4.5🌟🌟🌟🌟
Okay, so here's the thing. I have never written a book review, even after reading close to a 2000 books in my 23 years of life.
But this one hit close to home, not the part about a deliciously sensible pornstar being into me, if one could be so lucky.
It hit close because I grew up in a similar way to Bailey, being shammed for my body and being so depressed because of it. I'm better now, but reading that internal dialogue, about not being enough, about that dangerously low self esteem... Let's just say I cried a lot.
"“You're right. Shit. I'm sorry, Eli,” I told him. “I guess I do have some mixed feelings about everything. My self-esteem is just garbage. I don't know how to feel sexy when I've never really been a sexual being. And here I am – surrounded by the hottest ladies in Los Angeles. It makes me feel awkward. Younger than I actually am, I guess.""
We are so hard to ourselves, so damaging to our own mental health in ways that we don't even realize.
And this book had a way of getting to those real and hard(no pun intended 😁) themes, but still being lighthearted, funny and endearing.
""So nothing else?” I said, technically into his chest at that point. The last part of my other-life fantasy had come true. “You don't care about my intact hymen or cellulite or that weird notion that virgins have that creepy bond-thing with the first guy they fuck? You know, the attachment thing.”
“I'm not medically versed on hymens or the broader origins of virginity,” he stated. “So I can't say.”"
I wish I could have seen more of Eli's side, but at the end you get a glimpse into his earlier thoughts on Bailey and I loved it.
Also Charlie, he was just what the book needed and he delivered.
And Bailey... She's going to have a special place in my heart for a long time, I loved her so much, even though I wanted to scream at her on those times that she went on a "take your girlfriend to work" excursion, because girl how did you expect for that to turn out well!? Lol
In conclusion this was such a well written book and is the first one for Mya Oh, so I can only be excited about what the future holds. Can't wait to read more from her, I'm sure it will only get better ❤
(Probably not the best review ever written, but I love the book and wanted to leave something else🤗)