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158 pages, Hardcover
First published January 1, 1902
The Spring
He told her what he was going to do.
What else is new? she said.
She finished putting the winter jumper on the baby. She kissed and hugged her.
He stood there like he stood at the corner of the world.
I told you, she said, what you do is your business. You don't have any here.
He held out his trembly hand to the baby.
The baby looked at it like she might look at cold chicken.
Baby, he said weakly.
Uummgh, the baby said, and she hugged her mother.
There wasn't much on the other side of his fate except the usual wreckage.
Go on, he said again. She’s probably there. She’ll tell you.
I know what she'll say. The usual shit. Go to hell, she said. Right now.
Go hell, the baby said.
There wasn't anything to say anymore.
Might as well talk to the fucking sky.
He tried one more time though. What are you going to do? he said.
She didn't hesitate . I'll call the fucking cops if you don’t leave right now, she said.
Rye now, the baby said.
His head spun down from the larger circle.
The spiral became small. Then smaller and tight. Like a spring.
Please don't do that, he said. His voice quavered. Please just listen.
He felt like the coiled spring was in his hand.
It made his whole arm tremble.
The baby was now fully dressed and mother and child moved toward the door.
Please leave, he heard his ex - wife say.
You must try, the counselor had said. Forgive yourself.
He had tried and he had tried and he had failed every task.
Keep a journal, the counselor had said. Do your fourth step.
Talk to your sponsor, keep talking, go to meetings, make amends.
He had tried and then he had not tried.
Keep failing, keep failing, and finally you will have what you do not.
Finally you will have what you do not have.
The end of the world will be yours.
When the police came, he stood outside the door. The spring loaded and ready.
"Indians" Wanted
Real or unreal.
Real and/or unreal.
They were made up.
It didn't matter.
They were what people in Europe believed.
They were what people in Europe wanted: to believe.
They were what people in Europe wanted. To believe.
Indians were what people in Europe wanted to believe. Indians were what people in Europe wanted to believe. Indians were what people in Europe wanted to believe.
"Indians" were what people in Europe wanted to believe.
"Indians" were what Europeans wanted. To believe.
"Indians" were what Europeans believed.
"Indians were what Europeans believed."
Believe it or not. Believe it or not. Believe it or not. Believe it or not! Believe it or not!
Your Life You Are Carrying
This is the dirt.
This is the land.
This is ours.
This is our land.
Reach down.
Touch the dirt.
Touch the land.
Pick up the dirt.
Pick up the land.
Dirt you are holding.
Land you are carrying.
Your life you are carrying.
This is what I am showing and telling you.
This is what I am telling and showing.
Like other colonized Indigenous peoples, cultures, and communities throughout the world, Native Americans have experienced and endured identities imposed upon them by colonial powers, most of which originated in Europe. This imposition as resulted to a great extent--more than we admit and realize--in the loss of a sense of a centered human self and the weakening and loss of Indigenous cultural identity.