The Scream Behind Her Smile by Athena Daniels. SPOILER ALERT!!!
I received this book as an Arc and it was my first book by this author.
I have to say that this book grabs your attention from the first page and doesn't let up; but about half way through, I felt it was a bit repetitive on how many times Claire brought up her feelings about Zach. I mean I get it, she's only been in one relationship her whole life and he's a scumbag but it felt like it went on and on about her feelings for him. Then the sex scenes were just too over the top. I don't mind sex scenes or any type of intimate passion/romance in a book but I just couldn't find it in me to love this book because I felt like it drug on and on and so repetitive that I almost decided to read a diff book but it takes quite a lot for me to DNF (did not finish) a book. I did finish the book and I'm glad I stuck with it because it did pick back up, granted some of the parts were dragging and repetitive but I pushed through to find out the ending.
I did want to give Derek an intense throat punch for being such a prick to his wife. Controlling her to the point of taking full control of her bank accounts, her business, her credit cards, her home by giving her a unfathomable ultimatum. I was literally seething inside thinking how twisted this guy is to be so cruel to his own wife for nothing she did at all, but for his infidelity and benefit!! Disgusting! Then he's always taking Jasmine's side on everything no matter what and making Claire out to be a jealous unstable woman, stating several times that she's not been the same since she hasn't been taking her meds. Meds that make her numb to everything, even too numb to think she's the crazy one for being so upset over Jasmine. All I can say is WOW!
Jasmine is on a whole nother level. Can I say barbaric, vindictive, conniving hussy!!? She purposely antagonized Claire since the day she showed up at her front door. Acting all innocent and sweet but then 2 minutes into the front door, she's babbling on and on about Derek and rubbing everything into Claire's face...being overly flirtatious with Derek, Touching his arm, his thigh, & giggling like a school girl when she and Derek were reminiscing old times....shaking her ass in the thong swim suit giggling to Derek to come swim with her, intentionally making her proximity to Derek as close as she could, being brash to try to keep Claire out of the conversation, telling Claire that she's "just old friends" with Derek and that she shouldn't be so uptight about her. Basically laughing in her face because Derek didn't fight off the seductiveness she was giving and she enjoyed hurting Claire as much as she could.
B*tch please!!! I would've grabbed her up by the hair from the pool, dragging her to my front door and then would've literally slung the homewrecking wh*re out my front door and told her to stay off my property or else next time I wouldn't be just throwing her out the door but something much worse! Then I would've told Derek if he didn't like it, he could pack his shit and leave with her since he's so effing oblivious to the trash he allowed into their lives, and how obsessed he is with every single thing about her. Also since he can't stand by his wife over some "old floozy/friend" and not try to comfort her when she needed confirmation that she wasn't in-denial or crazy about that Savage woman and her motives.
Darn right, I would've told him to get the eff out!!!.. Probably a bit more than just that, but you get the gist. Lol
But thats not even all...the pregnancy! What a gut punch! That made me mad for Claire. Oh and her "so-called" best friends needed to be thumped hard for not believing in Claire and supporting her through the most horrific thing in her life since her daughter Katie died. True friends don't care what you've done wrong, if it's your fault or not, if you're a basket case and don't realize it yet, they don't judge you or your issues/problems, and they most certainly don't defend a man over you! They just cowardly dropped her like she had an infectious contagious disease and stood behind Derek and Jasmine!!! Seriously? I wanted Claire to punch them in the face for being such weak minded hypocrites!
I want to love this books because it brought out so many emotions in me and had me seething inside on some things Claire had to put up with and deal with but the overall repetitiveness and dragging scenes of her feelings made me go a bit lower than I wanted. But I will try another book by this author for sure. Would recommend to any readers out there that like a romance/suspense book. #TheScreamBehindHerSmile #Netgalley #SunsetCoastPublishing