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Daire and Aspen
A biker, a girl, and a surprise baby. When you mess up so badly that she disappears on you, how do you win her back? First you have to find her...and that's the easy part.
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Published February 1, 2023
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January 4, 2024
This is my first disappointment for this authors books. I just could not like the hero. At first I was loving him but then the rejection of his child, his stalking her to get her to leave town and his use of the club hoes was just too much to recover from. I didn't care about him after that and its just a personal pet peeve of mine. I should have read a review before I read the book and then I would have never read it. I even read some of her Actual cheating books and they didn't upset me as much as this book. I would have had him get and std test for sure. And who cares if it was just Rage F@%#$. He still was with them. Still like the author. Just not this book and it is all on me for not reading reviews before I read it.
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January 4, 2024
This was entertaining but I felt like Daire changed so much he was a different person by the end.
Aspen meets Daire, the head of an MC, through her friend Molly who is dating his VP.
She's a virgin and looking to learn about sex from a guy who has the reputation of being the best.
He has gotten this reputation probably from the copious number of women he has had sex with. Each only lasts one month. But Apsen is cool with that because it's not about feelings.
But Daire keeps breaking his own rules with Aspen and their sexual agreement goes on for the better part of a year. Then the accidental pregnancy and Daire's raging meltdown.
It's HARSH! He's totally out of line and I could understand why Aspen was now scared of him.
She ends up running to the other side of the States, to get away from him.
But Daire finds her and then there's the long slow hash out of the reasons why etc.
I liked that Daire started getting therapy but I was not crazy with how he had access to so much money to toss at his problems.
This is why I don't like MC romances so much. There's that question about where the money comes from.
But anyways,
it was entertaining but the plot was too convenient and Daire's character does too much of a 180.
I didn't really feel the connection between them before it all went to hell.
Safety is not good as the author states in the intro.
Aspen meets Daire, the head of an MC, through her friend Molly who is dating his VP.
She's a virgin and looking to learn about sex from a guy who has the reputation of being the best.
He has gotten this reputation probably from the copious number of women he has had sex with. Each only lasts one month. But Apsen is cool with that because it's not about feelings.
But Daire keeps breaking his own rules with Aspen and their sexual agreement goes on for the better part of a year. Then the accidental pregnancy and Daire's raging meltdown.
It's HARSH! He's totally out of line and I could understand why Aspen was now scared of him.
She ends up running to the other side of the States, to get away from him.
But Daire finds her and then there's the long slow hash out of the reasons why etc.
I liked that Daire started getting therapy but I was not crazy with how he had access to so much money to toss at his problems.
This is why I don't like MC romances so much. There's that question about where the money comes from.
But anyways,
it was entertaining but the plot was too convenient and Daire's character does too much of a 180.
I didn't really feel the connection between them before it all went to hell.
Safety is not good as the author states in the intro.
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December 3, 2023
**Safety: For anyone who needs to know before deciding to get invested in the book or if this is an absolute deal-breaker, Daire is with three OWs ("club whores") during their separation when he was drunk and thinking he wouldn't be able to find Aspen. (😑) I know this is debatable, but since he told her to get lost, I take that as a true breakup, so there's no actual cheating in my mind.
I have very mixed feelings about this one. This was a rage-read that kept me up late last night, so I appreciate this for having all the angst I was looking for, even if I hated Daire. The way his character was laid out in just the first chapter had me seriously questioning myself if I could go through with this story. But I did.
Daire...he did redeem himself in Aspen's eyes, and I acknowledge all of the work he put into fixing himself. He was sincere in his remorse, but how he treated Aspen was truly awful. All of that screaming in her face, repeatedly calling her a bitch, having the entire MC turn their backs on her, then the repeated threat of having her daughter taken away when things weren't going his way...I found all of that unforgivable. He was just so cruel to her.
And while he did go to anger management/counseling of his own volition, which is admirable, it wasn't enough for me. I felt like everything that Aspen went through got swept under the rug whenever he said "I can't change the past." That's a true and realistic statement, but since I felt so much from Aspen's emotionally-charged POV, this approach felt like a non-apology even though he did apologize. I could see that he changed for the better, and offering Aspen full custody of their daughter after his threats did go in his favor, but it still wasn't enough for me.
I guess I also wish there had been more on-page interaction with just Aspen and Daire reconnecting instead of being told that they spent more time together. I wanted more proof that they were a good fit other than their history and the fact that they had a baby together. I didn't feel any romance and I didn't feel any of their love for each other. I think more chapters from Daire's POV might've helped his case a little if I could experience more mental anguish from his side-- because there was so much suffering from Aspen's POV, this all felt very emotionally lopsided.
Bottom line: I wanted more suffering and I wanted Daire to cry on his knees. 💅 Aspen is the bigger person for moving past his atrocious behavior, but as a reader still feeling the sting, Daire didn't grovel nearly enough and I think the forgiveness came WAY too fast. Even though I was angry through 75% of the book, I still enjoyed myself, but I probably won't read this particular book again.
