish that he didn't self-villainize his own gayness, and that he realized that what that older man to him was wrong and manipulative, and I wish that these events hadn't turned Seungtae into a problematic, "evil" character. He's obviously the antagonist, but I wish that there wasn't this perpetuation that him being gay or unaccepting of his gay identity is what makes him bad (well, I think that a smart reader would be able to recognize that, but a lot of readers will also automatically assume "gay" and "bad" together, so that's not fun at all). EDIT: the term I was looking for Seungtae was queer villain.
I think there was supposed to be juxtaposition between Jae and Seungtae, because Jae ultimately becomes powerful and attains admirance in the way that Seungtae can't have and constantly seeks. Again, I think this book lacks a lot of exposition in characters themselves (the beginning half was quite good at it, but it seemed to disappear towards the latter half), and in between character relationships, I simply wish there was more building so we could feel emotional impact (especially at this betrayal-that-was-not-quite-a-betrayal).
The end and the beginning are quite different - which made the narrative structure, and the way that book is divided into parts, was interesting. I think it reflects on how surreal and strange the events that surrounded Jae and Donggyu are. Furthermore, I appreciated the last part where it seems to be coming from the author's perspective about these real-life events, which is trippy, because how much of is this real or fiction? The lines blur. It reminds me a lot of the last chapter of Han Kang's Human Acts.
TL;DR: Overall a very introspective, dark, gritty read about the "troubled" youth who run a motorcycle gang in the streets of Seoul.