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Finding Nirvana

(Black Shamrocks MC #5)

4.40  ·  Rating details ·  305 ratings  ·  51 reviews
His darkness has consumed him.
Is she the light that he needs?

Joel O’Brien has been drafted into a fight he doesn’t believe in. While the Black Shamrocks MC is doubling down for the final battle in the war they’ve been waging with Thomas Taylor and the Mavericks of Mayhem, Joel dreams of a different life. One where his family is intact and the Club no longer exists.

Kindle Edition, 284 pages
Published October 25th 2016 by DyMi Ink
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Paula White
Jan 20, 2017 rated it really liked it
It was sad, happy and bittersweet. Loved the ending but I still wanted more! Saw there is a book coming on the 1st generation but I would love to see the next generation and what happens to the two younger brothers.
Jan 14, 2017 rated it it was amazing
my eyes hurt from reading this story I'm really sad what happen to Benji like are you kidding me there was a whole book about him I grown a connection with him he was getting his happy ending and turning his whole life around with Lacey and his family I'm even more sad that the book is done I want to know more about Kyle and if Lacey would turn back to her old way or she'll find someone new and how Sascha and her mother rekindle their relationship a lot of things i want to know but let me stop ...more
Nov 20, 2016 rated it it was amazing
What a fantastic end to the Black Shamrocks MC series!!!!

While this is Joel and Sascha's story, it is so much more. Fans of this series have been waiting for a long time to see how Kylie Hillman would would wrap things up. And, IMO, she did a fantastic job. I wasn't far in when I was first in tears and that definitely wasn't the only time I cried in this book. There are many twists and turns but the author keeps things pretty well on track and she manages to tie up a lot of loose ends in this
Laura Lee
Nov 27, 2016 rated it really liked it
I never wanted this day to say that I finished reading this wonderful series. This series has been one high and one low...the most thrilling of all rollercoaster rides.

Finding Nirvana, is Joel and Sascha's story with so so much more! Joel, the cripple, the silent one redeems himself in this book! If you didnt already have feelings of love for him before, you will!!! Sascha, the Therapist that is going to fix Joel, already broken herself from a life of lies and now being a single
Elizabeth Horbaczek
Dec 08, 2016 rated it it was amazing
This book was given to me for an honest review.

5 stars

This was final book of this series. I just have to say it was epic as all the other books in this series. If you had any doubt that it would not live up to expectations, you were wrong. This series has come full circle with this book and I am so glad that I got to read it. This is Joel and Sacha's pov, but it tells the story of everyone in this series. You get all the eye opening information that was told throughout the book. No more secrets
Zara Lethallan
Dec 05, 2016 rated it really liked it
After the fourth book ended, I thought we could be reading more of Maddi's and Miks story. But that is not the case instead we get to read the story in Joel's point of view. Along with the newest character Sascha and I can honestly say that the first chapter to this book torn my heart out. Especially after everything that we have been through with the characters. But that is usually the case with dark romances. You don't read frilly romances with rainbows in the sky. You read a book that is dark ...more
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Nickie Sale
Oct 15, 2017 rated it it was amazing
An explosive finale to the series. This book brings together Joel a character who until now has remained very much in the background of the series and a new character Sascha, who finds herself thrown back into "the bikers" lifestyle, a lifestyle which she wants to stay away from. Circumstances and the aftermath of book 4 throw Joel & Sascha together, you see the pair trying to avoid the attraction they feel for each other. Sascha just wants to do her job and is unaware of just who Joel is, ...more
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Review by: Melanie
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Finding Nirvana starts exactly where book 4 finished, with the club being attacked in a bloody, brutal, catastrophic way. I swear, I must have cried maybe six times just reading the first half dozen chapters. Heartbreaking. Nothing else to describe it really. Once the wounded are ready to leave hospital, the Shamrocks put together a plan of action to take down the Mavericks of Mayhem, their traitorous ex-president, and the man who has caused them nothing but grief for
Dec 18, 2016 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Finding Nirvana starts exactly where book 4 finished, with the club being attacked in a bloody, brutal, catastrophic way. I swear, I must have cried maybe six times just reading the first half dozen chapters. Heartbreaking. Nothing else to describe it really. Once the wounded are ready to leave hospital, the Shamrocks put together a plan of action to take down the Mavericks of Mayhem, their traitorous ex-president, and the man who has caused them nothing but grief for years, Thomas Taylor.

Christina Balaz
Sep 20, 2018 rated it it was amazing
After reading the first chapter my heart stopped and I almost didn’t want to go any further. After falling in love with these books and characters one by one, I didn’t think I’d be able to get further in the story. But needing to know what happens next had me turning pages anyway. This book had me to the edge of my seat, full of emotions and waiting for the next twist to pop up.
Kylie has done a phenomenal job with the last book in the series. It was what I hoped for and then some.
I loved the
Nov 21, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: arc
This is the final novel in the Black Shamrocks MC series. This book finalizes the culmination of all that has transpired over the entire series, even though it is Joel O'Brien's story. We were mildly introduced to Sascha in book 4, but we understand the pivotal role she plays in tying all the sub-plots together. This book, as with the others was very well written and a joy to read. This is a dark romance/erotica with some elements of violence. The main theme conveyed in all the books in this ...more
Sally J Anderson
Sep 09, 2019 rated it it was amazing
What a fantastic ending for the Blackshamrocks MC. Like the other books in this series it's gripping, full of danger, suspense, secrets, death, healing and love. Joel who's mentally and physically crippled finds Sascha, his physical therapist, just may be the answer to his loneliness and getting his body in better shape. Their love story along with Mad Dog and Lainey will have you in tears and laughter.
Kylie brought this series to an outstanding finale. Still hated to see it end.
Andrea Gillan
Nov 07, 2017 rated it really liked it
After war comes peace

Poor Joel he has been through so much and for what? His life is forever changed and he is struggling to get his head around the devastating effects of what has happened to his family. Sasha is a beautiful physio who is part of the end game to finish the was, but she becomes more.
Feb 18, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: read-2019
Great read... Don't limit yourself and think you are unfixable because you are... sometimes it just takes the right person to first fix your heart then your body.
This whole series was fantastic...if you're looking at this book but haven't read the others you need to go back to the beginning to truly understand. I'm going to miss this series and just hope the spin off (the next generation ) is just as good.
Robyn Shanks
Aug 08, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Final Time.

