Honestly, I’ve never cried this much over a book. Volume 1? Non-stop sobbing, finished it in one sitting.
I originally had WAYYY more quotes that i wanted to put i to this review, but for the sake of my sanity since this takes way longer that you would expect, i tried to narrow it down.
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“That's how P' Fah is, kind to everyone equally. He's good to everyone. I've seen people fall into the trap of that kindness, thinking hey're special. But in the end, they're no different from anyone else.
P' Fah doesn't think anything of it.
That kindness, it's the cruelest thing. Like a sky that feels close but can't be touched, can't be claimed.”
(THIS QUOTE IM ACTUALLY GOING TO SOB. เชื่อฉันสิ ตอนนี้คุณสัมผัสเขามามากแล้ว..)
“I like that phrase, about the beauty after rain.
But I'm terrified... terrified that my rain will never stop.”
(โอ้ ไม่ต้องกังวล. P’Fah make sure it will)
“Five meters...
Four meters...
Three...
Two...
One...
Half a meter from me... to someone standing outside, separated from me by only a wooden door. I reach out my hand to touch the doorknob but then let it fall.
I can't.
I can't open this door.”
(จริงๆแล้วฉันไม่สามารถควบคุมน้ำตาของตัวเองได้. Even going back and reading it now i’m a bit teary-eyed reading in.”
“"Do you hate Phi Fah now, Typhoon?"
I raised my hand to cover my mouth, crying even harder. I collapsed to the floor, utterly drained, biting my lip so hard I didn't care about the pain.
Just to keep my sobs in.
No...No way... There's no way I could hate you.
Even if I...Even if I die...I will always love you.”
(รู้ไหม เมื่อคิดย้อนกลับไป พ่อของพูนสมควรได้รับสิ่งที่แย่กว่าที่เขาได้รับ. Seriously, Poor P’Phoon for having to go through this shit because of his shitty ass father.)
“I deserve this pain. I deserve more than this...”
(NO BABE NOT FOR A SECOND DARE YOU FUCKING THINK THAT. พี่ฟ้ากับหนูจะดูแลพ่อไอ้สารเลวนั่น for you, na?)
“One hour...Two hours...One day, one week…Two weeks...
Time has passed without you by my side anymore. Whether the sky is clear or overcast, the sun continues to rise and set every day. My favorite thing to do is watch time pass and see that everything remains unchanged.
Except... you're not here.
It's back to being a sky I can't reach again.
Or perhaps it has always been a sky I could never reach.”
(I actually still have not recovered from this. ได้โปรดอย่าร้องไห้นะพี่ชาย. It seriously hurts to see.)
“"Are you giving up, Phoon? How long have you liked P' Fah?"
"Since I learned what love is."
"So, your whole life?"
"Yeah, my whole life."
"Then can you love him for four more years?"
"I can love him for the rest of my life."”
(MORE ENERGY, MORE PASSION. ขอบคุณครับ ไต้ฝุ่นตั้งใจแล้ว)
“My feelings had reached you.
And you accepted them.”
(I was actually busying screaming in a pillow over this ฮ่าๆ)
“"What's wrong with Duean Nao?" | asked.
"He's been taking Chinese classes. He's been saying 'Ni Hao' to me all day. Every day feels like it's draining my energy. I swear, I'm one step away from lion dancing."
"You idiot," I said, still laughing. "Don't badmouth Nao."
"Are you taking his side? Ni Hao, you traitor. I've been running errands for you all this time, and now you're siding with Nao? Go 'Ni Hao' with him, then!"
"No, don't kick me out to Ni Hao."
"Ter, don't say 'Ni Hao' in front of me again."”
(嗨,你好吗哈哈.. yeah no i didn’t bother learning Chinese for a reason. คุณจะยึดติดกับเกาหลีหรือไทย? 5555)
“I couldn't help but smile widely at the message.
If it's like Johan says... this is dangerous.
Seriously...
You're exactly the kind of person I like.”
(Yeah only took you what, 20 years to realize? อย่างจริงจัง..)
“I folded the letter carefully and put it in my bag.
What's this warm feeling in my heart?
Ah... I see.
It's because of them.
Because they're back.”
(Because they’re back IM SOBBING. สิบสามชั้นสูงพอไหม?)
“"Not being a parent is better than being a bad parent."”
(จริงๆ แล้วมันเป็นบทเรียนสำคัญที่ผู้คนต้องเรียนรู้)
“"How do you feel now that you know?"
"I feel like... I can't see Typhoon as just a younger brother anymore."”
(What a way to end the first volume, really.)
“Now I knew for sure:
The writer of the letters was even more adorable than I had imagined.”