I have very mixed feelings about this one. This was a rage-read that kept me up late last night, so I appreciate this for having all the angst I was looking for, even if I hated Daire. The way his character was laid out in just the first chapter had me seriously questioning myself if I could go through with this story. But I did.
Daire...he did redeem himself in Aspen's eyes, and I acknowledge all of the work he put into fixing himself. He was sincere in his remorse, but how he treated Aspen was truly awful. All of that screaming in her face, repeatedly calling her a bitch, having the entire MC turn their backs on her, then the repeated threat of having her daughter taken away when things weren't going his way...I found all of that unforgivable. He was just so cruel to her.
And while he did go to anger management/counseling of his own volition, which is admirable, it wasn't enough for me. I felt like everything that Aspen went through got swept under the rug whenever he said "I can't change the past." That's a true and realistic statement, but since I felt so much from Aspen's emotionally-charged POV, this approach felt like a non-apology even though he did apologize. I could see that he changed for the better, and offering Aspen full custody of their daughter after his threats did go in his favor, but it still wasn't enough for me.
I guess I also wish there had been more on-page interaction with just Aspen and Daire reconnecting instead of being told that they spent more time together. I wanted more proof that they were a good fit other than their history and the fact that they had a baby together. I didn't feel any romance and I didn't feel any of their love for each other. I think more chapters from Daire's POV might've helped his case a little if I could experience more mental anguish from his side-- because there was so much suffering from Aspen's POV, this all felt very emotionally lopsided.
Bottom line: I wanted more suffering and I wanted Daire to cry on his knees. 💅 Aspen is the bigger person for moving past his atrocious behavior, but as a reader still feeling the sting, Daire didn't grovel nearly enough and I think the forgiveness came WAY too fast. Even though I was angry through 75% of the book, I still enjoyed myself, but I probably won't read this particular book again.
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January 11, 2024I didn't like this Hero.
He is with other random women, 3, in their separation.
He is with other random women, 3, in their separation.
November 16, 2024
Daire was pretty brutal with his anger. And whether or not you think he cheated will be up to the reader, but he was definitely an asshole. The angst was good. The chemistry non existent in my opinion though. But I'm still rating it high. I did like the FMC here though because she didn't act ridiculous and stupid with the progression of the book. Which added another star for me. Sometimes I end up being annoyed with GroveltoHea's FMCs, but Aspen was sweet, but also grew a backbone and took charge of her life without harping repetitively and showed actual growth in her character. Along with Daire as well. Overall I though it was pretty good.
December 31, 2023
3 ⭐⭐⭐ - OK or decent reads.
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I couldn't forgive what he did, but he had a change in thinking and finally managed to convince her.
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I couldn't forgive what he did, but he had a change in thinking and finally managed to convince her.
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September 3, 2024Finished another one but I can’t find it here. It’s Sebastian & Layana.
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March 12, 2024*won’t be rating these books (or at least some of them) just because I have no idea how I feel about them lol not used to reading books where the asshole gets the girl. Kudos to the author for making me rage out on all the guys in these stories. Can’t stand any of the guys but some get redeemed in my eyes*
💜First person/Multi POV
💜OW drama(see below)*
💜No cheating, ML not celibate during separation
💜virgin FMC/manhoe ML
I didn’t really find him redeemable or likable but I will say he worked to get her back. Daire is a manhoe who picks a new fuck buddy every month….literally.
Aspen sees him for the first time at a party walking into another room with his current flavor of the month to go fuck and decides she wants to be his June flavor. She decides she wants HIM (🤮)to take her virginity so she can learn a thing or two. He has no idea she is a virgin and slams his STD dick into her and gets mad at her while balls deep for deceiving him cuz he ‘doesn’t do virgins’🙄well you do now buddy 😂
His rules made me roll my eyes, especially when he basically breaks them all himself lol No sleepovers, no dates, no kissing, no PDA, no asking to ride on his bike with him, not allowed at his place, only HE is allowed to be with others during the month they are together (🙄) (he isn’t BTW) and she is to delete and block his number the day 30 days are up. The last rule (I think that was all the rules?) is that if she gets pregnant she is to get an abortion or raise the kid completely on her own and if she doesn’t he will take full custody of the kid, put it up for adoption and then make her life a living hell. Wow what a great guy 🙄
She follows every rule but he just keeps breaking them. Must be that virginity voodoo 😂 He immediately breaks them after they have sex for the first time. HE kisses her, decides to sleep over, invites himself to places she is going and then wants to keep ‘seeing’ eachother after the month is up.
They go 7 months before she gets pregnant. As he literally breaks all the other rules (minus the sleeping with OW bit), she thought this would be ok. She stated very clearly that she was only informing him she was pregnant and understood he didn’t want to be involved or anything.
