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By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

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Daelyn Rice is broken beyond repair, and after a string of botched suicide attempts, she’s determined to get her death right. She starts visiting a website for “completers”— www.

While she’s on the site, Daelyn blogs about her life, uncovering a history of bullying that goes back to kindergarten. When she’s not on the Web, Daelyn’s at her private sch

Hardcover, 200 pages
Published January 5th 2010 by Disney-Hyperion (first published April 1st 2009)
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this is the second part of a conversation about this book!! i got caris' sloppy seconds! to read the first part, please click here!

Caris: Maybe it was just your personality. Perhaps you're just not the type of dude who gets bullied. You know, badassery and whatnot.

I certainly cave on this point. The book was unbelievable. Both the website and Santana were only there to keep the girl from killing herself. Of course, all books do this. It seems that the bar is just set lower for teen ficti
Steph Su
Aug 15, 2009 rated it it was amazing
BY THE TIME YOU READ THIS, I’LL BE DEAD tore my insides raw. As I read, I screamed. I cried. I threw the book across the room. I apologized and cradled it delicately in my hands. I also chuckled and fell in love with the characters, flawed as they all are. Julie Anne Peters is nearly unmatched when it comes to writing about difficult, taboo, controversial, and absolutely necessary subjects, and her latest book is a terrifying masterpiece that deserves to find its way into everyone’s hands.

Liberty Abbott-Sylvester
Feb 01, 2010 rated it really liked it
Recommends it for: all parents
Teen suicide. Not an easy subject to think or talk about. This book tells the story of Daelyn. She's 15 and determined to die this time. Yes, you read correctly...she's tried to kill herself before and failed. This time she knows it will work. A victim of bullies, she can't face life anymore. She thinks everyone will be happier without her. One day after school she meets Santana and things start to look a little different, but is it too late?

As a mother of a child who was bullied and talked abou
Mar 01, 2012 rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: kindle
This book ticked me off more than any I've read since My Sister's Keeper. Just like Picoult's book, this novel slapped me in the face at the end and negated whatever positive experience I might have gained from it.

By the Time You Read This ... could have been a good book. It was fast-moving and compulsively readable. Then I got to the end and literally said out loud, "What the hell?" Without giving too much away, I'll say this: Cliffhangers can be effective literary devices when done well. Menta
Samantha Elizabeth
Aug 19, 2012 rated it really liked it
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Rebecca McNutt
While I'm glad that books like this one are out there to encourage teens to seek help and find reasons to go on rather that committing suicide, I'm still not a huge fan of suicide/self-harm stories, especially when they try so hard to be dark that it just comes across as overdramatic. I found myself liking Santana as a character much more than Daelyn, who spends most of her time hanging around on a bizarre pro-suicide website (why do such things exist? Why don't the police try to get a handle on ...more
Mar 07, 2011 rated it really liked it
Daelyn has been demeaned, bullied, tortured and almost raped through her years in school. For some reason, the teachers and principals always believe the other students, making her feel further bullied. Daelyn was overweight most of her life and that was the main fodder for the bullies, but not all. She tried to make her parents listen, but they just passed it off as kids being kids. Her mom went on diets with her saying it would be "fun" and her father would sneak food to her at night. She was ...more
Libro Joven
Nov 10, 2009 rated it really liked it
This book was hard, but at the same time it was so enthralling. Reading so openly about bullying and a parasuicidal kid made my stomach into a knot, but I couldn't keep my eyes off the book until I was finished with it. It is short, but at the same time, it feels so long. Not because it's boring, but because the topics it talked about felt so... important, maybe? I'm not sure what's the right word for it. I'm not sure there's a right word for it.

