This series and Xander is like air for me, I can't live without them.
After the happy and darker scenes earlier, this part was a bit painful to read - I mean I hate to see them in that kind of pain that aren't fun. Xander and Ben tried to find the perfect balance for their life together, while living their own life too. I loved how they did everything in their power to be together and doing those s/m stuffs they love.
My love for Xander is limitless - just like Ben's. Loved everything he did, and I just love how real everything is in this book. They did normal stuffs, had friends, worked on their jobs, and most importantly they loved. Loved each other so much, there aren't words for it. Their love making and especially the heavy and darker ones were everything.
But not everything is full of sunshine, and when Xander's fears became too much and he lose control, everything got sad.
This book is can be separated to 2 half - the first the happy one, the second the painful and sad one.
I love that the author did this, she totally could write about all the happy things and let them be happy and in love forever, but no, she did the best for chosing this tactic, because life isn't just sunshine - Xander and Ben had to find their way back to themself and to each other. It was painful, yeah, but it was a needed and good distance for both of them. And while I wanted them to be together and happy, and it hurt to read those parts, it was still good.
The 24/7 power exchange scenes were good and hot, and I really thought they were into it and stay in that life. Xander's total power was so hot to watch, and Ben's total submission was beautiful. They are so perfect together♥
And that scene where Xander begged Ben for forgivness and said he do everything and really everything - it was sad and beautiful at the same time. I couldn't even breath while reading, it was so exciting.
LOVE this series and Xander so much♥