*He DEFINITELY reacted wrong saying she was trying to trap him and she better get an abortion or he’d make her regret it and just kept going on and on about how he will make sure she leaves town and blah blah blah. As she is leaving, he tells one of the club whore to give him a BJ. Last thing she sees is the OW dropping to her knees while he unzips his pants. You later find out he doesn’t get the BJ, he walks away as soon as Aspen is gone.
*Without telling you the whole book (lol) I will end it by saying he realizes what an idiot he is and tries to find her as she left the state. He sleeps with 3 club whores in a drunken bender thinking he was never going to find her as he was ACTIVELY trying to find her 🙄 He could have been redeemed in my eyes if he kept it in his pants 🤷♀️
💜First person/Multi POV
💜OW drama(see below)*
💜No cheating, ML not celibate during separation
💜virgin FMC/manhoe ML
I didn’t really find him redeemable or likable but I will say he worked to get her back. Daire is a manhoe who picks a new fuck buddy every month….literally.
Aspen sees him for the first time at a party walking into another room with his current flavor of the month to go fuck and decides she wants to be his June flavor. She decides she wants HIM (🤮)to take her virginity so she can learn a thing or two. He has no idea she is a virgin and slams his STD dick into her and gets mad at her while balls deep for deceiving him cuz he ‘doesn’t do virgins’🙄well you do now buddy 😂
His rules made me roll my eyes, especially when he basically breaks them all himself lol No sleepovers, no dates, no kissing, no PDA, no asking to ride on his bike with him, not allowed at his place, only HE is allowed to be with others during the month they are together (🙄) (he isn’t BTW) and she is to delete and block his number the day 30 days are up. The last rule (I think that was all the rules?) is that if she gets pregnant she is to get an abortion or raise the kid completely on her own and if she doesn’t he will take full custody of the kid, put it up for adoption and then make her life a living hell. Wow what a great guy 🙄
She follows every rule but he just keeps breaking them. Must be that virginity voodoo 😂 He immediately breaks them after they have sex for the first time. HE kisses her, decides to sleep over, invites himself to places she is going and then wants to keep ‘seeing’ eachother after the month is up.
They go 7 months before she gets pregnant. As he literally breaks all the other rules (minus the sleeping with OW bit), she thought this would be ok. She stated very clearly that she was only informing him she was pregnant and understood he didn’t want to be involved or anything.
*He DEFINITELY reacted wrong saying she was trying to trap him and she better get an abortion or he’d make her regret it and just kept going on and on about how he will make sure she leaves town and blah blah blah. As she is leaving, he tells one of the club whore to give him a BJ. Last thing she sees is the OW dropping to her knees while he unzips his pants. You later find out he doesn’t get the BJ, he walks away as soon as Aspen is gone.
*Without telling you the whole book (lol) I will end it by saying he realizes what an idiot he is and tries to find her as she left the state. He sleeps with 3 club whores in a drunken bender thinking he was never going to find her as he was ACTIVELY trying to find her 🙄 He could have been redeemed in my eyes if he kept it in his pants 🤷♀️
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December 20, 2024
This was one I felt could have been improved by some additional page time. We start out with Aspen and Daire, prez of an MC. Daire has rules for the women he sleeps with (I can't remember all of them, but there's a 30 day time limit, after which she has to delete his number, she can't sleep with anyone else, but he can (!!!!), if she tries to baby trap him, he'll fuck up her world, no kissing... a few others, but you get the gist). Aspen is a virgin who just wants to get her V-card punched, so she agrees to the rules pretty readily, prepared to emotionally guard herself against falling for him, only he immediately starts breaking his own rules. At the end of 30 days, they're still together. Time jump 7 months later.
Remember what I said about his rule about getting pregnant? That's pretty much the only rule Daire doesn't break. He freaks out, saying some pretty awful things, scaring the hell out of her, and he and his club spend the next few weeks making her life a living hell (he essentially stalks her, but since he's told her to leave if she ever sees him, she runs every time she sees him and seriously? He has to remember saying that), to the point where even though Aspen has no plan to "baby trap" him, she decides to leave her home and move across the country because she's so freaked.
Another time jump later and the story picks up with Daire tracking her down to bring her and the baby back home. Let the groveling commence.
To be fair, it actually takes a while for that to happen because Daire is just that much of an asshat, but it was a decent grovel. Still, I felt like I could have used more page time with these two, to fully flesh out their relationship. (Does it make me a terrible person that I would have liked more time with Daire in you-stupid-fucker mode? #welistenandwedontjudge) One thing I'm finding about this author is that even though she spends a large amount of time on grovel, there isn't much time spent on physical push-pull. And okay, yeah, I know I've griped for hundreds of reviews about how authors spend too much time on the smut, but I have mainlined so many of this author's stories lately that I find myself kind of missing that I-man-take-what-I-want-give-rohypnol-kisses that is toxic and terrifying in the real world, but really fun to read about it in the perfect-world, HEA settings of Romancelandia. At one point, Daire realizes Aspen is still into his bod and I thought maybe that would happen, but then the author sort of let it go.
