Heaven Hill is my home. They took me in when no one else would, introduced me to my family, and have always been here for me. But now I'm on the outside, not able to help the woman who has my heart.
I'm stuck, unsure of what to do, and struggling badly.
If anyone should be able to make their wife happy, it's their husband right?
Amanda Barnett
Born a bastard, raised a Walker, and now a Barnett, I've never quite known who I am. Not until someone called me Mom.
In the aftermath of the biggest deception our club has ever faced, Dalton and I are trying to cope with the miscarriage of our child. The piece of light and hope we had at the end of the darkest times Heaven Hill has ever seen was snatched from us, and even though I'm trying to cope. It's not going well.
Gone are my feelings of belonging. Gone is my excitement to face another day.
Here's what you need to know about this book right now:
★ This is the fourth book in the Heaven Hill Generations Series ★ It's one of the most emotional books I've ever written ★ It's a return to the original Heaven Hill Series in many ways ★ It's got all the FEELS ★ It sets up Caelin and Justice
“You look really good.” I smile, holding his hand tightly across the table.
What I wouldn’t give to lay in his arms right now.
“You do too, babe. God I’ve missed you.” Those words make my soul feel lighter, they get rid of some of the doubt and punishment I’ve put on myself.
“How’s Walker? I wish he could have come with you.”
“He’s good, doing much better since you wrote him that letter.”
Our conversation flounders, and I know it’s not because there isn’t a lot to say. It’s because we’re nervous.
Which makes sense; the last time we saw each other, wasn’t good for either one of us. One of the things I’ve realized in my therapy is I need to be the one to start the conversation.
“I’m sorry.” I tilt my head to the side, pulling my lip in between my teeth. “I’m so sorry for what I put you through, put our family through, and for making you feel like you were anything less than my partner.”
“Mandy…”
“No, let me finish. This needs to be said. The place I was in, was so dark I couldn’t see any way of coming out of it, and I blamed you.”
His face falls, I hate hurting him, but all this needs to be put out there.
“Which is dumb,” I hurry to continue. “I blamed you for leaving.”
“You asked me to.”
My hand goes up, hoping to stop him. It does and I take a breath, fortifying myself to keep going.
“You’re right, I did ask you to. It’s one thing in what I’ve learned is a long list I have of things I expected people to know about me.”
“I’m so confused, babe.”
“I was too.” I pull my free hand up to my chin, giving myself a moment. “One of the things I’ve learned here is I ask people for things I want them to say no to, because I want them to fight me on it. Like I tell you to leave, I want you to love me enough to stay.”
His dark eyes fire with pain, and to know I caused it, makes my chest clench, but we’ve got to get through this. We’ve got to know how each other works from the inside out, if this is never going to happen again.
When he speaks this time, his voice is wrecked, ravaged with pain. “I do love you enough to stay. I wanted to stay, I wanted to fight for our life together, but I also wanted to respect your wishes.”
“I know that now.” I run my thumb over his knuckles. “But it took a lot to get there. I’m constantly sabotaging my relationships because I want people to prove to me they want to be there for me, and that’s not healthy. I should take what they give me at face value and not allow my own insecurities to override what’s really going on. It hasn’t been easy.” I stop for a second and lick my lips. “It hasn’t been easy to look at myself in this way, to realize I’ve caused most of the shit that’s gone down in my life.”
“I wouldn’t say most, Mandy. I’m guilty of it too.”
“We both are, but we’re both guilty of hiding shit from each other to save the other person. That’s got to stop.”
He nods. “You’re right, we do things in the name of good intentions, but it gets all fucked up and we’re back where we started, pissed at one another.”
“Right, so we need to have a mutual spot where we can go to talk. We can call each other there and be honest with each other in that spot. Like I called you here, to this table, so we could have a conversation. When I get out of here, we have to continue having these talks. This won’t go away overnight.”
“I’m willing to work for as long as I have to, nothing worth it is ever easy.”
