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160 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 2014

The silence, on the other hand, suggested unoccupied buildings about to be torn down. When I turned onto one of those streets on another occasion, I saw cables strung from some of the balconies to streetlights, stealing electricity. It was only a few, of course, but that didn't stop me from returning to the unlikely conviction that there were underground movements capable of modifying my mental vision of the city, and also the conception of it I read in newspapers, or saw on television and the Internet. This pretty vague conviction--or perhaps, better, off-track intuition--made me uneasy. If accurate, it was equivalent to discovering we were Martians, someone's dream, or a computer program in which the rules changed from day to day. But then the Romanies and homeless families had been occupying the city's empty buildings for decades, and since the increase in immigration, many dwellings on the outskirts had been broken into. I'd heard stories of family members being unable to come to an agreement about what to do with their inheritance, of empty properties perched on the slopes on either side of the railroad tracks, or boxed in between new buildings when, for complex legal reasons, they could not be expropriated. The heirs allowed homeless families to live in the disputed buildings for the cost of maintenance. At one time I'd taken an interest in uncovering such phenomena, and used to prowl the streets where the aged houses seemed to be fresh and flourishing, but that was all Id' been able to confirm.
Susana brought me a cup of rooibos tea in one of the cups with a cow design I cart from apartment to apartment. I'd bought them one of the summers I spent in small Irish towns, learning English with a view to my promising future. I stayed with families where the women had the same pale complexion as Susana, and her blue eyes, although none of them were either tall or corpulent. All I remember about Ireland is the coastal scenery between Greystones and Bray, and the afternoon some friends and I broke a window of a tumbledown empty house and scrambled in. There were no bats, no rat skeletons, just columns made of packs of A4 paper. The packs were old, the paper yellowing; we took as many as we could carry and scattered the sheets of paper along the beach. I haven't been back to Ireland since that summer.
What's more, I love it when breaches open up, and when things take an unexpected turn. I like it when the car breaks down halfway to my destination, and I have to spend the night in some small town I'd never have even considered stopping in otherwise, or when there's a power outage--though that hasn't happened for a long time--and the air is filled with the scent of candles and camping-stove fuel. I like lazing around in a blackout, spending two, four, six hours, a whole day, not doing any of the things I'd planned; it's when I'm closest to the keenness of the senses I had when I was younger.
in fiction everything is false, but i'm not referring to that type of falsity—i mean not respecting the coherence of the text. so to maintain the coherence of what i've written, i need this conversation to take place.