This is one of the books that helped me make it through college without leaving the church. It was a very difficult time.
Now is also a difficult time; a time when I stopped watching the local Mass because of some remarks of the associate pastor before Easter about how stupid our civil leaders are for putting so many restrictions into place that prevent the public celebration of Mass and the sacraments.
My sister found a livestreamed Mass celebrated by a priest whose Latin Mass we attended for several years, but I found it hard to recognize him. Honestly I don't remember many of his sermons.
I watch Masses from my childhood parish, a beautiful church in Chicago, although sometimes I turn the volume down during the sermon if I don't want to hear anything about the pandemic or some weird metaphor or fable related to it.
I have been reading a letter every night for the last couple months, and there are only 58 letters, so now I'm done. He is very warm, very wise, and very kind. Most of these letters were written to lay women, and they are amazing and stand out because so much of classic Catholic spirituality wasn't written for us, it was written for monks and nuns. The Imitation of Christ and Interior Castle contain many things that are not useful to us, and even harmful.
But as for what spiritual needs we have now, in the middle of May, when some places are loosening restrictions even though the death toll keeps rising, this is from letter 57:
"Now, the will of God shows itself in two ways, by necessity and charity. I want to preach this Lent in a small corner of my diocese. If, however, I get ill or break my leg, I must not be grieved or disquieted because I cannot preach; for it is certainly the will of God that I should serve him by suffering and not by preaching."
"Spiridion, an ancient bishop, having received a pilgrim almost dead with hunger during Lent, and in a place in which there was nothing but salted meat, had some of this cooked and offered it to the pilgrim. The pilgrim was unwilling to take it in spite of his great necessity. Spiridion had no need of it, but he ate some first for charity, in order to remove by his example the scruple of the pilgrim. Here was a charitable liberty in this holy man."
St. John the Baptist "stayed... there in the desert, without going even once to see our Savior. Then he remains elsewhere to catechize, without going to Our Lord, and waits for Him to come. Afterward, having baptized our Lord, he does not follow Him, but stays to do his own work. Oh God! What a mortification of spirit! To be so near his Savior and not to see Him! To have Him so near and not to enjoy Him! And what is this but to have the heart free from all, even from God himself, to do the will of God and to serve Him? To leave God for God, and not to love God, in order so much the better and more purely to love Him! This example overwhelms my soul with its grandeur.
"I forgot to say that the will of God is known not only by necessity and charity, but by obedience, so that he who receives a command must believe that it is the will of God for him to obey it."