Yeah, yeah, I know, nothing pleases me.
Given the insane amount of quality variation between some of this author's stories, this one falls somewhere on the upper side of middle, but it felt sort of... unfinished, I guess, like the author hadn't quite found her voice. It didn't wasn't as funny as The Body series has been, plus one or two other stories I've read, but I could see hints of it, like the author was still figuring that part out.
Still, this has been on my TBR for a while, so I'm glad I finally got there.
Remember what I said about his rule about getting pregnant? That's pretty much the only rule Daire doesn't break. He freaks out, saying some pretty awful things, scaring the hell out of her, and he and his club spend the next few weeks making her life a living hell (he essentially stalks her, but since he's told her to leave if she ever sees him, she runs every time she sees him and seriously? He has to remember saying that), to the point where even though Aspen has no plan to "baby trap" him, she decides to leave her home and move across the country because she's so freaked.
Another time jump later and the story picks up with Daire tracking her down to bring her and the baby back home. Let the groveling commence.
To be fair, it actually takes a while for that to happen because Daire is just that much of an asshat, but it was a decent grovel. Still, I felt like I could have used more page time with these two, to fully flesh out their relationship. (Does it make me a terrible person that I would have liked more time with Daire in you-stupid-fucker mode? #welistenandwedontjudge) One thing I'm finding about this author is that even though she spends a large amount of time on grovel, there isn't much time spent on physical push-pull. And okay, yeah, I know I've griped for hundreds of reviews about how authors spend too much time on the smut, but I have mainlined so many of this author's stories lately that I find myself kind of missing that I-man-take-what-I-want-give-rohypnol-kisses that is toxic and terrifying in the real world, but really fun to read about it in the perfect-world, HEA settings of Romancelandia. At one point, Daire realizes Aspen is still into his bod and I thought maybe that would happen, but then the author sort of let it go.
Yeah, yeah, I know, nothing pleases me.
Given the insane amount of quality variation between some of this author's stories, this one falls somewhere on the upper side of middle, but it felt sort of... unfinished, I guess, like the author hadn't quite found her voice. It didn't wasn't as funny as The Body series has been, plus one or two other stories I've read, but I could see hints of it, like the author was still figuring that part out.
Still, this has been on my TBR for a while, so I'm glad I finally got there.
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March 20, 2024
Daire was such an asshole I'm not sure I completely forgave him but I really enjoyed the angst in the story...
3.25✯
-insta lust
-dual POV
-Aspen was a virgin
-Daire was a hoe
-Daire fucked a woman the same day he saw Aspen for the first time (he actually fucked her for a week before he started his "relationship" with Aspen)
-Daire's M.O. was to fuck a woman for 30 days and then replace her with another one, they had to follow his rules if they wanted to be his flavour of the month
-Aspen wanted to lose her virginity and gain some experience for when she had a real relationship so she approached Daire and asked him to be his next flavour of the month, he accepted but told her she had to follow his rules (no kissing, no texting, no spending the night, no PDA, no catching feelings, etc, etc.) to his (and her) surprise he was the one who broke most of the rules
-after their 30 days were over he tried to call her but she was not answering her phone (she had deleted his number, that was one of his rules) he found her at a bar, she was drunk so he took her to his house, the next day he told her that he wanted more time with her but that didn't mean they were in a relationship, that they were not going anywhere, that it was just fucking until they decided they were done
-they'd been fucking for 7 months when Aspen broke -unintentionally- the most important rule, she got pregnant...
