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322 pages, Paperback
First published November 22, 2016
So . . . Bender. I have incredibly mixed feelings about this book. Overall, it was one of my least favorite reading experiences ever.
" I’ve loved you three times before Riley Dawes. And we’ve never had a happy ending, not on the shores of the Nile Delta in Ancient Egypt when you could have been queen, not at the end of the Renaissance in Italy when we were both men whose passion had to remain unseen, and not during the late twentieth century in the city of Pittsburgh when you turned out to be so mean. "
Let's start with the Setting.
Each of the 4 lifetime's settings were very easy to digest, without getting any of them mixed up in your head. You could recognize the consistence of the different locations without having to go through info dumps, besides the necessary descriptions.
I especially liked the technological creations in the futuristic Argentina, such as the synchons and auto-service tables. I have some issues with the spiral elevator though, that one needs more work. None of the tech advancements seemed too impossible to believe either, so it was good that it felt closer to reality.
The Writing.
I liked Rigby's prose well enough, but more often than not, the words felt forced or overdone, as if the author was trying too hard to make sentences sound pretty.
Sometimes it seemed as if Rigby was trying to be profound or poetic, but again, since the writing style was overdone, the meaning doesn't really come across as I think the author would have hoped. Here's a few examples . . .
" I had taken her heart and microwaved it. I had caused it to explode, the bombs I’d dropped going back in time and falling upon my car before I ever slammed into hers. I was erasing myself from her life, from the rest of her existence. "
What does it even mean to microwave a heart?!? And how is that an analogy to heartbreak?? The rest of it is just . . . very bumpy.
" When I closed my eyes, all I could picture was a massive gathering of women surrounding the four walls of where we laid within, their arms ripping off their heads as they thrust their bosoms forward, throwing their skulls against us, their hips gyrating as they screeched in dismay, cursing the sexual contemplations Ciro and I had been arguing about. I wept. "
I don't know about you, but I wouldn't have just "wept", I would've been too horrified of that whole image to fall asleep ever again. •_•
" She did not speak once the slivers of deceased faded trees rested in her hands "
" By professing my confessions to Desiree, regardless of whether or not they were true, I aimed to build a horizontal dam, a means of stopping the flood from coming forth along the rivers, the lakes, and the creeks surging as one, drumming repetitively. Little did I know I was constructing my unnatural feat of humanity along the edges of the ocean. "
. . . See what I mean with trying to sound pretty?
My brain is too tired to even understand that last part . . . Also, "deceased faded trees" is apparently a fancy way of saying "paper" I just— 😐
There's a whole lot more of those eyebrow-raising phrases throughout the book. I'm not sure how I even survived it all.
But it wasn't all bad. There were quite a few undeniably great lines in there, such as this gem here . . .
" Fighting an urge was noble if the impulse was a wicked one, but denying a longing that was driven by a rightful passion should never be chased away from existence, especially if the only reason for its trepidation was caused by the confused misery of strangers. "
Some parts of this book truly were profound though, and made me sob, but they were generally sad crying or angry crying.
Now, the Characters. ‼️Spoilers ahead‼️
I guess the thing that really drove me crazy during this whole experience was the way each story began. The gist of it all : Love at First Sight. **shudders**
I do not understand the author's obsession with physical appearances. As if physical attraction was the founding connection between all of the characters, across all lifetimes.
I cannot even tell you how many times I cringed and gagged from all of the "love at first sight" and "you're so perfectly perfect" twaddling, yikes 🤮
But it wasn't just that love at first sight was a trope here; the constant and sometimes insistent descriptions of physical beauty can be found throughout the book, as if there to remind the reader that that's how their relationships began, and would continue to exist, as long as they were "gorgeous" to look at (the word 'gorgeous' alone appears about a hundred times in this story *_*)
There were even instances when the character would use the word 'monster' or 'deformed' in such a way that truly cemented their beliefs in physical perfection. **and I cringe again as I type all that** 😖
ALSO:::
Did I say I cringed a lot with all the love at first sight stuff? WELL. How many times, in how many books, in how many kinds of stories . . . must a GIRL notice . . . how perfect . . . a MAN'S MUSCLES ARE??!?!
