Elise Connors : FMC, new public relations expert for the Comets hockey team
Liam :MMC
Will: the brother to Liam’s dead fiance
Whenever I leave reviews in goodreads they are really like my annotated description of the book but also a review so this is a SPOILER OF SPOILERS. I’m struggling to write this review. I think this author is such a sweetheart and I’ve met her but this book just wasn’t for me. It had the perfect plot points just a lot of things fell flat for me. I wanted to love it. I know it’s her first book so I would like to give her second one a chance. We get a glimpse of Will and Lilith at the end and I want to see if the writing style improves and the plot line is good. So now to me telling you about the entire book and breaking down what I didn’t like.
The book starts where we are introduced and she is starting a new job to work for the Comets hockey team. She’s there to help with their outreach and public relations in general. Some of their players can be troublemakers. The coach tells her “Well, not hiding. Wilkes, as you seem to already know–He’s a private person. There was a lot of debate about his private life. Even his sexuality was a mystery until he proposed to his longtime girlfriend. Then when she was six months pregnant, she died in an accident. That was this past winter… Drunk driver.”
Liam was instantly drawn to Elise but his grumpy self pushes her away because of his trauma from losing his fiance and child. He has done nothing to help with this. He gets angry and lashes out at anything and everyone. Elise wants to break through that and help better the team. Will tells Liam that Elise reminds him of Kay. He feels like he needs to take care of her in a brotherly way that she’s been through shit too. Will had asked Elise on a date but they had both realized they were better as friends and has trauma dumped on each other a little and this is when Elise found out that Will was the brother to the women Liam lost. Liam lashes out at Elise the one day about what she does to be able to afford to live in a hotel for 2 months across from their stadium. She tells him My mom died when I was in middle school, and my dad invested the life insurance money so I could go to college without being in major debt afterward. However, as you damn well know, I had a full ride. So guess where that money sat for another seven years growing interest.” Will appologizes to Elise that ok that day it was kaylees birthday is why Liam was such an ass. Will, Liam and Elise had went out drinking and Liam ended up taking Elise home so she could sleep at his place. He had a vivid dream of them together and that’s one of the first times he’s dreamed of something besides kaylees accident. And him not being able to get there in time. They all go out again. Liam is chasing guys off of Elise and she thinks maybe that means something. And then he dances with her. She goes to the bathroom and hears girls talking shit about her being fat and how they’d take Liam from her. And then she walks out to see Liam kissing one of those girls and tells Will she’s ready to go home.
He can turn away a guy that I was just flirting with for the sport of it, flirt with me, and then turn around and make out with the same girl that was talking shit about me. “I’m leaving.”Tears for the girls’ words, tears for Liam, and for me thinking that he might like me enough to not make out with the first pair of size four legs that walked his way.
When Liam figures out what happens he comes to her house. He tells her that that girl threw herself on him and he was trying to not cause a PR nightmare by throwing her across the room. He tells her “That I what? Didn’t like you? Damn it, woman, I’ve been fighting it since the beginning! I freaking like you!”
She tells him he can sleep with her in bed. He ends up waking up from one of his nightmares. He tells Elise about it. “I have a recurring dream of that night, when Kaylee died. Running into the hospital, but I never get there in time to do anything.” “Recurring? As in, how often?” “It used to be every night,” I confess, “now at least weekly.” And then she tells him today was the day her mom died.
They end up agreeing to do some secret dating thing. They can’t tell the team or she could get in trouble with her job. So they have to try their best to hide it. Right off the rip he’s pulling her to the side to hold her. “You ground me, Elise. I don’t know how else to explain it right now. Please, just a moment longer,”His lips press firmly against mine; this is the moment I’ve dreamt about for a while now. So to my knowledge this is the first time that they kiss.
Elise: “You know how I mentioned that I could have been in the Olympics with you when we were skating that day?” He nods and waits. “I didn’t go because that’s when my dad got sick. Cancer. It was too quick, barely a year. It’s equally terrible watching someone you love wither away slowly, unable to help as it is for them to be torn away unexpectedly.”
So a month later they are sharing Thanksgiving and Sarah is trying to set Elise up with someone even though she politely declines. So we basically flashed through a month. Like we don’t really see much of their first month together. Other than then almost getting caught by Will and what not. We know she created a friendship with Sarah who is one of the teams wives.
“Well, I just—” I’m cut off by Liam and the deep kiss that he plants on my lips. In front of everyone. “She’s taken,” Liam gives it away when he does this.
Liam’s dream changes to The dream had changed; instead of chasing after Kaylee, instead of not being able to save her, it’s Elise. I can’t lose Elise. I can’t go through that again. So I remind myself again that she is lying next to me. I can see her. I hear her breathing. I can touch her. She is here. She is safe.
Okay so this is where one of my big problems is.
Even after being with him several times, I’m not quite ready for how full I feel with him.
Where were the several times. Why did we skip over all their firsts and all the details and now after being with him several times? What the heck.!
Liam takes her home for Christmas. His parents seem welcoming. His sister lilith is stand offish at first. But this Christmas they should have been celebrating a new baby not meeting a new girlfriend so Elise understands it can be hard for everyone.
Because before she walked into my life like a force to be reckoned with, I was a mess. I suppose that I still am a mess, but it’s better now, I think. Better because of her.
I really could love this woman.