-Daire acted like a complete asshole when Aspen told him that she was pregnant, he thought she had done it on purpose to trap him, he called her a bitch and told her to get an abortion and get out of his life
-he said he knew he'd fucked up the moment the words came out of his mouth, he spent the next week getting drunk because he couldn't deal with the things he'd said to her, then he started showing up wherever she was to try to talk to her and apologize but every time she saw him she ran away, he didn't approach her because he wanted to give her time to calm down, unfortunately for him she took advantage of the situation and disappeared
-he had the whole MC looking for her, he also hired private investigators but they couldn't find her until a year later
-during the year they were apart he fucked 3 women (he fucked them once each), he said it was drunk rage fucking, he did it as a way to release his rage because he couldn't find her (luckily this was off page)
-I didn't like how he acted when he found her, he was a controlling entitled prick, he threatened her with taking the baby from her and get full custody and blackmailed her into living with him
-one day he was so frustrated with Aspen that he yelled at her in front their daughter, the baby got scared and started crying, Daire felt like an asshole and apologized to Aspen, that's the moment he realized he had a problem and decided to attend anger management classes
-during the sessions with his counselor he learned that what was driving his anger was actually fear, he had a fucked up childhood, his sister died from cystic fibrosis -that's why he was so against having kids-, his father began drinking and died 6 months later in a car crash, 4 months after that his mother died of an overdose, I liked that when Daire told Aspen his story she didn't forgive him immediately, it made her understand him a bit more but she knew that didn't excuse his behaviour
-Daire kept going to therapy, he kept trying to make amends for the way he'd treated Aspen and a few months later she forgave him and decided to give him another chance, this time without stupid rules
-the epilogue was great, 15 years later - they're married and have 3 kids (I really liked the epilogue, I liked when he said that he never once took for granted Aspen's forgiveness and I loved the conversation he had with his first born, he apologized to her for not taking care of her mother while she was pregnant and for missing her birth and the first 5 months of her life)
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"You fucking bitch, you thought this was your golden ticket to trap me for good, didn't you?" "Not true," I tried to speak. "Daire, I swear I didn't plan this." He pointed a finger right in my face. "Shut your fuckin' mouth! Let me tell you how this is gonna go. You leave here and never contact me again. I don't want to see you, hear from you, or be contacted in any way by you ever again. You and your bastard don't exist for me. You come into my presence again, and I will make you regret ever meeting me. You got it?"
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"I explained –" I swiped my hand through the air in a slashing motion. "No! You excused your bad behavior. I let you get away with calling all the shots when we were together, telling me how things were going to be in our...relationship, for lack of a better word. I let it all go, but I've had to grow up a lot over the last year and I'm not that girl any more. So, I'm sorry about your sister but that in no way justifies what you did to me, what you said to me. To you, I'm just a warm body who didn't annoy you to the point where you dumped me when your one-month time limit was up. You proved that when you were having sex with anything that moved in the last year. That doesn't tell me you were in a bad place; all it tells me is that life continued on as usual for you. No difference to you if I was there or not – you just filled the gap with available holes. And while you were having such a tough time" – I threw in an exaggerated eye roll here – "I was dealing with being sick every single day of my pregnancy, still working, going through all of it alone except for Maggie, who, although wonderful, was still not the father of my baby. I gave birth alone, I looked at my daughter for the first time alone, counted her fingers and toes alone...and you have the nerve to tell me that you were in a rough spot while I was gone. Poor you. I'm sure it was just awful trying to figure out which slut to screw every month."
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"Are you going to threaten to take Elly from me every time I don't want to do something you want me to do?" I asked him after one particularly bitter fight about Elly spending time at the clubhouse. "If that's what it takes," he replied calmly. "I hate you so much," I said softly. "We didn't need you. We were happy without you. And suddenly you decide you want to play at being a father after what you said –" He moved into my personal space so fast I didn't have time to back away. "That's enough," he growled, dipping his face into mine. "We're not going to keep going over that. I've apologized, I've explained where my head was at, and it's done. I started looking for you the moment I figured out you were in the wind. I have enough shit in my head every time I look at you, at Elly, and think about what I said. I don't need you to keep bringing it up. It happened. I'm sorrier than you will ever know. But I am not going to keep getting raked over the coals by you for it. Are we clear on that?" "Yes, master, because if I said anything else, I'm sure you'd threaten to take her away from me."
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"Quit trying to make us into some happy little family. We're not and we never will be." "We could be if you'd let go of the past and look forward." "Oh, so this is all on me? I just have to forgive and forget the hell you put me through? Forget all the skanky whores you were with this last year while supposedly pining for me? And so you tuck me away into your house while you go and play at the clubhouse? Is that how this is going to work?" "It's not going to work at all if you don't lose the attitude. I've already explained what I'm willing to do to get what I want. You need to go along with it and make the best of it, and I guarantee it'll be better than good." "It'll be good for you because you'll be getting what you want and I just have to take your bullshit like I've always done." "You never complained before and you were pretty happy with me." "Well, I've grown up since then. Having a baby by yourself will do that to you."
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"She good?" "She's the very best," I say to her, grinning at my girl. "You good?" Before I even think, I blurt, "Does it matter? You're getting what you want so who cares about anyone else?" "I keep thinking you're going to run out of bitch steam, but you keep proving me wrong." "Yep, I'm the bitch," I agree cheerily. "It's all on me."
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"The next time you knock up a woman, if you're so worried about her taking cross-country road trips without you, maybe tone down the scary rhetoric so she doesn't feel the need to disappear." The look he aims at me makes me glad I have Elly in my arms because I swear he wants to throw me across the parking lot. "Well, for sure the next one won't be such a raging bitch." That scores deep, but instead of letting him see that, I just take another swipe at him. "Seriously? Because I don't just take your shit and beg for more of the same that makes me a raging bitch? Let's just hope your house is big enough to hold all of your baby mamas and their bastards. At the rate you're going, it'll fill up fast." "Elly's not a bastard," he snaps at me. My face is all innocence. "Oh? Were we married and I forgot? I'm actually just repeating your term for her, as in you and your bastard don't exist for me. Remember that? I sure do. I've got that in her baby book under the Father's Reaction to the Pregnancy News page. Such a sweet memory for her to read about someday."
