“My father had a small boat back home, we fished from the river there. Here, I fished on a large boat on the ocean. I remember the sound of the gulls fishing for the guts of fish that we threw back into the ocean. The smell of blood and salt. I gutted thousands of fish per day, my boots deep into the cold water. The blood from the boat left a red trail on the sea.”
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“She said she had seen a black car on the street. I looked out the window and showed her the empty street. But she didn't believe me. She took my father's knife from the kitchen and put its edge on her wrist.
She pressed the tip on her pale skin. I grabbed her by her wrists and twisted her arms. She didn't drop the knife.
I pushed her on the floor and fell on top of her.
A sharp pain pointed to my armpit. My blood stained her summer dress.”
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“Some of the notebooks were thrown into the river. Some of them were lost in a flood.
Now, I write my notes in a very small handwriting that only I can read.
Some nights I dream I am on my father's boat and I'm fishing my old notebooks from the bottom of the river.”
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“The control room was blue. The paint peeled on its walls. There were still desks in the blue room, a dilapidated sofa, two chairs.
The room's big windows were covered with old newspapers.
Inside the desk drawers, there were cigarettes, coffee mugs, spoons. Whatever the reason was, people had left the place quickly, leaving their traces everywhere behind them.
I unzipped the sleeping bag and spread it on the floor. I offered her bread from my knapsack. After eating, she took off her pants. We went to sleep with our jackets covering us, our legs rubbed.”
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“When I was a kid, my mother used to take me to the public bath early in the mornings. The cold mornings, the river frozen, asphalt cracked, me and her walked through a tunnel of snow. After the tunnel, I knew the bath was waiting for me, the warmth of the steam, the smell of soap, the female bodies through the fog. My body would go numb with the sudden change of temperature. I soaked myself in the small pool and sat on the big white stone until my mother would rub me with her wash cloth, something growing in the pit of my stomach. I felt like I was falling, not wanting anyone to grab me.”
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“First I thought he was the contact, but then he had the policeman's face. We were on my father's boat fishing from the river. I heard his husky voice from beneath the water, his words bubbling out of the surface. I pulled out my fishing rod. His head started to come out of the water. His eyes were shut. The hook stuck out of his gums.”
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“Lobsters mate after the female molts. Before that stage the female releases pheromones into the water to let nearby males know she is preparing to molt and mate. If there are multiple males interested in the female, they will fight each other for her. The lobster that wins the fight will take the female into his cave and protect her from predators. The male turns her over gently and pierces her abdomen with his first pair of pleodods.”