But we know Elise thinks I know I love him more than I have ever loved anyone.
So then after one of Liam’s games he shows up and out of the blue says
“This isn’t going to work. I can’t… I can’t see myself loving anyone like I did Kaylee, and I can’t even imagine kids without her…” He won’t look at me, in fact he’s looking everywhere other than in my eyes.
And she says “You told me that you were serious about this. That I didn’t have to worry… How the hell did I fall for that? I fucking loved you. I was falling in love with you.”
Losing him on top of Liam and his whole family will truly destroy me. I break down as sobs rack my body, praying that this is a terrible dream, that the life I had let myself dream of again was just fine. Who am I kidding? I just lost everyone in one fell swoop.
This whole breakup was so weird because we also have been getting Liam’s pov but for some reason we don’t get any insight on this we are just blindsighted that he’s decided he can’t do this anymore when last we knew he thought he could love her. So like fuck Liam.
And then the book flashes to 5 months later. Liam sees Elise and realizes she’s pregnant. And unless she cheated then it has to be his for how far along she looks. He’s upset that she didn’t tell him and she says “Oh, you’re mad at me? You’re mad at me for not telling you about a child you literally said you would never want.”“You said that you would never be able to love anyone like you did Kaylee and that you would never want children if they weren’t with her. You broke me and took away what family I had made since coming here. So, I’m so sorry for not wanting to burden you with the idea that I was having your kid. But I was not going to let you make me feel bad for keeping what family I could have.”
fact I know that she has a picture of the ultrasound on her fridge. “I’m kind of surprised she didn’t say anything to you. And I tried telling you. You didn’t answer your phone.”
“Yeah them, twins. Hence why I look like a house already at five months.”
“They need a family,” he says firmly, like getting married will fix everything. “I will not marry a man that doesn’t love me.” I look him dead in the eye, unwavering. “I loved you, no matter what that meant to you. Whether you ever felt the same way or not, Elise. I loved you… I still do really, and I care about you regardless of how I hurt you.”
Will: “Yes, I knew. You would have too if you would have answered her calls,” Will comments, matching his anger.
Okay so here’s another one of my problems. She tells him he took away the family she was starting to have. But Will knew and was supportive and Liam’s freaking mom knew and had the ultrasound on the fridge so how did he take away her family? But also how did his mom literally not tell him. Like that just all seems bazarre to me.
I wouldn’t lose someone else that I loved. Yes, I can admit that I love her, but the last woman I felt this way about was ripped from my life and left me more broken than I had ever thought possible. I can’t go through that again. I wouldn’t survive.
“If I didn’t have to think about them now, I would have ran into his arms as soon as possible. But it’s not that simple… I love him, Sarah, but I love them more.”
“Liam, it’s not going to be that easy, I want you to be in their lives, but I can’t let you back into mine that easy.”
At one of Liam’s games Elise has some issues and Sarah takes her to the hospital and Liam is terrified. “I was just telling Elise that right now her numbers are a bit high. We’re going to give some IV meds and keep the fetal monitor on. The doctor then strongly suggests bed rest. Liam ends up moving in with her so he can help take care of her and watch over her.
Liam does just that, kneeling in front of me, both hands on my stomach, talking to me and the babies. I can almost pretend there was never a time when we weren’t together, where we weren’t on the right track. For just a little while, I’m going to pretend.
Sarah and Liam trick Elise into a baby shower.
Liam does just that, kneeling in front of me, both hands on my stomach, talking to me and the babies. I can almost pretend there was never a time when we weren’t together, where we weren’t on the right track. For just a little while, I’m going to pretend.
Not letting her worry that she is alone. She isn’t. She never will be again. I will always be here. She is mine, and I will make sure that she knows that every single day. She is the only one for me.
He said that after she had yelled for him that something was wrong and he took her to the hospital. They’re going to deliver the babies early.
They name them Elowen Amelia.” “And this is Finn Archer.”
3 months since having the babies they’re going out. After the dinner Elise tells Liam “Liam, I love the man you are becoming. And I have no doubt you’re going to be someone our kids look up to. I love you.”
“Elise, this is just the beginning. I will always be here. I won’t ever leave you again. It nearly broke me in ways I didn’t know were possible after Kaylee. I was in love with her, but you, you are my future. You’re my whole life.”
They go to his house and have sex and then go back to her house to relieve Lilith of the twins.
And then 4 months later.
“This was my grandma’s,” he holds up a gorgeous Art Deco style ring, emerald cut diamonds on a gold band. “I would like very much for you to wear it and even more for you to be my wife. I love you, and I want this to be official. Please, Elise, will you marry me?” She says yes and then they walk in on Will and Lilith looking cozy. So that leads us into their book being next.
“It’s really happening. We just had to place our love on ice for a little bit in the middle there.” So this is where the on ice line comes from which is clever. So to break down some more of my problems. I feel like this book was rushed. Like it mentioned things we should know about that we never got to see. Also some things just seemed way out of pocket. I didn’t like Liam. He was not a likable character so it made it hard to care. And I honestly didn’t have much attachment to Elise either. The character development just didn’t have me getting attached or caring about these characters to the point that the story fell flat for me. I want to give Will and Lilith a chance because I’m intrigued and would like to see if Kate’s style may have improved past her first book. This book had a good plot line and what it could take to be amazing it just fell flat for me and I really hate to say that.