If you enjoyed "Willow", by Julia Hoban, this is d
Charley Cook
Jan 24, 2014 rated it really liked it
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Sep 19, 2015 rated it did not like it

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Dec 15, 2010 rated it really liked it
I thought that it was a good book to show how drasticly people react to things like being called names and being made fun of. I feel like the people in this book actually exist. Although I really liked this book, there was a reason for me giving it four stars. She gave up. She was a hard character to get at the beginning because I haven't had to deal with characters before, but by the end of the book I viewed her as a heroine and... she died. She. Just. Gave. Up. I really liked her character and ...more
Ayşenur Mutluel
Feb 07, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
15 yaşında ki Daelyn etrafında ki insanlardan sürekli olarak zorbalık gören genç bir kız. Daha fazla dayanamayarak bir kaç kez intihar girişiminde bulunur fakat sonuç hep başarısız olur. Ama bu sefer bunu başarmak için kararlıdır.
Daelyn internette "Işığın-İçinden" adlı bir site bulur. Bu siteye kaydolan kişilere belirli süreler verilir böylece süreleri dolduğunda intihar edebilecekler. Bir nevi ölümünüze geri sayım. Daelyn'nin süresi 23 gün. Şimdi aşırı dram yüklü kitapları çok beğenerek okuyor
Jul 22, 2009 rated it it was amazing
Recommended to Kate by: Tammy
Shelves: 2009, age-ya, arcs, realistic
My friend Tammy dropped this off at the library for me to read, and one day as I was waiting for the virus scan to run on my work computer, I started reading. I only got 12 pages in and I told myself I would continue the next day at lunch. By the next day, Lexi (the intern who shares my desk) had also started reading it while virus scans were running. She took it home and finished it that night. I had other things to read, but the whole time I was wondering and worrying about the girl in the sto ...more
Sulis Peri Hutan
May 08, 2015 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: buntelan, koleksiku
Cara Bunuh Diri Yang Dipilih Daelyn Rice

Keefektifan: Beberapa cara pernah dipilih, seperti mengiris nadi, menelan cairan amonia dan pemutih namun Daelyn tetap selamat. Sambil menunggu waktu dan membaca pengalaman orang-orang melakukan bunuh diri, dia akan memikirkannya nanti, cara lainnya yang akan dipakai untuk mengakhiri hidupnya dengan cepat.

Waktu: 23 hari.

Ketersediaan: Tergantung apakah ada faktor penghambat, seperti orangtuanya yang selalu mengawasi dirinya dan tidak pernah membiarkan dirin
Jul 06, 2018 rated it it was amazing
This one really got me. I cried from the first to the last page.
Sab H.  (YA Bliss)
Whoa!! I was not expecting this, specially in such a short read. This is probably the most torn I've been since I finished Ballads of Suburbia. This book is so harsh. And raw. And wrong. And cruel. And depressing. And sick. Oh, and I loved, loved, loved it. Even though my stomach sometimes didn't. I had physical ache while reading, that's how amazing it was. Seriously, I believe every person alive should read it. If you dare to read something so heart-wrenching that will most likely stick with y ...more
Feb 25, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition


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Thea Villa
Jun 07, 2013 rated it really liked it
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Mar 20, 2017 rated it did not like it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: 2017, in-german
This book is highly disturbing! It's basically a suicide guide!!!

I thought that this will be an YA romance with a happy ending bud god, I was wrong! If I would know that this is a guide to an effective suicide, I wouldn't borrow it.

Feb 27, 2018 rated it really liked it
God. I, uh...I'm not sure what to think.

First off, if you don't want to find out about multiple ways to kill yourself, do not read this book.

This book touches up on some very important issues, and it leaves nothing out. Nothing. Every disturbing thought is recorded and its chilling. The kind of chills people get while watching a scary horror movie with the wind blowing really loudly in the background. I don't think I'm ever going to be able to forget this book.

While the book was good, it really
Jan 05, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Kitap içimi dağlayarak bitirdi. O kadar acı verdi ki bana anlatamam size. Geçen 23 gün boyunca ben ağladım, ben üzüldüm, ben dağlandım... İçim yandı, içim kanadı... Yazar yaşamlarımımızın bir zaman diliminde karşımıza çıkabilecek bir durumu o kadar duygulu ve içten bir şekilde yazmış ki artık kitabın sonlarına doğru gözyaşlarım sel olup aktı. Özellikle 15 yaşındaki bir genç kızın yaşadığı bu durum/lar o kadar acı ki son 5 günü okurken kaç kez kitabın kapağını kapattım inanın hatırlamıyorum. Son ...more
Jaime Arkin
May 02, 2011 rated it liked it
Shelves: stand-alone-books, ya
this book instantly intrigued me when i saw the title and description. it a tough read ... heavy and sometimes hard to stomach but completely worth it.

daelyn is hard to grasp as a character i felt sorry for her but i was also mad. she was giving up and i wanted her to fight for her life and happiness. her relationship with her parents made me want to pull my hair out... but i had hope towards the end but then .... no resolution. i imagine im supposed to determine in my own mind what really happ
Aug 25, 2013 rated it it was amazing
Shelves: 2013
By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead.