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"I'm sorry," he tells me in a low voice, and I don't detect anything but truth in his tone. "I hate what I did to you, hate what I said to you, hate that they followed my lead and hurt you, too. I can't go back and undo it. I wish I could, little one. I'd give anything to go back and change my reaction. I'm trying to prove to you that I'm different now, but I feel like you're never going to forgive me." He looks right into my eyes with a pained expression. "That's on me, too. Before I did this to you, you were open and forgiving and generous and caring – and I feel like I destroyed all of that. And that kills me, Aspen. I'm sorry."
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"Shit. I'm sorry, Aspen." I give him a look full of all the hatred and scorn I feel for him. "You must be so proud being the kind of father who doesn't care about scaring the hell out of his baby daughter. If you were trying to be an epic fail, congratulations. You've succeeded." He's given Elly a few minutes to calm down, but she still gives a shuddering little breath every few minutes as she nurses. When Elly sees him, her eyes get big but she doesn't do her usual smile and hold her hand out to him. Daddy is suddenly scary. With a sigh, he hunkers down beside my chair and his rough hand cups my cheek as he turns my face toward him. "I'm sorry, Aspen," he says again. "I keep fucking up with you two and that's the exact opposite of what I want to do."
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Without looking at him, I apologize softly. "You're right; I do keep bringing up the day that both of us would like to forget. I've been trying to hurt you like I've been hurting for the last year, and that's not right. I don't like feeling so angry and bitter all the time. It's not good for Elly, or either one of us. If we're going to co-parent successfully, we have to be able to talk and compromise. So, I promise I'll do better." The hand cupping my face slowly slides down my neck. He moves even closer and hunkers down in front of me, his huge hand cupping the side of my face, his thumb wiping away the tears. "I hate that you cry because of me. I'm not sure how to move ahead with you and that isn't something I'm used to feeling. I always now what to do, and with you, I feel like I'm in over my head."
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"New beginnings, little one. Let's just start fresh." "Wouldn't you like that?" I mused. "All your mistakes and horrible behavior swept right under the rug. Unfortunately, I'm not of the mind to forgive and forget what you all did." "Do not embarrass me." I laughed. "If your club wasn't embarrassed by the way you acted when you found out I was pregnant, believe me, nothing I could do would even come close to that level of embarrassing behavior, so I think you're safe." Daire looked at me as if I'd grown two heads. He was definitely still getting used to Aspen-who-talked-back.
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"This is amazing," he said after a few moments, his voice low and solemn. "And reading this is probably the hardest thing I've ever done." I sat quietly, unsure of Daire's point. Flipping back to the beginning of the book, he started going through the pages where I had pictures of myself mixed with Elly's ultrasound pictures. "You're so beautiful in every picture. You were facing all of this alone and still, the happiness on your face is obvious. She's going to look at this someday and understand how happy she made you even before she was born. She's going to read all of these words you wrote and know that you loved her from the very start." He stopped again and looked me in the eye. "And someday she's going to wonder why there's no mention of me, no pictures of me and she's going to ask where I was while you were pregnant and giving birth. What am I going to tell her then, Aspen? That I didn't want her, that I threatened you and told you I would have nothing to do with her if you didn't get rid of her?"
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I allow myself to eavesdrop on Aspen and Elly a few more minutes, listening to Aspen telling our daughter about my good points. Apparently, my smile is first place for what attracts Aspen to me, followed closely by my eyes, my dimple, my chest, my arms, my tattoos, my deep voice – it hits me that Aspen is still very physically attracted to me. It's just my character that repels her right now, and I don't blame her. How do you make up for being the most epic asshole in the world to your woman when she needed you most? Beginning to regret more than ever the way I've been strong arming her, I decide to come up with a new plan of attack and I know I'll be working on this problem until I can come up with a solution. Failure isn't an option here.
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"The bottom line is this: I know we're at the point where you either forgive me or we call it quits, because as much as I wish otherwise, there's not a damn thing I can do to change the past and all the ways I messed up. I can only tell you how sorry I am for everything I did and promise that I'm a different man now and moving forward. If you can forgive me, I swear to you that every single day, I'm going to work hard to be even better, so someday I might be a man worthy of you and Elly, someone you won't ever want to leave."
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"You gotta know, Aspen, that you're it for me. I love you. I love you, and I'm sorry I don't have pretty words to make it sound nicer, but I've always thought hearing I love you even once would be the best damn thing in the world. So I just need you to understand that I love you. I love Elly. And I'll spend the rest of my life showing you that and guarding what we have like my life depends on it because it does. My life's only good because you and Elly are in it. There's no other woman I'd even cross the street for, much less spend a year searching for. Only you, Aspen."