Not only that, but the man complimenting his own muscles as well, as if he couldn't believe he was built so prettily too??? 🤮🤮🤮
Moving on . . . It definitely bothered me that some of the characters' manner of speech did not reflect their era nor their personalities.
The most jarring of all was Reed from 1980s Pittsburgh. He was an absolute arrogant jerk-face, and yet he spoke as if he rehearsed a proper monologue, or he was reading a very old book, interspersed with curses (which were shockingly the only appropriate parts of his speech).
Another one that'll have you wide-eyed-and-head-tilted was 12-year-old Roberto, speaking like the wisest old man there ever was . . . It was so weird •_•
But enough with the cringing!
The characters from Ancient Egypt and Florence were my favorites to read; Rashida & Chathis offering the most dramatic events in the book, while Renzen & Ciro had the most conflict, both internally and externally.
The couple from Pittsburgh annoyed me to no end – both Reed and Claire being the most selfish and vainest people in existence, ignoring the impending consequences of their decisions for as long as they possibly could (I pretty much wanted to skip this chapter every time just to get to the next one in Argentina, where the story indeed made the most progress).
I liked Riley & Catherine's connection, mostly because they weren't love at first sight, but rather curiosity at first sight. Sure, they still ogled each other's beauty, but that wasn't the point. Their chemistry was enough to entice, although their relationship felt at times forced, simply because of the fact they knew they had met in previous lives before, and from mere curiosity on Riley's part. Their love story was the least developed because their chapters were focused more on explaining and moving the entire story forward.
The idea of reincarnation was a bit lost on me though, in a weird sort of way.
I knew the characters were supposedly transcendences of the same soul, but that's just it : Besides their names always beginning with the same letter, and the colors of their hair never-changing . . . there wasn't much resemblance with the characters' personalities to connect them with one another. Where was the essence of the one soul that could be found in each persona? Please don't tell me it was that R could never drive, or C could never swim – those were merely technical skills (or lack thereof), not things that truly make up a character. Each incarnation was inexplicably different in comparison with the rest, so it was a little hard to believe they were actually rebirths rather than potential realities.
I did love the wide range of emotions Bender explored with its characters nonetheless, from the highest of blisses to the internal chaoses to the lowest of hopelessnesses.
However, I do wish there were POVs from the C characters as well – I found them interesting enough to want to see into their minds too. I especially wanted to know more about Ciro's fears and how they ultimately break him, and how Catherine's memories of her past lives affected how she lived in the present, and her search for Riley.
And this brings me to some unanswered questions . . .
What keeps bringing these two souls together? Out of all of the people they've met in each lifetime, was it really just the two of them who keep meeting? Was there a purpose in them meeting only to tragically end every time? If they finally lived happily ever after, would that then become their last lives?
Also, how was Bender even invented? (And how were they able to build it entirely and make it function perfectly within just two years?) ((Also, why was the machine named "Bender"? Is it bending anything??))
Plus, I'd like to know how Chathis (and the Pharaoh) reacted to Rashida's death as well. What became of Renzen since the demons outside had finally clawed at his courage? How had Claire come to forgiveness in the end? I'd also like to find out what happened with Catherine's Andromeda mission; did they find what they were looking for? Was she able to communicate with Riley (or Earth) after that?
And lastly, was the final chapter in the book THE chapter that R & C have been waiting for? . . . or am I merely overthinking it and the final chapter was in fact just an open ending? 😅
The more I think about Bender, the more I find it to really be a good study of love and relationships, and of course societal history toward these, which always fills me with so much anger towards humanity and all of the injustice they used to condone (and sometimes still do).
" I try to tell myself even the most horrible things that happen in life do so for a reason. It’s the only way I can find any justice in the universe. "
Reading aftereffect : This book made me want to strive to be an even kinder person.
I just cannot shake how outrageously frustrated it made me feel while reading. It's not a bad book, I simply did not like how mostly negative my experience with Bender was. Like I said, mixed feelings.
I received an ARC from BookSirens in exchange for an honest review.