4.75!!
i picked this book up on a whim when i saw it at an op shop & was really drawn to this cover design, and im so glad i did!
our main character Nell is so well written imo. i think so many novels published recently center around a 'messed-up woman,' and this characterisation can often come across as really over the top & unrealistic. it has definitely become a bit of a meaningless trope in recent times. but i think Samantha Byres has done an incredible job in writing a incredibly believable and relatable main character, who is really awful at many points during the story, but god i felt for her so much. there is so much empathy behind this characterisation. Nell was a fascinating point of view to read from, and she definitely embodied quite a few of my flaws, which is always lovely to read about. 🙈🙈
'Dead Ends' is quite loose in its timeline & structure, often flicking back and forth between past & present quite quickly. but i didnt find it at all confusing (as i often have with other books similar in structure). i think this loose structure worked incredibly seamlessly with a character returning to the small town she fled, as the audience gets to watch these old memories reemerge sporadically throughout her present timeline.
i think this book balances its many moving part really well, without sidelining or overemphasising certain parts of it. i also think its paced incredibly well for a story that is simultaneously a deep character driven story exploring a few months of a persons life, whilst also being a fascinating mystery that critiques small-town oppressiveness & misogyny. we spend enough time with all the different parts of the story that becomes a really satisfying whole. i absolutely loved the atmosphere created here. i cant describe it in words at all, but its one of my favourite styles of atmosphere yk???? loved the musing on spiritualism and the afterlife. im fascinated by stories surrounding it, but i also loved that its not a central focus of the story. i love a good exploration of grief & loss, and this one did it particularly well & uniquely. i really appreciated that we get quite a wide cast of characters that have all experienced and dealt with grief differently, and that theres not a preachy authors voice coming through condemning and championing different kinds of coping. the narrative voice is quite accepting & validading of all the different ways grief can manifest which is really cool to see in a single narrative.
ill be honest in saying the ending kinda confused me, and i had to go back and reread several parts of it to finally understand the whole picture, but i think it ended really well. it didnt dwell or pander, but answered many questions it had opened up throughout the narrative, and left off on a ambiguous but hopeful note for Nell.
my few critiques of this book are pretty superfluous in the grand scheme of things, but there is some turns of phrase & slang in here that feels a big dated (even though this book was only published last year!). and it doesnt feel entirely necessary to the wider story/characters as its not set in a specific year or period. definitely some cliches used here and there that feel a little cringy at times 😭😭😭. & not really a critique, but it suffers from that very common debut-novel-tone of trying really hard to be something. thats not necessarily a bad thing, but it meant that some of the writing came across a bit clunky and overthought, rather than being a bit more smooth & effortless. i can totally see past this tho considering the rest of the book was so incredible!! it was just something i noticed while reading!
i think i read this book at a really good time in my life. its something that will definitely linger in my mind for a while, and i know i will be desperate for a reread very soon. ive already broken out the old pen and paper to feverishly scribbly down some of my thoughts on it. but if you get the chance to read this book, i totally recommend it! i will defo be purchasing Samantha Byres' next book the second it releases. also omg the cover of this book is so gorgeous. i was interested in the blurb when i read it in the op shop, but it really was the cover that would not let me leave it behind!!