And it couldn’t be happier! Dalton and Amanda. Wow… Talk about dragging yourself from the depths of despair. A heartbreaking loss was going to bring them to their knees and wonder if they will be able to get back up again. Everything. Everything they thought they knew about each other, themselves, was going to be tested. Truths, long-held secrets, would be exposed to each other. What they would do about them, was going to stretch their relationship to the breaking point…
And they weren’t alone. They are part of a huge, tight, loving family. And they were going to have help every step of the way.
I don’t think I was prepared to feel what I felt reading this story. These characters have become so familiar I feel like I’m part of their big, wild and tight-knit family. When one hurts, everyone does, and man did my heart hurt…
I cried, I cheered, I wanted to wrap them all in a great big bear hug. And closing the last page felt like I did… So freakin’ good!! ~Diane, 5 stars
I was going to write my review right after reading but I needed to read it again. I absolutely loved Dalton and Mandy and wanted to give them the review they deserved.
Have you ever read a book that sucked you in and hit you with so many emotions from the first chapter. That's what Hollow did to me. Dalton and Mandy have always been one of my favorite couples. Every hardship they went through in their first book to be together had you hoping nothing else would hit them and rock their relationship.
After the club suffering from the deception from one of their own, Mandy and Dalton are hit with another blow. The miscarriage of their second child causes even more despair and hardships for them.
Mandy has had a deep suffering inside if her for so long, she no longer knows who or what she is. Dalton has always known his place within the club and thought he had known his place with his wife and the family they started.
The raw emotional pain in this book was everything and more. This book had my emotions all over the place. There was no sugar coating anything and thats what made this book amazing. The love that they have for one another is never in question through this book. You know they love each other more then their next breath. You can feel it with every word spilled from their mouths. It was everything happening around them and to them that made it hard to handle at times. All couples go through hard times throughout their relationship, its how you deal with it as a couple. Whether it be supporting your significant other in getting help or even seeking help together. I think that's what makes them one of the strongest couples throughout this series. All of the guys and their woman have been through so much and come out the other side stronger. But Dalton and Mandy have been fighting for their relationship since the beginning. There's just something about Them that has always called to me. That young love that despite so much life has to throw at them they always find their way back to each other. Their souls have been intertwined and there is nothing that can shatter it.
This one is Laramie's best book, she wrote it so beautifully well. She made you feel like you were there with them in their journey to finding themselves as individuals, parent's and as a couple.
I know I say this about everyone of her books but this one will definitely be one that stays with me for a long time.
Y'all this book was everything I wanted and needed. Mandy and Dalton have been to hell and back and seeing them both overcome so much is amazing. Walker grows so much himself in this book and I can't wait to see how much he keeps growing. The bombshell at the end was amazing!!!
There are a few things I notice about books that I an drawn to the most. I love to cheer for the underdog. Someone who is so downtrodden but gets a chance to see the sunshine again. I love books where our hero may be a bit rough around the edges but still loves with a giant heart. And I don't always know this going in, but a love to have a bit of a surprise in the story. Something I wasn't expecting.
So let's talk about HOLLOW and how it matches up to my favorites list. It couldn't have been a better read if I tried. This story is about an existing family. Readers of both Heaven Hill and Generations will know Mandy and Dalton. And I have read most all of this author's work. On the outset, it's an MC story. What we get though, is a profound look at mental health and healing and love.
The story is mostly told from Mandy and Dalton's POV but we also get insight form their son Walker. This was a hard book to read. Lots of emotion and you just want to scoop them all up and tell them everything will be ok. Mental health is an ongoing process. Getting to the point where you can say "I am ok with me" is a very long road for some folks. Mandy puts int he hear work because the bottom line is she loves her family and wants to be able to show them that love.
You can read this as stand alone. Or enjoy the whole series. Either way--pick this one up. Best I have read by this author by far.
*Complimentary copy provided for an honest review.