(P’Phoon, even though i know you spent hours blushing over this, i still would like to blushing on your behalf. หมอพวกนี้รู้วิธีเจ้าชู้จริงๆ)
“And this must be the millionth time l've fallen for him.”
(js no comments, i’m too busy screaming)
“His confession of love... letting me know.
And my confession of love... which he heard for the first time.”
(Can you imagine? Liking someone your whole life and finally getting a confession? Damn.)
“Our first kiss...
It was so gentle... I could lose my mind.”
(เขาจะไม่มีวันอ่อนโยนอีกต่อไป ดังนั้นฉันหวังว่าคุณจะสนุกกับมันในขณะที่ดำเนินต่อไป. “คุณน่าดึงดูดเกินไป”)
“If I took a single step away, that would be my answer. We'd go back to how things were, to a place where I felt safe, no matter how long it took.
"Five."
"Four."
"Three."
But... if I just turned around...
That would be my answer, too.
What we have wouldn't just be words and paper anymore. We'd become something real, something tangible.
"Two.'
"One."”
(THE REAL START LETS BE HONEST)
“Our hands held tightly together, we looked into each other's eyes nd smiled, as if the universe had paused.
As if our entire lives had led to this moment.
To meet you.
.. .
"Nice to love you."
"Nice to love you too.”
(Oh…my ship has sailed. ในที่สุดมันก็เกิดขึ้น)
“I paused, warmth spreading through my chest. It feels so good when someone talks about a future that includes you.”
(THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE. PREACH IT LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK)
“This guy... if I'm not mistaken...Tiger.”
(P’TIGERRRR. รายการโปรด? อะไร เลขที่ (most definitely))
“As for Tiger's question, it didn't feel like he was expecting an answer. It was more like he was asking just to ask.
"Did you know Typhoon is terrified of the dark? Because of you."
“...please..."
"You should experience it for yourself. Maybe then you'll understand how terrifying darkness can be."”
(Honestly this whole scene was so nice to see. From P’Tiger stepping in for his Father perfectly, not bothers. P’Johan who was just pissed that P’North got a mere scratch. To P’Fah who was ready to just kill the mean for what he had put P’Phoon through. มันอาจจะทำให้เขาตาบอดถาวร. But honestly thats still too kind.)
“"Stay away! If you can see ghosts, I don't want to play along anymore.” North quickly retreated after smacking Daotok, who pouted at him immediately.
"I'm going to have Mary scare you tonight, North."
"Who the hell is Mary?! Don't do this to me, man!" North clung to my arm tightly. As l've said before, North is absolutely terrified of ghosts. It's his ultimate fear, making his usual bravado crumble into pieces.”
(to have a friend group like this 55555)
“"What if I had walked away that day on the bridge, when you asked me to date you?" I asked.
"I told you before, I'd wait until you were comfortable, no matter how long it took," he said.
"Even a year?"
"Yes.'
"Two years?"
"Yes."
"Five years?"
"Yes."
"Ten years?"
"Yes.”
"That's a bit much, don't you think?" I teased.
"I'm serious. Back then, I had already decided that it had to be you.
As long as we kept talking, even if it took years, I'd graduate, become a doctor, and write letters to you again.”
(My kind of standards in a man..)
“"More like a cat. The most stubborn one ever."
"I'm not stubborn."
"Stubborn cat."
"I'm not a cat. And I'm not stubborn."
"Cat."
"Yes?"
"Wait, didn't you just say you're not a cat? Why'd you respond to that, then?"”
(แมว~)
“"But I do want to live a long life," Arthit said. "Even though I drink, smoke, and drive recklessly, I also exercise."
"Does exercise cancel everything out?" | asked.
"Yeah, lifting weights cures cancer," Arthit joked.
"Classic med student logic," Hill said, sighing deeply.”
(All med students but still have horrible habits 5555)
“"Jealous much?"
"Of course. My boyfriend's so cute."
"Too bad, though. You don't get to be jealous since I take care of it all." I grinned. He chuckled softly and gently squeezed my cheek.
"You're killing me here. I love you so much it's unbearable."
"Then don't bear it. Just love me more."
"I can't love you more. I've already reached my limit. I love you so much I could die."
"If you die from loving me, I'll bring you back to life to love me again."
"So you're not letting me go, huh?"
"Never letting go."
"Alright, then. I won't go anywhere."
"Neither will I."”
(WHAT A CUTE WAY TO END IT. ละเลยฉาก NC ก่อนหน้านั้น...Honestly the author does a great job of ending the books, and writing them as well)
See you in the next review~~