“I make you coffee every morning because the best part of my day is those few minutes with you.”
“Sometimes even though you can’t see someone, they’re always with you.”
My Thoughts: The following are my thoughts about this book:
General:
- Trigger warning-loss of loved one (happens in chapter 1, so it’s not the loss of a main character)
- Setting: Chicago, USA
Characters:
- Jasen Ryker (aka Ryke) (27): He’s a pro hockey player. Ryke lost his wife to a drunk driver when he was 25. For the most part he has worked through his grief. He’s successful, confident, incredibly patient and sexy (of course). There isn't a single thing that's not “swoony” about Ryke and I absolutely loved him.
- Kate (22): She recently graduated from college with a degree in psychology. Kate had a pregnancy that ended in heartbreak 💔 and she has struggled with grief. She is sad, but knows she needs to engage in life again. Although she has a recent degree, she's not entirely sure what she wants to do with her life. She has a very close relationship with her mom and I loved that aspect of the story.
- Together:
- These two have a sloooooooow burn to the bedroom. They have chemistry, but I felt like it would ramp up and then some type of cold water would be splashed on all the steam. So it was up and down, stop and start and that made it a little choppy. Once there was a break in their intensity toward each other, the chemistry faltered.
The story:
In the beginning, there is a heaviness to the book. Chapter 1 was a punch to the gut and it took a bit of time to recover. This book deals with all the aspects of losing someone: loss, grief, heartache, depression, coping, fear, moving on, guilt.
How and when do you move on when your heart has been broken?
This book also touches on how your decisions, perspectives and thoughts are most likely different once you experience something so life altering. The overall theme....everyone grieves differently, and that’s ok. But if you can’t get out of your grief and spiral down into depression, then that’s not ok and you need help. Ryke’s infinite patience with Kate was heart melting. I loved that guy!!
This book is also about hope and healing. When you find your way out of the dark tunnel, life will never be the same but that doesn’t mean it can’t be more amazing than you ever imagined. Allow yourself to believe in second chances and happiness.
Other:
- It took a long time to get between the sheets action. They had some phone sex but nothing in person. So after this huge build up to the final act, when they finally hit the sheets at 91% it didn’t even last a page. 👎😏
- I waited the entire book for them to finally feel like a couple. That was just way too long to wait. Honestly, this is even slower than a slow burn.
- I started out thinking this was going to be a solid 5 star, but in the end their “non-relationship” just dragged out for longer than it needed to
- The event at 93% was predictable. I kept waiting for it to happen all through the book but I was really hoping the author wouldn't throw in such an obvious thing. So I was disappointed when it unfolded as I expected.
Overview:
- POV: dual POV
- Tropes: love after loss, loss of a loved one
- H likable? Yes
- h likable? Yes, although her hot/cold indecisiveness got a bit old
- h virgin? no
- First time they kiss: 38%
- First time they sleep together: 91%
- First time they say I Love You 94%
- steamy? Not overly steamy
- OW/OM drama? no
- H/h cheat? no
- Did I skip pages? No
- Big secrets? no
- Did I cry? there were a few heart-tugging moments
- Did I laugh? Not really
- Cliffhanger? no
- HEA? HFN
- Epilogue? a few months later. I saw there’s another book after this one that follows them through the ups and downs of their marriage.
- Recommend? yes, if you can handle a story about the loss of a loved one
Quotes
“All I wanted to do was sleep. The moment I pulled the covers up to my neck was the only honest moment in my day anymore. It was when I could let go of the fake smile, stop pretending.”
“Am I arrogant?” I asked Luke as we stood against my kitchen island eating.
He pounded his chest, looking like he was gonna choke for a second. “Is this a trick question?”
"No.”
"You’re a fucking underwear model, dude. That’s enough to make any guy arrogant.”
“I eyed his dark scruff and his wicked ‘come hither’ expression. I’d come hither in a matter of seconds if he looked at me that way.”
“What cologne was that? Whatever it was called, it needed to be renamed Sex.”
“I don’t think I’ll ever move past it. I’ll never be the person I was. I had no idea something could hurt so deeply that … it changed who I am.”
“If I decided to ease back into the dating game, it needed to be with someone a little more average than a panty-soaking NHL player who modeled underwear.”
“finding a way out of the darkness of her grief wasn’t something I could help with. She needed to figure out all on her own that she deserved to live again –really live, without guilt or fear crippling every decision.”