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104 pages, Paperback
First published February 1, 1999
"Nevertheless, in my own stubbornly secular belief that those very books which we need most choose us, and not the other way around."The story is about the Rabbi of Bluzhov and a friend from Poland who are in a concentration camp. Over the loud speaker, they hear this message: "Each of you who values his miserable life must jump over one of the pits and land on the other side. For those who fail there is a surprise in store." After the message, they hear someone imitating the sounds of a machine gun and then their hear laughter.
She was someone about whom people remarked: She never seemed to find a life for herself. Or: Her life was the story of a long collapse, its end a dark, unlucky star she'd clung to hopefully for better or worse. Shortly after her death, we discovered...a large box containing countless bottles of lotions, powders, lipsticks, and oils. Many of them had never been opened, still others had barely been used...it occurred to me the box contained some version of herself, some representation of who she was- a stronger, more serene, more independent self?- that she'd never had the chance to become. Sorting through the contents it occurred to me: She once was becoming; she now ceased to become.Santos offers us a new way of looking at loss while at the same time sharing his personal experience of losing a loved-one to suicide.