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February 14, 2025
genuinely the worst mmc i have ever read in a book
January 6, 2025
Readers excuse his behaviour because he sought help lol. It doesn’t matter if he became a Holy Spirit, he didn’t deserve forgiveness or redemption from Aspen and she’s allowed to deny him that even with his therapy sessions.
Stop holding men to a different standard when they seek help and acknowledge their wrongdoings because it’s a change from them being absolute fucking losers. He was forgiven way too easily and honestly, if this were a different author, he’d be the abusive ex that she tries to run from when she meets the actual H. I’m appalled at this portrayal of angst because when did romanticising abuse become okay?
Beyond that, he didn’t grovel and even if he did, it wouldn’t have mattered to me because he needed to be shot, along with the rest of his MC. I despise this book.
Stop holding men to a different standard when they seek help and acknowledge their wrongdoings because it’s a change from them being absolute fucking losers. He was forgiven way too easily and honestly, if this were a different author, he’d be the abusive ex that she tries to run from when she meets the actual H. I’m appalled at this portrayal of angst because when did romanticising abuse become okay?
Beyond that, he didn’t grovel and even if he did, it wouldn’t have mattered to me because he needed to be shot, along with the rest of his MC. I despise this book.
January 23, 2024
Emotionally abusive father and boyfriend. Nice.
February 9, 2025
Quick read. Motorcycle leader and the unexpected woman that steals his heart. Unexpected pregnancy, bad emotions and runaway. Groveling.
Recap:
Daire is the president of the MCC who only fucks a girl for a month with rules to not get attached and shit. Aspen is the virgin who wants him to teach her some things and if fine with the arrangement. Daire doesn’t know she’s a V until it’s too late but then they move on, and after a month he isn’t done with her. For the first time he extends the relationship and breaks all his rules for her, even though she stays complacent with his rules. After 7 months she ends up pregnant and he freaks out, she didn’t mean it and tells him she doesn’t need anything from him, but he demands she stays out of his sight or get rid of it. He instantly has a club ho drop to her knees for him and she runs out. She is abandoned by everyone and leaves without a trace to Montana. She has and begins to raise their daughter Elly with the help of an old neighbors daughter, she starts her life there. After a year, Daire finds her and demands she come back with him or he will take their daughter from her. She feels forced to come back and loves him his house, then forced to go to the clubhouse where 3 old lady’s and a few brother disrespected her and she was done. During a fight Daire raised his voice and scared their daughter and he knew he had to change. He finds the baby book that Aspen has recorded since she was 3 months pregnant for her daughter, and he added to it with the truth. He went to anger management and started working with a therapist. He made changes at the club and demanded everyone apologize to Aspen because she is his queen no matter what. He moved out and gives her the house in her name and full custody of Elly so he can’t threaten her anymore. He tells her he loves her and tells her everything and she takes time to process. After 5 days she forgives him and they start a new. She re-does the club house and starts a foundation in which she keeps the nasty old ladies out to teach them a lesson and who’s in charge. Everyone learns she is a new Aspen and not someone to fuck with. Eventually they marry had have 2 more kids. They give Elly the baby book and told her the truth, she forgave her dad and always knows he loves her. HEA
Recap:
Daire is the president of the MCC who only fucks a girl for a month with rules to not get attached and shit. Aspen is the virgin who wants him to teach her some things and if fine with the arrangement. Daire doesn’t know she’s a V until it’s too late but then they move on, and after a month he isn’t done with her. For the first time he extends the relationship and breaks all his rules for her, even though she stays complacent with his rules. After 7 months she ends up pregnant and he freaks out, she didn’t mean it and tells him she doesn’t need anything from him, but he demands she stays out of his sight or get rid of it. He instantly has a club ho drop to her knees for him and she runs out. She is abandoned by everyone and leaves without a trace to Montana. She has and begins to raise their daughter Elly with the help of an old neighbors daughter, she starts her life there. After a year, Daire finds her and demands she come back with him or he will take their daughter from her. She feels forced to come back and loves him his house, then forced to go to the clubhouse where 3 old lady’s and a few brother disrespected her and she was done. During a fight Daire raised his voice and scared their daughter and he knew he had to change. He finds the baby book that Aspen has recorded since she was 3 months pregnant for her daughter, and he added to it with the truth. He went to anger management and started working with a therapist. He made changes at the club and demanded everyone apologize to Aspen because she is his queen no matter what. He moved out and gives her the house in her name and full custody of Elly so he can’t threaten her anymore. He tells her he loves her and tells her everything and she takes time to process. After 5 days she forgives him and they start a new. She re-does the club house and starts a foundation in which she keeps the nasty old ladies out to teach them a lesson and who’s in charge. Everyone learns she is a new Aspen and not someone to fuck with. Eventually they marry had have 2 more kids. They give Elly the baby book and told her the truth, she forgave her dad and always knows he loves her. HEA
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June 15, 2024
Groveltohea is one of my favorite authors. Her stories are filled with humor, love, angst, betrayal, groveling 😉, atonement, and forgiveness. I'm not sure she is a writer for everyone. If your personal issues make it difficult to forgive others... This author is not for you. Her stories warm your heart... Take it out of your chest, stomp on it, and put it back together. I absolutely love her.
