Plot spoilers ahead. Read at your own risk.
There were a lot of things about this story that I didn’t care for and very few things that I did. At times I did have to skim through because I was bored and found it very hard to connect with. I didn’t get the feels like I was expecting to get. It very much had this one track (or more accurately two) track mind, and it didn’t fluctuate from that, which made it less exciting for me. It seemed to repeat the same cycle over and over and by the middle I was over it. I just needed more, and I just didn’t get it.
The biggest issue with this story was that it had a trope in it that I just don’t care for and just didn’t like. It was a typical trope that is used quite a deal in Harlequin Presents, but whenever it contained that I tended not to that story. It’s very rare that I feel like this trope was executed well enough for me that it did not diminish the romance for me. And i have always had this issue with the trope for years and years ever since I started reading Presents in the first place.
What trope is this you ask?
It’s the stranger/one night stand the resulted in a baby trope. I just can’t can’t stand it. Though it was a little different in this was a two night stand/vacation fling, it’s still the same idea in my mind. I just don’t like that insta lust and gave into it immediately with the only focus being on slaking their lust for each other. I know it’s meant to show how much desire and attraction they have for each other that they just can’t help themselves, but that’s almost too easy. There was no build up or anticipation to it. And I love the build up and anticipation part of the story. It was what I want when I go on the romantic journey with the characters. I want to fell that attraction continue to grow and build as they get to know each other more until they could stand it no longer and they had to give into their passions for one another. For me it’s about daily satisfaction instead of instant gratification like it was in this story. I want to the denial and the fight between the characters as they deal with the immense chemistry that they have. I love stories like that.
In this case in particular, Matilda and Enzo were on a tropical island with him being there for business while she was on vacation with each other. Their eyes met and boom lust city. He followed her after feeling this burst of chemistry between them, then before I knew it there were knocking boots, though it was told in flashback format so I couldn’t see the beginning, middle, and end of the encounter, and thus they began a hot two day affair. I’m sorry what’s the fun of that. There was no journey. There was no build up. There was nothing really exciting because they gave into their passions to each other. It was just too quick for me. I want something more of satisfying than that. It’s like the saying goes “good things come to those who wait”, but Matilda and Enzo didn’t wait, and that was boring to me. Anyone could do that, and in my view it made it less special.
Another thing was the fact that this was told all in flashback when they had their fling wasn’t that exciting either because nothing was shown aside from what they did to each other physically. There were no feeling presented, or head spaces revealed at the time. It was just this was what happened and that was it. The referred to multiple times that they were together during that two day period. Well, why couldn’t that be the focus, instead of jumping four years into the future? Even though I hate the whole fling aspect, I would have preferred to see its entire arc instead of getting snippets here and there. It took away the importance of the time they had together, or what made it so special that they just couldn’t resist each other that they had to be together at that moment right then right now. None of that was shown, and I wanted shown so I could get the full picture of it all. I just felt like I was missing something.
Then the fact that this little fling between them resulted in a child just really set me over the edge. I know that because they had a child together was what brought them together again so they could get their second chance together, but I feel like a million other Presents do that, and I wanted something different that stood out. It wasn’t unique enough for me to be invested in their story. Nothing special. The same ho hum feeling that I usually get when this type of thing is in a story. It just another pet peeve of mine.
What I did find unique about the situation when Matilda and Enzo were reunited again was the fact that she was married. Yes, that was very unique and different from any Presents I had read in the past, but I personally did like it. It was almost too extreme in the unique scale for me, which I know was contrary to what I said above, but I just didn’t like that aspect. Even though her marriage was in name only with no love between them, it still bothered me. It was slightly on the edge of cheat even though nothing majorly physical happened between Matilda and Enzo until she was divorced, but it still tainted it a little bit for me. If she was just engaged to the guy or seeing him, I would felt differently and wouldn’t have gave me the unsavory vibe that I got, but she was married, and it crossed a line a little bit for me.
Once Matilda and Enzo rekindled their relationship, I felt there wasn’t a lot to their relationship aside from anger and lust. The anger and lust were connected to each other. It was like he was angry with her but he still wanted to rip her clothes off, and that cycle would repeat for a majority of the book. The same could be said for her, she would get angry with him, fight back, but then she wanted to rip his clothes off two, and they would go at it. It became same thing over and over again with out little substance to their relationship. They started building anything of their relationship or intimacy until nearly the end because they were so focus on the anger and their lust. That was the crux of their relationship. There were never really and sweet and endearing moments together until the end. By that time it was little late in the game for me to believe that they were deeply in love with other. Did they have an insane connection to each other since they met? Yes, but in my mind it was more physically based that bored on obsession, and I did like that. I wanted some more emotional stuff to balance out the physically stuff. I needed intimacy in all forms in a relationship that builds and grows and develops over the course of the book, and not just in the end. There just needed to be more there for me.