Joel lives his life in pain & anger. He's never going to be the man he was. He meets Sascha when he goes to see if she can help him. There's raw attraction between them but Joel's one angry man. I have so enjoyed this series that I don't want it to end. Love this author & I sure will be reading more of her books. Thanks.
Feb 02, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Another exciting reading experience that I'm glad I chose to read

This has been a very exciting series to read, and I'm hoping the rest will be just as interesting. Bravo Kylie Hillman
Aug 04, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Absolutely loved this series. Well written. Story flows well. Characters are lovable no matter what they do. One of the best MC Series I’ve read
Patty Brewer
Aug 25, 2017 rated it it was amazing
wow I love this series so much, I can't read fast enough, can't wait to find out what's going to happen next!
April Collins
Jan 23, 2019 rated it it was amazing
Tear jerker

I shed a few tears with this book. Tji gbs happened I didn't see coming but I'm glad the book gave the chance for this character to grow and get a chance at love.
Jun 06, 2018 rated it it was amazing
Emotional Rollercoaster

This series is unbelievable! The Shamrocks took me on an emotional ride in each book. You will not be disappointed!

Danena Freeman
Nov 22, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: mc
It was a great read. It has a story line full of twist and surprises and answers to questions from earlier books in the series. It was well worth the read. Rated very good
Tracey Zelukovic
Mar 14, 2017 rated it it was amazing
Love Joel, he has a kind heart and all he wanted was to be loved and he found it. I have loved this series, I WISH that this wasn't the last book and I have to say goodbye to a family, but I have enjoyed all the books and I love Kylie's writing.
Mar 05, 2017 rated it really liked it
Shelves: 2017-03-march
What an Amazing series!!! I'd heartily recommend this to anyone who likes a good story, lots of twists and turns and an author who doesn't hold back from making hard choices!!! I loved how dark matter wasn't glossed over, I felt satisfied by every conclusion, oh and the tragedy..: so well written!!!
Donna Parrott
Dec 06, 2016 rated it it was amazing
I really wish i could give this book more than a 5 Hashtags rating but i can't. I cried at the start, in the middle, and the end of this book. Probably in between that also. I just knew Kylie Hillman was going to go out with a bang when it came to the Black Shamrocks MC. And boy what a bang. So if you haven't read the other Black Shamrocks books please stop and go read them, you won't be disappointed.

This book is about Joel O’Brien, he was his family's voice of reason, the “quiet one”. He was
Feb 21, 2017 rated it really liked it
The second I put the last book down, I breathed deep, then picked this baby up and just started crying. Obviously with an MC no one is safe and no one will be around forever, but I didn't see that coming honestly. Mainly cause I've invested a lot of time getting to know these characters and feeling what they feel, so when the "shit goes down" I was stunned to stupid for a minute over it.
Now Joel has been the mystery to me. What he went through at the hands of the mavericks was unbelievable and
Jennifer Pierson
Dec 04, 2016 rated it it was amazing
Joel O'Brien has always been considered the quiet one in his family filled with hot heads, which also makes him the voice of reason most of the time. But that all changed after he was tortured at the hands of a brutal rival MC, making war on the Black Shamrocks MC. Now he only hears the "crippled one" being whispered with his name these days. It has left him wallowing in dark self pity, which keeps him from getting help. Sascha Koswalski is a responsible single mother, who spends her days ...more
Michelle Austin
Nov 09, 2016 rated it it was amazing

Finding Nirvana was a great 5 star read.
The book starts right where book 4 ended. Be prepared for an emotional read. After the attack, the club regroups and starts to plan revenge. Joel was unfortunately a victim of Mavericks of Mayhem, he was tortured to the point he is considered the “crippled one”. He is starting to go into a deep depression.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, or so it’s said. The day he walked-limped-into my clinic, there was no
Gretchen Anderson
WOW! This is quite a long series but it is absolutely FANTASTIC!!!!! From the beginning and learning of all the characters to the end…….just brilliant!!!!!

I love how the main story doesn’t change. The back story, for lack of better words, continues and flows throughout the series. But each book is somewhat about individual bikers. The romance part of them finding their woman changes per book. The way the author keeps the story and inserts different “lead” character’s in each book is simply
Dec 24, 2016 rated it it was amazing
I received this book as an ARC for an honest review.

It's taken me a few days to think about this review before I could even begin to write it. The reason for this was that when I started writing it, it meant that the story had ended.

This is Joel and Sascha’s story.

A story that begins in violence before they've even met and will have you reaching for the tissues and praying that you will be able to keep reading.

Joel has experienced horror and we know this from the previous books. I like Joel, I
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Kylie Hillman is an Australian author who writes bloodstained love stories and erotic, psychological thrillers (as K. Hillman). She intertwines grit, sarcasm, and romance in her tall tales.

Wife to a Harley riding, quintessential Aussie bloke and mum to two teens, Kylie splits her non-writing time between reading, sharing memes, avoiding black jelly beans, and lamenting her inability to drink a

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