I had to let this one stew for a few days before I could get my thoughts together. I typically read books filled with suspense and surprise twists. This was not that book, but it was just as gut wrenching, if not more. There is so much heaviness to what Mandy and Dalton are doing through and it's hard to wrap my head around the fact that every hurdle they face is one hundred percent real life stuff that so many people can relate to. We see the strain on Mandy and Dalton's marriage, which is no joke. Relationships are hard work. We see them dealing with pregnancy loss. This hit me hardest, because I've been in her shoes, and no matter how many people tell you it's not your fault you'll still try and blame yourself. We see Mandy struggling with her mental health. As a sufferer of anxiety, it is so important to find a way to deal with triggers and to recognize when you're losing control. We see Mandy at her darkest, with suicide in her sights. And we see Dalton floundering to do the right thing when he doesn't even understand what's happening. We see Walker walking on eggshells trying to make Mom happy and Dad sane. The amount of reality in this book is overwhelming, and it's mind blowing to sit back and think about how many people can relate to every word, myself included. Laramie hit this one out of the park, and I applaud her for hitting so many emotionally sensitive subjects in a single story, and getting it right. Nothing was rushed or sugarcoated. Thankfully there was lots of joy to be found for Dalton and Mandy, and Walker. I absolutely recommend this book, and the entire series.
I've come to expect loads of feels from Laramie Briscoe, but Hollow takes it to a whole new level. I also expect a gripping story with characters I feel like I know when I crack open a Laramie Briscoe book, and again, she doesn't disappoint. Mandy and Dalton took me on a journey that was both heartwrenching and hopeful. These characters are both flawed and being there as they faced those flaws felt so real it was sometimes hard to look at, but at the same time, I couldn't look away - I absolutely had to see how their story came out. When I wasn't reading it, I was thinking about it. This book is just that compelling. At this point in the series, I've become invested in the Heaven Hill family, and blood or not, they are very much a family, so I may be biased, but I fell in love with this couple from word one. Speaking of the series, I would recommend reading the books in order so you understand everything that led to this point. The whole series is a brilliant combination of feels, steamy goodness, and characters you just can't get enough of.
Here’s some tips. Feeling emotional before you read this book? Grab some chocolate and some Kleenex before you proceed. Is it nighttime and you think to yourself “I’m just going to read a little before bed...” STOP!!! Because guess what. You’ll be in my boat. 11pm. Wide awake. Stomach aching. Guts metaphorically lying in tatters on the floor. Thanking God your husband AND dog fell asleep watching tv in the living room so that they can’t see what a freaking wreck you are after reading this book.
It’s my fault. Honestly. I knew going into this book it wasn’t going to be easy. I knew Dalton and Mandy’s path back to each other was going to be hard. But the moment when Dalton got a letter from Mandy gutted me. Or when Walker broke down. Geez that kid killed me. Straight up ripped my heart right out of my chest. There were just so many little moments like that they just kept chipping away more and more until you are just stripped bare.
I don’t know how Laramie is writing these books during a freaking pandemic. How is she staying sane?? Does she need some wine? A trip to a day spa? Something? I mean good lord I need some counseling after reading her books ever since she killed he who shall not be named. *I’m still salty about that if you can’t tell*
This book is eye opening. Amazing. Storytelling at its finest. Bravo Laramie! Don’t ever worry about if you need to do more or if you are giving your readers enough. I’ll send my therapy bill to you so that you know you’ve done more than enough. ;)
Before I even started, I was certain that this book was going to be just like Mandy’s book in the series of short stories. It would leave me a bleeding, broken emotional mess but I needed to read it anyway. This book really surprised me because while there are lots of dramatic emotional moments, it’s lighter than I was expecting it to be. Throughout the story, there’s this sense of hope, that even if the sky is dark right now that it’ll be brighter again in the future. Mandy, Dalton, and Walker’s story is one of overcoming impossible odds, facing your demons and conquering them, and the power love has to accomplish anything. I still ended up a weepy crying mess in the end, but they were happy tears. And, I’m already dying to get my hands on the next book of the series. I received a complimentary advanced copy of this book from the author through Give Me Books Promotions.
Visceral. When a book connects with you soul-deep, you wonder how the author ever managed to knit herself back together because for sure writing this book would have left Laramie Briscoe raw and vulnerable. Every sentence, every keystroke, you can feel how emotionally vested Ms Briscoe was.