I will say that the love scenes were pretty hot and steamy. Those moments they had together showed off how much chemistry that they had for each other. Their passion really flowed off the pages until it consumed me in fire. It really did show off that the connection they had was consuming and overwhelming and hard to control. Every time they touched, they set each other on fire. It was intense. And that was the part of their relationship that worked really well. But for me that wasn’t enough? There needed to be more than that even in their love scenes. I think there needed to be a more emotionally intimate love scene between them where I could see their bodies, minds, and hearts meeting and becoming one. More to show that they had more than just the physical going on in their relationship. At least one scene in a bed, at least, not everywhere else, with a lovely aftermath scene. Is that too much to ask? I don’t think so. I need to see the contrast between just the physical loves scenes and the emotional love scenes.
On a related note, I didn’t care for at all of how she was using their chemistry and attraction in order to control him. She even admitted that she was doing that and what she was doing to get the power in a relationship. And he would do the same thing too at certain points. It was such a manipulation on both their parts that it left a sour taste in my mind. It was all about the power struggle in their relationship for a majority of the book, and that’s typical of romance novels, but those novels come off as fun and playful and very cat and mouse like that it was a joy to read about. it was fun and entertaining and part of the ride. But in this story, it didn’t feel like that at all. It just felt manipulative and wrong especially when they admit that was exactly what they were doing. Like no.
Though I found it very interesting that Enzo was royalty of an island meant to be king one day until the people overthrew his family and threw him out of his country, I didn’t care for him as a person. I understand why he had the reaction that he did when he found out Matilda kept their son away from him for four years, but I couldn’t get over his attitude. He seemed to have to feelings for most of the book and that was anger and lust. If he wasn’t angry then he was lusting after her. That would be all he displayed. Yes, there were layers explored of why he was the way he was with part of it being kicked off his country and loosing his identity, but even stiff he was just a little much and rubbed me the wrong way. And some things he did were not cool. However, he did show his humanity when Matilda was talking to him at the memory about feeling unwanted, and then when she was trying to wedding dresses and realizing that he couldn’t do this because she was pandering to him like his mother would do to his father, and he didn’t like that. That was when I got a glimmer of feeling that he had for her. That he might have actually cared about her, but that happened way too late in my opinion. It needed to come out sooner and not in the shape of anger or lust. Something else beyond that.
I wish more their journey towards each other was shown more than the physical side. For example, I think it should have been more played up of her feeling of being unwanted for most of her life. It was touched on a tad, but most of it was internalized and never fully explained the extent of damage that was done to her by feeling that way in her life. Yes, they had the scene at the mirror where she explained it to him, and he did realize all the hurt feelings she had at those beliefs about herself, but I think more could have been done with the issue and also a lot sooner. I just thought it was a missed opportunity there as they created more intimacy between them by understanding each other better. Yes, they had their moments, but I wish there were more of those and less of physical. I wanted to see them grow emotionally closer together just like they were doing physically. And that just didn’t happen here.
However, the small intimate scenes between them like at the mirror were my favorite part of the entire story. I wanted see the building blocks of their relationship to grow so they could have this happy and healthy relationship together. There were sparks there that showed them connect on those intimate levels, and I wanted more of those. I wanted more romances. I wanted more date nights, or even the bonding as they spent time with there son. Just anything that would increase the intimacy between them then I would have felt different about them as a couple and enjoyed their romance more. It was there in those moments that were shown in the story, but it wasn’t carried through the entire story. Those were the moments that highlighted the potential they had as a couple.
Personally I thought he should have groveled a little bit more in the end especially after he promised her that he wouldn’t let her go and she would always be with him. Now he let her go for an altruistic reason, and the best reason of all, but I still think he could have done a little more to apologize for breaking his promise to her especially knowing her vulnerability of feeling unwanted then he did the same thing. So, I think there should have been more of grand gesture there in my opinion aside from saying that he loved her and why he did what he did when he rejected her. But to be fair, she forgave him. I just think she should have made him work for it a little bit more than he did. It was almost to easy as easy as it was on the island when the succumbed to their passions. I wanted more of that pay off.
I had some issues with this story that made me not entirely sold on the story as a whole. It was missing things for me that it very hard to back the romance between Matilda and Enzo. There were just not the couple for me. And overall I just didn’t care for the romance between the two of them. It was very disappoint romantic read for me.
Out the Harlequin Presents written by Jackie Ashenden that I have read thus far, this was my least favorite of hers. For a majority of the book, I just didn’t care for it. I couldn’t connect to it. There were far more things that I didn’t like compared to what I did like. The other two books that I read from her were so much better in my opinion. I connected to them so much more with them than I did this one. Those stories gave me tons of feels while this one did not. There was just a lack of connection with me from this story that dampened me enjoyment of it.