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378 pages, Kindle Edition
First published December 16, 2013
“What if we were pen pals?”Caden and Ever meet during the summer at an art camp. They’re both 15, and even though they don’t spend a lot of time together, they really hit it off. They decide to be pen pals. Writing to each other weekly, telling each other everything. Both go through some intense things in their lives, but over the years, they always have each other to lean on.
“Don’t- don’t ever leave me, Ever.” I whispered, fiercely, desperately, needily.
She paused, glanced at me. Her eyes blazed.
“Never, Caden. Never. I promise you. I’ll never leave you.”






"Her name is Ever Eliot. She lives in Broomfield. She's into painting and sculpture. She has a twin sister names Eden. She's beautiful."
'I'm trying to write, but my words have dried up. Sorry. Just...sorry.'

"I was made to fuck you. I was made to love you, to hold you, to kiss you, to fuck you, to make you come and watch you sleep and keep you safe. And I will always, always do all of that."

Being able to write letters to someone who couldn't judge me, who would write back and seem sympathetic and friendly, it helped me be me, helped me feel okay.

"I just thought maybe if we wrote letters, we could talk about whatever we wanted."

If I tried for something with Cade and it didn't work, or he lied to me, or he let me down, if he failed to measure up, failed to be the magnificent specimen of manhood I'd built him up to be in my mind, I'd be devastated. Wrecked. And then I wouldn't even have him to get me through the heartache.

"Cade... god. I love this. I want more. Dirtier. Do something crazy. Something dirty. Fuck me, Cade. I like it dirty. Fuck me dirty."

"This is love, Ever." The words tumbled out, and I was rocked to my core by the admission. "I love you. Since I met you at Interlochen, I've loved you."



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Forever & Always by Jasinda Wilder: Book 1 of the Ever Trilogy.
Genre: New adult with lots of sex
Does not stand alone
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When camp ended, Ever and Cade weren't ready to sever the connection, so they decided to be pen pals. real paper and pen, hand-written pen pals. As the letters are revealed, I almost felt like a voyeur, or even more, like I found a real box of letters that two young teens about to fall in love wrote to each other.
"Dear Ever,
I's hard to write this letter. I'm not even sure what to say, but I feel like I can tell you things, because we're friends, and somehow these letters are like a journal.
My mom has cancer."
Ever understood completely. Ever and her twin sister Eden lost their mom to a car accident. Their dad couldn't handle the grief and basically checked out, leaving the two girls lost and alone. When the same thing happened to Cade, Ever was there, understanding him. Ever had Eden though, Cade was alone.
Things only got worse for him. Poor Caden. This kid has had so much crap in his life, the worst luck possible, your heart just can't help but break for him. His light, his strength when he might have otherwise broken are his letters with Ever.
"Being able to write letters to someone who couldn't judge me, who would write back and seem sympathetic and friendly, it helped me be me, helped me feel okay.
Now, nothing is okay, and sending this letter to Ever seemed necessary. It would make me okay."
Ever and Caden did not consider themselves anything more than pen pals and friends. But for years, the letters became a huge part of their lives. Through all of the important growing up years, and all of the tragedy poor Caden endures, they never fully lose touch. They would drift apart, then come back together, but Cade's sorrow and loneliness weren't always easy reads for Ever.
As time passed, they met others. They had relationships. But through it all, they connected via US Postal Service, and in their hearts and minds and art. So much so, that they could never fully connect to someone else. But they never really realized it was because they each had a part of the other since they met 5 years before.
“I felt as I was missing a piece of my soul, like the memory was all that was left of a love I’d had and lost.”
When tragedy strikes yet again....finally, Ever and Caden meet in person.
"Nothing had ever felt so cataclysmic, so drought with atomic power. I couldn't breathe for the kiss, hadn't taken a breath in an eternity and it didn't matter because now, suddenly, she was my breath."
When they finally met and connected, I was giddy with happiness. YAY! These two finally, after five long years, found their way to each other.
“What is this, with us?”
“I don’t know.” What words could I use? I'd just met her after five years of letters. But I knew her, and I needed her. “It’s everything. It’s –”
“That’s what I need. I need everything, Cade. I need you… your everything. Your always.”
“God, you’re so…much. So beautiful. I feel drunk from kissing you. Like touching you makes me high. I’m dizzy from your skin.”
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“That summer we met, Interlochen. The lake. Drawing all day. Sitting on the dock together. It was the last day of my childhood, I think. The last happy days of my life.”
“I feel like I can trust you. Maybe we understand each other, or something. Like, in some kind of way that words don’t really explain. I feel that way.”
“What’s life without a little pain?” It was a philosophy I wanted to hold on to. But I’d take life without so much pain, if I could. I’d heard all the bullshit, of course: what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, and how the hard times make you appreciate the good times more. I didn’t buy it. Hard times were hard, an d no amount of thinking about the good times supposedly to come would make them suck any less.”
“I also knew I’d never be the same. I felt the scars on my heart and in my mind. I’d been cut deep and the wounds would never really heal… I’d been painted by pain. Several coats of it, a deep, thick varnish that wouldn’t ever fade.”
“I felt as I was missing a piece of my soul, like the memory was all that was left of a love I’d had and lost.”
“This was an outpouring between us, an unleashing. It was as if a lifetime of pent-up need and imprisoned love was finally unfurling once-pinioned wings and taking flight, finding freedom in the far blue forever of the sky.”
“What is this, with us?”
“I don’t know.” What words could I use?… But I knew her, and I needed her. “It’s everything. It’s –”
“That’s what I need. I need everything, Cade. I need you… your everything. Your always.”