As a reader, it left me in awe and this book was not an easy one to read ... at least not for me. Being a Bereaved Mother and someone who has dealt with depression and attempted suicide, I connected with Mandy. I appreciate that Ms Briscoe did not shy away or make light of Mandy's struggle. Her journey to finding her way back was cathartic to read. I cannot help but root for her. I believed Mandy might just be one of the strongest heroines that Ms Briscoe has ever written. However, this does not mean that Dalton was the lesser character in this book. Oh no, he is perfect for Mandy. Being the Alpha, he struggled in facing the truth that along the way he relied too much on Mandy that he didn't see her drowning until it was too late. My heart breaks for Walker but he was such a strong boy being someone so young. I loved reading this family's journey to the finding their HEA and what a wonderful HEA it was.
For long-timed fans and readers of this series, I urged you to pick up this book. You will not regret it. Also, can we take a moment to admire the perfection of this book cover?
After reading Hollow, I just had to take a deep breath and close my eyes. Hollow was a truly amazing read that left me feeling absolutely gutted. As someone who has experienced the loss of a child, this book hit on all the emotions that I had felt. In Hollow, Dalton and Mandy must face the loss of their child. Each grieved differently, but they both came out stronger after fighting their way back to one another. Before reading, have a few tissues ready or maybe a bOx of tissues. This is one of Laramie Briscoes best books and she writes some amazing Books! I received an authors copy and I have left an honest review.
I don't know that I can even express in words how great this book is. It's very raw and emotional. Being a long-time fan of the series, I knew going into this that Mandy and Dalton's journey was not an easy one, but I wasn't ready for how engrossed in their world, their relationship, their thoughts, feelings, fears, etc., that I would be in while reading this. I don't want to give anything away...and anything I specifically would touch on in normal reviews will be too much of a spoiler and I just can't do that to other readers. All I can say is this is beyond a 5-star read and any fan of the series, the author, or family/club sagas in general will need to check this off their TBR ASAP!
Dalton and Mandy’s story was definitely a emotional one in every aspect. The struggles and tragedy they are suffering is so real and something unfortunately so many families deal with so in so many ways this book felt real and was written impeccably. These two are so in love with each other but life keeps beating them down and feel they can’t breathe anymore. All the support in the world is not enough to mend what’s been broken. Beyond loved this story
This book was such an emotional read. From the very beginning of the book I was pulled into their story. This story honestly helped me in so many ways. I lost my dad earlier this year and I am having a difficult time moving on. I am an emotion wreck inside most of the time. This book helped show me that no matter how broken you are you must draw on what strength you have and draw strength from the people around you. No matter what you are never alone. Mandy and Dalton’s story was just incredible from start to finish. It is for sure way more then a 5-star read. Their story will stay with me for a long time to come. I voluntarily reviewed this book in exchange for an honest review.
Hollow deserves so much more than the 5 stars I can give it. This story was raw and real. It’s a story that many can relate to and I think it was an important one to tell. My heart broke so many times through the short stories reading about Mandy and Dalton and the heartbreak and pain they both were feeling. This story brought it all together and showed that there is a light past the darkness but that the darkness will always be a part of you. Laramie did an amazing job demonstrating the importance of mental health and the real struggle people go through. Walker broke my heart so many times but seeing the family come back together was beautiful and so well written to feel so real. Hollow might just be my favorite of the whole Heaven Hill series. It’s raw, real, and so tragically beautiful. I highly recommend this story!
Wow, what an emotional and touching read. This one is an expanded version of the shorts for Dalton and Mandy. It goes into greater detail of the struggle that they had to face after their loss. Its about how they overcome and help each other heal. There's some steam and suspense too. I voluntarily received an ARC copy of this book and my review is 100% honest.
Sometimes you come across a book that's so relatable and full of so many lessons. Hollow is one of those books and deserves far more than 5 stars. This book is so emotionally charged and has left me completely breathless. Dalton and Mandy has gone through more in their short while than most couples experience in years of marriage. My heart breaks for these two and their little family with all the sadness that has taken over their lives. They've lost so much yet they hang on tight to everything that's left between them. Their son Walker, even as young as he is exhibits a strength similar to his parents and has just as much drive and ambition as they do. Hollow carries you through all the feels. It will break you down to nothing and build you right back up again. It is truly on of the most beautiful books I've ever read and ABSOLUTE MUST READ!