Bueno... ¿Qué carajos fue ese final? ¿En serio un final abierto? ¿Que le pesaba a Julie escribir unas líneas más para terminar todo estas dudas?

Esta historia transcurre con Daelyn, que conoce a un chico, Santana, que se siente en la banca junto a ella cuando Daelyn espera a que su madre o padre la vaya a buscar, ha intentado suicidar varias veces, lo que ella dice esto que son intentos fallidos.

Todo este libro transcurre en cómo es el pasado de Daelyn y el
Öykü Coşkun
Jun 15, 2017 rated it it was amazing  ·  review of another edition
Su gibi akıp giden mükemmel bir kitaptı.
Jan 24, 2018 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Shelves: ya
I read this because it fit for a challenge as I normally wouldn't choose to read about bullying and suicide. I got hit over the head when we find out Santana (view spoiler). There are a lot of negative reviews regarding the ending. I found it fitting. It wasn't all wrapped up with a nice bow, but I read it as a new start for all the ...more
Hannah Ashworth
Dec 30, 2010 rated it really liked it
Recommends it for: people who need to wake up—absolutely the best suicide/depressed character book I've ever read.
Julie Anne Peters's By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead is a truly interesting read. Through the book we learn more about Daelyn, a depressed high school girl, and why she wants so badly to commit suicide after several failed attempts. However things may not particularly go the way she planned them, and maybe that's even for the better.

I have so many things to talk about, and about none of them are bad, so you might as well call my review a "praise" instead.

What I really liked about this boo
nesha ~♡
Mar 04, 2017 rated it really liked it
“Lo único seguro es que la vida es un eterno infierno”.
Feb 25, 2017 rated it really liked it  ·  review of another edition
Artık beni yalnız bırakamamasının sebebi altımı ıslatmam değil. Yirmi dört saatlik intihar gözetimindeyim.
Konuşabilsem ona, "Birkaç dakikada olan bir şey, seni sonsuza kadar değiştirebilir," derdim.

Sonu daha tatmin edici olabilirdi.
Anastasia Cynthia
“Aku hanya tahu, aku bangun tiap pagi dan berharap aku mati.” –By the Time You Read This, I’ll Be Dead, hlm. 78

Daelyn tidak gemuk, tapi ia selalu berpikir sebaliknya. Menjadi gumpalan lemak menjijikkan. Menjadi bahan tertawaan teman-teman di sekolah. Memang untuk hal-hal itulah dirinya diciptakan.

Orangtuanya bisa saja pindah dari sebuah kondominium, membeli rumah di sebuah lingkungan baru enam bulan lalu untuk sebuah awal baru. Tapi, bagi Daelyn. Semuanya tetap sama. Ia tidak perlu teman, sama s
Apr 05, 2011 rated it it was amazing
While the book is quite disturbing, it’s an eye-opener at the same time. It gyrates on the woeful life of Daelyn Rice who at a very young age got bullied inexorably. Due to a failed suicide attempt, she became incapacitated to speak. The stigmas poisoned her: the way she reasons out seems irrational sometimes. The way she treats people seems like a simulacrum that she’s a bully herself. At least, that’s what I think.

While reading the book, I felt like I bought myself a manual in committing suici
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Julie Anne Peters was born in Jamestown, New York. When she was five, her family moved to the Denver suburbs in Colorado. Her parents divorced when she was in high school. She has three siblings: a brother, John, and two younger sisters, Jeanne and Susan.

Her books for young adults include Define "Normal" (2000), Keeping You a Secret (2003), Luna (2004), Far from Xanadu (2005), Between Mom and Jo (
“No one ever found out what was happening inside me. How the pain was eating me away. No one ever came to my rescue, or stood up for me.” 210 likes
“I hear you. I just don't believe a word you say.” 134 likes
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