Aspen and Daire is a beautiful story of horrific behavior. It's routed in his fears. But, through self awareness and his love for Aspen they work to save they're life together.
Based on other reviews I can't stress this enough. If you are unable to forgive and move past hurtful actions of others when they are attempting to be a better person...
This author is not for you.
It's not about being a sucker, it's about realizing forgiveness benefits you... Not the person your forgiving. And as this author points out, if we are unable to forgive others in life, life is going to be very lonely.
Aspen and Daire is a beautiful story of horrific behavior. It's routed in his fears. But, through self awareness and his love for Aspen they work to save they're life together.
Based on other reviews I can't stress this enough. If you are unable to forgive and move past hurtful actions of others when they are attempting to be a better person...
This author is not for you.
It's not about being a sucker, it's about realizing forgiveness benefits you... Not the person your forgiving. And as this author points out, if we are unable to forgive others in life, life is going to be very lonely.
June 10, 2024
A relatively short story but I did like how the characters developed and grew. Daire got help and counselling for his anger and the way he reacted to situations so he could work on building a healthy relationship with Aspen and their daughter. Nothing new with regard to MC biker romance story lines but a refreshing difference in the MMC taking responsibility for his actions and wanting to change, especially when Aspen had developed into her own badass bitch who wasn’t going to take Daire, his crew or the clubs crap for a second time.
September 21, 2025
Another ahole biker mmc who reacts badly when fmc tells him she is pregnant, insults her and kicks her out and later regrets it.
She runs away and he finds her a year later and blackmails her into going back with him and tells she will have to forgive him and get past all that happened and also his whoring ways. He was soo sad when he couldn't find her that he f*cks other club women to deal with his pain and anger! Finally after very less suffering and grovel on his part the fmc forgives this ahole.
She runs away and he finds her a year later and blackmails her into going back with him and tells she will have to forgive him and get past all that happened and also his whoring ways. He was soo sad when he couldn't find her that he f*cks other club women to deal with his pain and anger! Finally after very less suffering and grovel on his part the fmc forgives this ahole.
August 9, 2024
She met him at a club and noticed him but he never been with anyone more than 30 days. She decided that she wanted him to take her Vcard, and it took only 30 days. After that time, she left but he extended it longer until she advised him that she was pregnant. He betrated her, and so did his club, so she left.
After a year, he found her and his child and blackmailed her to return.
After a year, he found her and his child and blackmailed her to return.
August 13, 2024
Meh.. I think the idea of the story could have been really good. But there was no true character development, hard to feel anything when the story moves so fast. No build up of anything, the MMC has rules but breaks them all within a chapter.
Again, could have been good. Just don’t hit the mark for me.
Again, could have been good. Just don’t hit the mark for me.
August 18, 2024
I just can't get over Daire not caring about Aspen's wants or needs and forcing everything. Also, I get his concerns about having children because of his sister, but he could've sat down and had a discussion with Aspen like an adult. I would've rated this one much higher if he had allowed her to have her own place and had listen to her wishes when he made her come back.
February 23, 2025
THIS BOOK NEEEEEEEDS TO BE SENT IN TO BECOME A DUET AUDIOBOOK!! IT WOULD BE A HUGEEE SUCESSS!!! Biggest thing would be making sure the author gets a propper well known audiobook publishing company to make it. I listen to 5-10 audiobooks a month and review them all and beleive me, the narrators voices and if its duet or not MAKE A HUGE DIFFERENCE
August 20, 2024
This is a beautiful story of forgiveness and redemption. Well written. You could truly feel his regret… It is a story I come back to time and time again as I especially loved his “rules”
And how he broke every one.
And how he broke every one.
January 30, 2025
Very good short story about forgiveness and the power of "If he wanted to, he would." While I don't agree with the way the mmc went about asking for forgivness, I was happy that fmc didn't automatically take him back like we've seen in a lot of books lately.
November 23, 2023
wish lease were longer
January 2, 2024
I AM OBSESSED
March 12, 2024
Old books
May 1, 2024
One of the characters that have brain in his ass and should be banned from existing.
May 3, 2024
This story made me cry. The pain. The redemption. The beauty of a life well lived. Wonderful story I know I will read and reread for years to come.
July 10, 2024
I feel like the book started out a little fast had a great storyline was getting even better and then rushed to an ending.
July 14, 2024
I very much enjoyed reading Daire & Aspen’s story.
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