"I was broken. Nothing, no one could fix me. Until you came into my life again. I wish I had gone with you that day instead of him. Because, now I can't imagine how I spent the previous years of my life without you by my side. You are my savior. You showed me that its okay to be broken and you showed me that I wasn't alone. You were with me. i love you for that. But I hate that I love you. I was never good with love. I'm scared that one day I'll wake up without you by my side. One day you will realize that you are better off without me and I don't want that day to come. Not now, not ever. I love you too much to let you go. I finally have a place in this world and that is next to you. You once said, 'Our mistakes compliment each other.' Truer words than these were never said before. We are both broken and incomplete but together, we're whole and we're fixed. We might be too bad for the others, but we are good for each other. They say all good things come to an end, but I'm bad and so are you. Together, we are horrible. But that just means that we're inevitable. You are mine and I promise to forever be yours."
My heart. It's broken. And healed. I love this book so much, I truly think it was fate that I was supposed to read it 4 years ago. After finishing it, I'm still as breathless as the first time I finished. I love fayth so damn much, I felt like I was reading my own thoughts sometimes. I felt so understood by her that I want her to wrap her arms around me, and I swear we become one person. Everything about her hit me deeply, and it was so beautiful to have a connection like that in a book.
Lexis is so so so... I dont even have enough or the right words to describe him. The way he thinks, acts, and loves feels so right to me. And with all the flaws and experiences that made him real, I can honestly say he is perfect. Perfect for me. I felt like throughout the book, I was slowly falling in love with him, and then all at once, he marked his place in my heart. Hard. He is all I want, and if I ever fall in love, I can only hope for a love like theirs.
I love how they love. They made each other accept their past and their mistakes in such an understanding and confronting way, I can't help but feel as if I'm being alleviated too. The feelings and emotions when it comes to them are so raw and pure that it makes you believe in everything good. And. It's. Everything. I. Want.
Little Anthony honestly has my whole entire heart. He gave me hope the same way he did to fayth. His character is so special to me. It was like I was growing fond of him more and more until I felt protective. He's truly a ray of sunshine. And fayth's connection felt like my own connection to him. That kid was too precious with a decent, sincere heart.
Fayth's journey reflected me to my core. It was exactly what I needed to get me through everything. It's like a huge revelation is building up throughout the book, and then by the end, you're left healed. I didn't even realise I had these holes in my heart until F.A.I.T.H. filled it.
I still remember the first time I read this book and the mysteriousness in the writing and the way it's set up had me on edge and piqued my curiosity to the point where I had to move my body to release the tension. It always left me wanting more, I remember literally giggling in frustration with the number of cliffhangers and more questions arising. I just couldn't get enough at the start and the middle... like I comprehended the book, I just needed to know the WHY. And when I got it, the subtlety in each chapter suddenly came back in one rushing moment. It was written so beautifully, so intensely, I have this book imprinted in my soul with the times it played with my heart. It was breaking and healing all the time. After I first finished it, I felt lighter and airless. I stared at the ceiling for so long, my whole being vibrant with emotion. I swear it was like a mini high.
I love dawn academy, I love the drama, and I love the characters so much. Yeah, I know I sound repetitive, but I will never read another book that comes close as this one to being the owner of my heart. I seriously think it was written for me. I'm that delusional lol. But truly it was the best case of "right time right place" when I first came across it. Because now, coming back to it feels like the comfort of home. I even remember making my two best friends read it in 2020, and they couldn't put it down, and one of them even cried with me lmaoo. But it connected us when we talked about it. It's like the book has a special effect, and I'm not the only one who can feel it.
I grew up alongside the characters from 14 year old me to 18 years old me now. F.A.I.T.H. is my hope. It's something that I will always come back to forever♡
Edit: the author, Jo, replied to my comment on wattpad, and on that day, I existed. And she's updating F.A.I.T.H. after 7 years since the last edit, and 4 years after I sent her a fan email (14 year old me would have SOBBED if Jo noticed me) AND SHE DID. NOTICE ME. Life can be so kind<3
Edit (pt.2): she followed me online. Consider us besties now. 🫶🏽
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