I anticipated Hollow would be emotional due to the subject matter and not surprisingly, it invoked a lot of feelings. Tears when the characters were at their lowest and happiness as they overcame each obstacle. Mostly though, it was moving. Dalton and Mandy’s faults are relatable and not unlike what any of us face. Taking the steps to overcome life’s difficulties can make you feel vulnerable. To see them work through the hurt and come out the other side in a better place was inspirational. I think the word I would use best to describe the book is honest. A must read for fans of the Heaven Hill MC, it is some of Laramie Briscoe's best writing. Kudos to the author on the book cover. It fit this story perfectly.
I've loved Mandy and Dalton from the the very beginning and if you have too grab some tissues and wine because your going to need it ready their story. I've gone through the tragedy that Mandy and Dalton have been through not once, but twice. My heart broke for them. Their story is heart breaking, gut wrenching, but at the same time it brings them closer together as a couple and family. When Walker broke down on my god I want to wrap him up in a great big bear hug. I loved seeing Mandy become stronger and I loved how Dalton stepped up when she needed him the most. I couldn't be happier for them with way things turned out for and I can't wait to see more of them in the future.
Mandy and Dalton's story has been building with the series of shorts we got earlier this year. This is a story of acceptance, to always be honest and true. It is a reminder that love often isn't enough to hold a relationship. As a family Mandy, Dalton and Walker need to accept the past and strive for better in the future. This story will break your heart many times, but in the end brings all of the pieces together to make you whole.
Mandy and Dalton's story has been building with the series of shorts we got earlier this year. This is a story of acceptance, to always be honest and true. It is a reminder that love often isn't enough to hold a relationship. As a family Mandy, Dalton and Walker need to accept the past and strive for better in the future. This story will break your heart many times, but in the end brings all of the pieces together to make you whole.
Wow! What a roller coaster! Dalton and Mandy’s struggles come to a head and Mandy finally gets the help she needs to move forward with her life and get back to her family. I cried so many times throughout this book. It was heartbreaking, real and inspirational. I loved all of the characters in this book, but really felt for Mandy and Dalton’s son, Walker. I really loved this book. Totally worth reading.
That ending! Read this story from the beginning - don’t cheat. I enjoyed reading this one. Mandy and Dalton are a couple who I have loved from the beginning. And I’ll admit I was a little mad at Laramie for writing Mandy the way she did. I didn’t want these two to have any issues. Luckily, this is a romance story in the end and love does prevail!
This book deserves way more then 5 stars. The feelings and realness of Mandy and Dalton jump off the pages. Reading this book ran me through the ringer of emotions. Mandy is brought to life in this book in a way she has never been before! I absolutely love this book in a way that I havent the others! Laramie shines a light on the lose of this family in a way that is so real! Dalton, Mandy and Walker grow so much together and individually that it is both heart wrenching and heart warming at the same time!
What a great emotional read this was. Mandy and Dalton have been thru so much together, and apart. Sometimes everything looks perfect, but it isn't, it's time these two start working as a team instead of against eachother. This read made me look into myself at a few similarities I had with Mandy, made me think of how to try and fix myself, as Mandy did. I know this is a work of fiction, but I'm sure it was all too real for some of us readers. Amazing 5 plus star read!
Hollow will break you for what Mandy is going through. I have loved Mandy and Dalton but what Mandy is going through will break your heart and make you want to fix it. Dalton does the best he can and is absolutely devastated that he is not the one to be able to help her he loves her so much. Walker it breaks my heart the way he feels. Laramie did amazing with how she wrote their story it is absolutely amazing and breathtaking and beautifully written. Make sure you have read the series. Laramie thank your for their story and doing a phenomenal job with it.
This story was so packed full of emotion. The struggles, working through them, being better for each other. I love the love Mandy and Dalton have for each other. And it was awesome “hearing” Walker too. This author never disappoints me. I can’t wait for her next release.
I am really not sure how Laramie Briscoe does it, this book has all the feels and emotion. it explores how counseling can help put back together a family that really has been torn asunder by life. The experiences are so very real an raw. I really loved this one so much!
Please bear with me while I say a few things. 1) There are not enough stars to date this book so I will have to settle for the maximum Five Stars. 2) After reading bits of this book on Laramie's Facebook page I said come on Jean pull up your big girls pants and start reading this book as you are ready, Boy was I wrong. 3) Get ready to feel so many emotions that you find yourself sobbing so get the tissues ready as you are definitely going to bed them. 4) This story will stay with you long after you have finished reading it. 5) I have read every single one of Laramie's Books and they are all amazing but this one is a true Laramie Briscoe Masterpiece and you really need to read it. Thank You now for my review. Mandy has gone through so much in her life so when one of there Heaven Hill family did the ultimate betrayal and then she lost her baby Mandy sunk into deep depression pushing everyone away including Dalton and her family and friends and she can't see a way out except to take her own life so as not to feel the deep pain any more but then she sees a flicker of light at the end of the tunnel and realised that she needs help but will she be brave enough to come out of it and reclaim her family and the happiness that she deserves. Dalton feels helpless and he doesn't know how to help Mandy as she constantly pushes him away but he can't loose her as she is his soul mate and his love for her is so strong and has never wavered no matter what he has to go through but he feels like he is sinking and trying not to drown in everything he is going through and then he gets the phone call that he has been dreading. Walker has been so much for someone so young but he continues to stay as strong as he can even if he has to push it deep down inside him so that he can be strong for his mum and dad as they are his world and he would do anything to have his family back together but is he doing the right thing he can just hope that he is. Omg this book absolutely tore me apart and I couldn't stop crying, after the loss of a baby myself I could relate to how Mandy felt and the pain she was going through, but the pain and and emotions in this book I felt completely and emotionally drained and then there was Dalton and everything that he was feeling and going through and that broke me again, but Walker wow what a strong young boy he was after seeing and going through so much that has to leave scars but with patients, love, support, hope and family there is definitely light at the end of the tunnel if you reach for it. Thank You Laramie Briscoe you are an inspiration and an absolutely incredible author and writer and you put parts of me back together after reading this story, you must have been emotionally and physically exhausted after writing this book but I truly can't Thank You enough for writing about such a difficult subject and situation you truly are an inspirational and incredible person. I have had the privilege of reading every single one of your books and they have all been amazing but this one was a true Masterpiece and my absolutely favourite book. I definitely recommend you read this book and you will definitely not be disappointed but he ready for an emotional ride. This has been one of the hardest review's that I have ever written so I hope I did it justice. I voluntarily reviewed an Arc copy of this Amazing Book.
Holy emotional roller coaster! This story was so hard to read but so well written. It is deep, emotional, and a story that needed to be shared.
Mandy is so lost after miscarrying and she has so many demons that she can’t ask for the help that she so desperately needs. It leads to her ending up in a dangerous place in her head and her father finding her in the nick of time to save her and get her the help she needs, but will she ever be able to find the Mandy that is lurking inside of her and find her way back to her family and the life she so desperately wants? It will take a lot of work and a village, but she’s willing to do what it takes to take her life back.
Dalton has his own demons and when Mandy turns her back on him in her time of need, he doubts himself and the man he needs to be for his family. He is left to fend for himself and find out how to be a dad and take care of Walker. He has no clue what he’s doing but he also knows that he will have to reach out for help, and he has a lot of people that will help him. He wants his family back together and he needs to be honest with Mandy on his feelings and not hide from the tough situations. They both need to work on their communication skills if they want their marriage to work and their family to move forward.
I loved this story even though I read it through bleary eyes most of the time. It was so deep, touching, and eye opening. It was a hard read, but so worth it. Mental illness is something that has been ignored or hidden for so long. The struggle that one’s mind can cause is so hard to understand for anyone that has never had the struggle or gone through it with someone in their life. It can be a daily battle for some and until they reach out for help or get the help they so desperately need it can be very destructive to everyone that loves that person including themselves. This story is a beautiful love story of two people that struggle with their emotions and their demons, but their love is stronger than they realize and will help them to come out on the other side and find their happiness and their strength. I give this story a 5-star review and look forward to more of the Heaven Hills Generations Series. This book is full of tragedy, illness, strength, danger, and wonderful characters.